It's been less than a year since we got married. ”

Qin Wafan roared "ah" in shock, and he didn't know whether to say it to his wife or to himself.

"Well, I've been arguing for more than half a year."

Zhao Hong also has the same tone similar to self-talk.

In fact, they are not unfamiliar with the word divorce.

Many times, because of trivial things such as the placement of furniture at home and the purchase of clothes for children, the husband and wife began to quarrel with each other relentlessly, and then I don't know which time, Zhao Hong said the word "divorce", and the couple remembered the first time the sentence resounded in the room:

"If you can't get by, get divorced!"

Qin Wafan stopped talking instantly, and Zhao Hong was also shocked by the conclusive words he rushed out of his mouth for half a second, and immediately rushed into the room with a bang and slammed the door of the room.

The husband and wife were one outside the door and the other inside the door, each angry and sad.

Zhao Hong didn't tell Qin Wafan how she felt after she finished talking that time, but Qin Wafan definitely knew that her heart was like a knife, because he felt like this.

After that, this attitude of being too cautious to be cautious about the word divorce disappeared, and gradually appeared frequently in disputes and quarrels again and again, almost becoming a mantra, and no one should take it seriously. But the deep feeling in the relationship between the two seems to be more shallow.

Of course, when they quarreled, the two children were definitely not at home, and they were put to the two old men, so that they could quarrel without restraint.

Probably many marriages will go through like this:

From the beginning of the love that I couldn't think of the word divorce, to the beginning of the shadow of the word in my heart, and then to the shadow became more and more intense, like a ball, more and more suppressed bouncing back and forth in my heart, even if it reached the lips, it did not let it rush out, until the anger and resentment at that moment finally released the word for the first time. Then, the shadow ball, which had been suppressed in the heart, jumped out of the corner and bounced back and forth between the lips and cochlea of the two of them, until it was no longer taken seriously.

However, until one day, in the quarrel between the two, they suddenly discovered that the word divorce, at some point, turned out to be divorce, and in my heart it began to cover more and more densely like a tree with dry branches.

Probably both of them are aware of such a crisis, and they have begun to silently self-reflect and self-adjust for the sake of their children, for the days when they finally came together, and for the sake of a future that may not be better than the present when they are separated.

Since then, Qin Wafan and Zhao Hong have had a tacit understanding, that is, they will no longer easily let the two children stay with the two old men, or Zhao Hong will also pass, in short, as much as possible, they will not let the two of them have more than half a day of alone time at home.

If you really have to be alone with each other, try to find friends at home as much as possible, or think about things that the two of you can do together in advance, those things that have been verified by their lives, can be done together, can be in tune, and will not cause disagreements and disputes.

Fortunately, having two children is the best glue between the two of them, because divorce means that the brothers and sons will be separated, which neither husband nor wife wants to see. Therefore, every time I look at two lively and cute boys, whether it is Zhao Hong or Qin Wafan, in the end, there will always be one person who disarms and surrenders in his own way in the heat or cold war or takes a step towards the other party.

Because of this, whenever Zhao Hong sends out "How could I marry someone like you?" When he said this, Qin Wafan was angry in his heart, but he didn't add fuel to the fire in his mouth.

And when Zhao Hong always changed from a quarrel or a cold war between the two sides to a dispute and a cold war on her own, she also extended an olive branch to Qin Wafan after a day or two of deflating her anger and said something to show her compromise and retreat.

This time, talking about other people's affairs is actually a compromise hint from Zhao Hong to Qin Wafan's resolute desire to buy land alone.

It's just that the divorce of the young couple is really a big stimulus for the two of them.

"Husband, have you ever wondered if we will have that kind of day?"

Zhao Hong actually asked this sentence that had been hidden in her heart for a long time, and her tone was calm, like an insignificant chat in ordinary times.

"Didn't think about it."

Qin Wafan pondered for a long time and then replied. He couldn't immediately say that he hadn't thought of three words, but he couldn't say that he had thought of two words either. When he heard such a question, he was distraught. Some words, spoken in the past years, will also be like a knife scar, leaving scars and dull pain, like a hand pressing on a swollen rheumatism.

"I've thought about it."

Zhao Hong also pondered for a long time after listening to his answer, and said.

She could say that, but he couldn't.

"Oh."

Qin Wafan responded.

Silence again.

"I've thought about it, so if I can keep going, I'll still leave. However, I really hope that you are a rich man, and we can live a free life, without worrying about money every day, not having to take care of the children every day, and doing laundry, cooking, and mopping the floor like a dog. ”

Zhao Hong usually said such things, he must be full of compelling resentment, but at this time, there is no hot anger and complaints, but there is a cloudy smell in the cool and cold winter. However, it can be heard that she is still very yearning.

Just a little sunshine in his wife's words made Qin Wafan feel gloomy because of his wife's words, but it quickly turned into a sunny day with sunshine shining in.

He knew that at this moment he should have replied that his wife was sorry for making you suffer, but the fatigue of the past few days made him have no strength to apologize to his wife.

He felt that he had done nothing wrong, that was the way he was, that he had worked hard, and that he had been working hard, and that he had been constantly adjusting himself to keep himself busy with his work, and to come back as much as possible to accompany his two sons or come back as soon as possible to help his wife cook.

He is also very hard and more stressful.

He also wants to have a free life.

But he could never imagine that anyone would give it to him, but himself!

Not only that, but he also has to think about how to make his family live a happy and free life.

He felt that it was really harder. It's just that according to his usual thinking, he can't exacerbate the contradictions, and he can't truthfully say such thoughts.

Once he says it, he will know what his wife said: "Since you are so tired, then don't pass it." It's much easier for you to live on your own. ”

So, he had to chew and swallow by himself.

Who can he rely on? Except for himself.

Is it wrong that he wants a little more emotion, a little more tolerance for him, a little more warmth for him?

If his wife had known about his thoughts, she would have replied, "Wrong!" You're wrong! ”

Therefore, at this moment, he can only smile bitterly through the shadow cast by the street lamp.