I sat alone on the balcony and closed my eyes, hoping to slowly dilute the emotions of missing Little Cream. Lin Jia didn't go back to the bedroom, but stood behind me and squeezed my shoulders for me.

"Tired, aren't you?"

I didn't move, I left him to serve me. "It's okay, not too tired."

"Well, you're still angry?"

"Well, yes" I don't know why, I used to like to talk about what is the problem, but today I am exceptionally silent.

"Don't be angry, I really don't know what to do to make you happy." When Lin Jia said this, I felt that he was depressed.

It was this frustrating-sounding sentence that made me suddenly feel a little unbearable, since the child was gone, there was no other way. "Lin Jia, I want to discuss something with you."

"You say."

"I hope this is the last time to send Little Cream away, not that Little Cream can't leave me, but I can't leave her. I don't know what you're thinking, but I can really feel that the child is not too happy. As I spoke, tears flowed down the corners of my eyes again, and I closed my eyes and simply let the tears flow freely, and I was too lazy to wipe them dry.

"Okay, I promise you." Lin Jia answered me in a slightly hoarse voice, and I could sense in his deep voice that he was also unhappy.

I got up, turned to him and said to him, "Lin Jia, I hope you have something uncomfortable in your heart, you have to say it, since the two of us are married, there is no need to respect each other every day, I hope we can be casual and say anything." ”

"I don't have much to say." Lin Jia smiled a little awkwardly.

"Your look and tone make me think you have something on your mind, but you didn't even intend to tell me." I said to Lin Jia again.

"Well, forget it, it's fine. You, go and rest. I said.

"Let's go, let's go back together, what are you doing sitting here by yourself at night."

"Okay."

After a while, Lin Jia's snoring came from the bedroom, I was lying on the bed alone, my eyes were staring at the ceiling, yes, I had insomnia, I stared, even if I had taken calming and hypnotic pills, but I was still not sleepy at all.

I couldn't lie comfortably, I turned around, hoping that I could find a suitable position, a comfortable position, and I didn't know what time it was, and I finally felt that lying on the bed, half-curled on one leg might be a little more comfortable.

I pushed the pillow aside, pressed my face to the sheets, and looked at the wisps of light that came through the cracks in the curtains, and a hint of irritation rose in my heart.

I sat up from the bed and slowly moved to the side of the bed, for fear that because of the amplitude of my movements, I would accidentally wake up Lin Jia. Finally, I moved to the side of the bed, put on cotton pajamas, got up and went to the living room, before leaving, I listened carefully, and after I could still hear Lin Jia's even snoring, I quickly left the room.

I didn't rush to sleep, because I knew that at the moment, no matter where I was, I couldn't sleep, I rubbed my swollen head, didn't turn on the light, and lay on the sofa in the living room, because the presence of heating didn't make me feel particularly cold.

I lay on the couch and watched out on the balcony waiting for the lights to turn on, listening to the sound of cars passing by the engine in the distance.

Once again, I am reminded of my lovely daughter, Little Cream.

I wonder if she slept well or not? Did you drink milk before going to bed, did you cry and clamored for your mother, did you want to hold your mother's arm, and then let your mother sleep with her cheek.

Thinking of this, my heart tightened and twitched in pain.

I put my palms on my temples and rubbed my head vigorously, I didn't want to keep thinking about it anymore, but I couldn't help it! I couldn't control myself, I couldn't control myself so that my heart didn't hurt so much, and I couldn't even breathe in pain at the moment.

I couldn't stand it anymore, so I got up and picked up the car keys, unscrewed the door to the living room, and drove the car away from the underground garage.

I am a very obedient person, I never thought that I could take medicine today, drive the car out of the underground garage, I drove the car all the way back to Lin Jia's house, but when I walked to the city boundary, I actually stopped with a sudden brake, I didn't have the courage to take another step forward, and I didn't want to go back.

I miss the child so much, but I know that if I go back here and pick up the child, it will inevitably make Lin Jia embarrassed.

Tangled, I lay on the steering wheel, I couldn't hold back crying anymore, I felt uncomfortable when I sent the child away, if I didn't send the child away, because of Lin Jia, I might also be sad in my heart.

At this time, I instantly felt that I was very sad, I lived carefully, I didn't dare to make my own decisions, at that moment I felt that it was too difficult, I felt that it was too difficult to live.

So, I lay on the steering wheel and cried for a long time, until the tears dried up and I couldn't shed a single tear, I wiped my face, took a few deep breaths, regained my composure, and drove the car back to the underground garage again.

The moment the car was parked, I suddenly felt tired, and my eyelids were very heavy, and I was sleepy in the car. After a short sleep, I lay on the steering wheel and closed my eyes to rest.

Soon I felt my whole body rise lightly, and I don't know how long it was, I heard Little Cream call "Mommy, Mommy." ”

I wanted to reach for Cream, but I couldn't hold Cream's body, and I yelled "Cream, Cream." But no one answered me.

I wanted to cry, I couldn't cry, when I roared angrily, the whole person woke up from the dream, I looked at my watch, at 4:20 in the morning, I wiped the cold sweat on my head, stabilized my mood, wrapped up in cotton pajamas, and gently wandered back upstairs again.

I didn't go back to the bedroom, for fear that Lin Jia, who was approaching the morning, would be woken up by me, so I lay down on the sofa again, but I was still very energetic, I was angry, I took out the medicine bottle from my bag, walked into the kitchen, and took out two sleeping pills again, and drank it with a large glass of cold water.

I wiped the water stains from the corners of my mouth with my hands, walked into Mango's room, looked at Mango's sleeping little face, I covered the child with a quilt, sat on the blanket and held Mango's hand, and before I knew it, I gradually became sleepy and fell asleep.

"Fei Fei? Fifi? "Lin Jia woke me up early in the morning." How to sleep here, you're going to catch a cold. ”

"It's fine." I shook my head and closed my eyes again, I couldn't open them because of the two sleeping pills.

"Get up and go to sleep in the house." Lin Jia patted me on the shoulder.

I shook my head, "I can't move." ”

"Be obedient, go to your room, lie down, and sleep well."

I had just fallen asleep, and I was tossed by Lin Jia and immediately lost my sleepiness, I walked out of the room irritable and shouted at Lin Jia, "What are you doing, early in the morning, can you not speak?" Do you know that it was your words that immediately made me not sleepy, why do you always think that you are good to me and difficult to be strong? With that, I banged on the door and went back to the bedroom.

vertex