In this way, the state of insomnia lasted for five days in a row, I had no energy to go to the operation, so I had to ask for leave at home, the operation is a very delicate work, I work in such a state, it is easy to bring hidden dangers to work, for the patient, it is really not safe enough.

That night, after Lin Jia and Mango fell asleep, I picked up my car keys again and drove out for a ride.

I turned on the sound of the stereo very loudly, in the middle of the night in the cold winter, I did not turn on the heater, opened the sunroof and car glass to let myself in the cold wind, cheer up, after all, I took sleeping pills, for fear that I would be sleepy and sleep.

I drove all the way to Vivian's bar.

"Welcome." As soon as I entered the door, the waiter at Vivian's house shouted at the door, and then saw that it was me, and said with a smile, "Sister, are you here?" How? ”

"How?" I smile.

"...... in pajamas"

"Oh, I can't sleep and go for a walk, so I slipped here."

"That, Sister Wei is having a barbecue upstairs, you can go up."

"No, I'll sit downstairs for a while, I'm not looking for her today." I found a seat and sat down, and the waiter, knowing I was driving, brought me hot lemon tea.

It's sour, it's hot, and it's very comfortable to drink.

I sat in my seat drinking lemon tea and playing with my phone to pass the time. At two o'clock in the morning, this woman was still in the mood to barbecue upstairs, which was really superb.

Thinking of this, I smiled and shook my head, it was really evil, I just thought about it, and I saw Vivian coming down from the second floor with a skewer in both hands, "Pour me a glass of wine, oh my god, it's really freezing to death upstairs, but the mutton tastes good." She called out to the young waitress.

What is the name of this waiter, I remember it before, but today I forgot it embarrassingly, I looked at the waiter and smiled, but I didn't make a sound.

She poured Vivian a glass of wine and winked at Vivian, suggesting that I was here, and Vivien held the skewers in both hands and looked at her, "Yo, rare, little girl, why are you here?" ”

She watched me from afar and didn't move, and her mouth made a slurping sound, "Amazing, go out to the bar in cotton pajamas." "It's quiet here, but at this point, there are quite a lot of people, and as soon as Vivien finished speaking, everyone turned to look at me.

I cleared my throat in embarrassment, "Here you go." ”

"What's wrong? To eat or not to eat? Vivien asked indistinctly, chewing on the lamb.

"You can't just be quiet, people think I'm a stupid hat." I said to Vivien angrily.

"Let's go, come upstairs with me to grill skewers, I'm quite lonely up there." She threw the skewers on the table and dragged me upstairs.

As soon as I went upstairs, I was shivered by a gust of wind.

"Come here, it's warm here." Vivien waved at me.

Sure enough, it was still warm next to the charcoal grill, and I put my hands on the grill to warm up.

Vivien greased the lamb and asked, "Why is this coming, you don't have to watch the child?" ”

"The kid went to grandma's house." I rubbed my hands together and smiled wryly.

"Both gone?"

"No, one is gone."

"Congratulations, you're half free."

"Actually, I don't want my child to go."

"Why?"

"It can be said that children are my spiritual pillars, and when I go away, half of my mind is broken." I took two green peppers from the table and brushed them with oil.

"Spread some sweet noodle sauce." Vivien flipped through the lamb and said, "Where is it so exaggerated, you, you should live for yourself." You see, you're not alive and well at this point. ”

"Vivian, I haven't slept well for several days, as soon as I lie down, I will wake up, because I miss the child, I dare not video, I dare not call, for fear that if I hear the child's voice, I will cry." My nose was sore, and I wanted to cry again, I cried too much in the past two days, and my eyes continued to swell and never went away, so as long as I thought about tears, my eyes were extremely sore. "I ......"

"Pretentious." Before I could finish speaking, Vivien scolded me, "Why are you sending her away if you don't want to send her away so much?" ”

"I, Lin Jia has always wanted to be sent to get along with his mother, and he has always been afraid that the child will not be close to his mother and forget his grandmother."

"This family is trivial, I don't understand, come on, eat skewers, there is wine today and drunk today, and if you are drunk, you are not afraid of not being sleepy." As she spoke, Vivien handed me the glass.

"I don't drink anymore." I smiled and flipped through the green peppers, yes, who can I tell about this kind of thing, after all, behind closed doors, each family has its own way of living, I smiled at the green peppers on the barbecue grill again.

"You came out so late, and Dr. Lin didn't look for you?" Vivian took a bite of the mutton, "Ah, it's so cool, I haven't eaten barbecue for a long time, and sure enough, it's still delicious to charcoal-grill." Vivien trembled with excitement.

"He was asleep and didn't know I came out." I scratched my head, "I don't get along with him very well lately." ”

"Because of the child's business?"

"Hmmm......"

"That, Xia Fei, I especially want to ask you." Vivien stared into my eyes.

"How did you decide to be with him again?"

"On the day I went to the divorce, my mother persuaded me not to leave, at first I was really for the family, and then then he had a car accident and I had to take care of him to the end no matter what, and then I waited for him to wake up, and during that time I felt that everything was not a problem, compared to life and death, these are small things. And then I feel that if I can get better with another person, it is unknown, I still have two children, at least the two of them will follow me and Lin Jia, and they will definitely not suffer a little. I also took a bite of the green pepper and continued, "I knew that Feng Nannan really hated it, but later, I didn't hate it so much, I thought that the car accident was God's punishment for him, and the ectopic pregnancy was the punishment for Feng Nannan, if the two of them had a heart, I think they would change their ways." ”

Vivien nodded and didn't speak, "I've been thinking, I forgive him, is it right or not, their family has made me very tired all these years." I stroked my forehead, and I was really exhausted.

Vivien patted me on the shoulder, but didn't speak.

I rubbed my face and took a deep breath, "Okay, let's not talk about it, let's continue to eat skewers, let's go down, what else can I do." ”

"You haven't thought about divorce?"

"I've thought about it, and sometimes I think about it, why torture each other, the divorce is pulled, but when I think about it, in fact, Lin Jia and I have a very good relationship, but their family is sometimes very annoying, because they are divorced, and they feel too lost."

"If you want to fight back, you have to endure it."

"My mother said that at the beginning of marriage, there will be a run-in, but my two children have been born, and the run-in has not been done yet, so I think my run-in is quite slow." I laughed at myself, "Especially after I'm sick, my mood swings are so big, it's no wonder my mother-in-law likes me." ”