The next day, I came to work with a sore body, I hadn't had surgery for too long, and I rescued patients on the first day of work yesterday, which made my heart burst for a long time.

I'm really old, and I'm useless, and I can't be frightened at all. I pinched my neck and walked towards the operating room as I greeted the gynecologist, "Good morning." ”

"Good morning, why do you look so tired."

"Hmm...... I haven't been to work for the past few days, and the amount of surgery was a bit large when I went to work yesterday, and then I rescued an ectopic pregnancy patient, so I suddenly didn't feel comfortable. ”

"You rescued the little girl with an ectopic pregnancy yesterday."

"yes, what's wrong?"

"This morning her five virus results came out, obediently, the five viruses are A, B, C, HID, AIDS, syphilis, the last two she accounted for, you also know that we are a tertiary general hospital, and the diagnosis also needs to be reported by the infectious disease hospital, so I thought about how to think about it and tell her that it is appropriate, our director was afraid of hurting the little girl's self-esteem, and discussed with her in fear, the result is good, and people calmly said I know."

"What? Is there something wrong with her virus? ”

"Yes, my director was very angry, and then the director blew up, and the director said do you know why you didn't tell us when you asked about the medical history yesterday? Guess what the girl said? The girl said, "If you said it, you didn't want to operate on me." "My brain is about to explode when I hear this, damn it, AIDS and syphilis, yesterday I was exposed to the profession, and I delayed the best time to deal with my own occupational exposure in order to save her.

Because she was only 16 years old, she didn't feel okay yesterday, so she didn't report to the infectious disease department, and she didn't have a blood draw at that time, but it gave me such a big surprise.

My whole brain was hot, and I felt the blood rush into my brain one by one. I couldn't even see with my eyes, and I heard Dr. Lee say something again.

I know, at this moment my anxiety is back at the moment, I can't imagine what it would be like if I had syphilis and AIDS at the same time, I still have two children, I can't die, I can't die. The only thought in my mind at the moment was that I couldn't die.

I ran to the head nurse's office and explained the cause and effect to the head nurse. The head nurse hurried up to report to the infection department, and found someone to replace me, and asked me to hurry up to draw blood, and after the blood was drawn, I needed to go to the infection department to sign. Your head nurse told me, how can you not follow the norms? You see what's going on, right? ”

"Section chief, don't blame me, you wronged me, I really had surgery according to the operating procedures yesterday."

"Is there occupational exposure according to operating procedures? If it's wrong, it's wrong, and the hospital will definitely reimburse you, but you must not waste the hospital's resources. ”

"Section chief, don't you think there's a problem with you saying this? Are you saying that I'm wasting hospital resources? I didn't use my hand to receive the needle according to the operating procedures yesterday, and handed the curved plate, but the director didn't pay attention to the hand that pierced my hand during the operation, and I didn't treat the wound in order to save the patient, is it my responsibility? Do you think I'm willing to blackmail the hospital for a few hundred dollars? I'm injured, I'm sad at the moment, I may be infected because of a mistake at work, if you don't sympathize, forget it, you have to say something like this, tell you, this money reimbursement must be reimbursed, and if it is not reimbursed, it must be reimbursed, otherwise we will go to the dean to reason. ”

I slapped the slip on the table and stayed in the infectious disease department.

"I said you, why are you like this? How can you talk to me like that?" The section chief lifted his glasses, but he didn't expect me to talk to her like this.

"What's wrong? Am I not right? Every time everyone comes to you for reimbursement, you are sneering, yes, people who sit in the office will never be professionally exposed, the patient conceals his condition, the chief surgeon does not follow the operating procedures, and now I am injured You didn't ask a word, but blamed me, you think about it for yourself whether it is appropriate for you to say this. "Suddenly I had blood rushing to my head, and I felt that I had to say it, or I would die of suffocation in my heart.

I propped my hands on the desk and stared at the section chief's eyes, "Will you sign today?" ”

The section chief swallowed a mouthful of saliva, "I don't sign." "But she didn't know what I was going to do next, because I could feel that my expression was a little hideous.

"You don't sign it, do you? The head nurse must not have told you before I came, I have depression, before the news said that the person who was saved because of depression jumped off the building and committed suicide, I tell you, I am very emotionally unstable, and I do not rule out doing anything to hurt you. I squinted my eyes and said with a sneer, "Section chief, I have a diagnosis certificate, and I think about it clearly, whether I want to fight with someone who can't be emotionally independent." ”

"I don't know you like a little girl." The section chief snatched my paper from the table and signed it. If I didn't say a word to her on weekdays, I would have turned around and checked at my own expense, but I don't know why, I was so annoyed today that I felt that there had to be a place to let this breath out, and it just so happened that she crashed into it.

I quickly went to the infectious disease hospital to get the blocking medicine, and when I walked out of the infectious disease hospital, I pulled the collar, and it was so cold in the winter, it was so cold that my heart was shivering.

I wandered the streets alone, feeling so dirty that I didn't want to go home, and I didn't dare to get close to my children. Finally, I just moved back to my mother's house, and I haven't had a few days of stable life with my children, and something like this happened on my first day of work.

At this moment, I am extremely angry, and I am extremely sad, I don't know why I have been so unhappy this year, as if everyone and everything are going to bully me.

I had to work three shifts before the end of my breastfeeding leave, and my relationship with my husband became very poor, and then I was approached by the mistress, and I had to wait for the mistress to do surgery, my husband was lying unconscious in the ICU, and I was pricked by a patient with a problem with the virus.

In the past year, fate will give me a whole new trick in a few days, is it to break me down to be happy?

Before I knew it, I walked to the unfinished building where I wanted to jump, and because of me, the area around this building was reinforced. I just stood at the fence and looked at the building, if it wasn't for the mangoes, maybe I would be fine in heaven now, right?

"God, why are you doing this to me!" I yelled angrily at the building, because there was only a frame structure, and there was an echoing vibration from the staircase. I sat on the ground leaning against the railing, and for a moment I felt that my world was gray again.

At this moment, I was angry, regretful, and anxious, I didn't know what to do, and the fire in my heart couldn't be vented, so I quickly got up from the ground, kicked the fence hard, and yelled hard in my mouth "Ah~Ah~" as if to vent all my dissatisfaction.

There was no one in the empty and unfinished building, only a neurotic me who kept venting. I can't imagine what I would do if I got sick, I didn't dare to go home, I didn't even dare to let Little Cream get close to me, although I had stopped breastfeeding, but at night, Little Cream was still willing to suck and sleep, and at this moment, how could I still be close to my child, this year, these two years I even had to pass in panic.