At this moment, of course, Zhao Hong didn't see the slightly bitter smile that appeared on Qin Wafan's face and then quickly retracted. She was also immersed in her own thoughts.

She can't forget that when she was not married before, she longed for the beauty of loving each other with the person she loved for a lifetime.

Like most young and young women, who is not looking forward to the happiness of holding the hand of the son and growing old with the son?

She couldn't forget the feeling she felt when she first met Qin Wafan: although she was still bookish, she had a more confident and high-spirited atmosphere. In the smile that appeared casually on his face, there was a generous atmosphere. She couldn't help but fall in love with him at first sight, and was sure that this was the person she wanted to join hands with for the rest of her life.

The subsequent meetings all verified that her first impression of him was accurate: high-spirited and warm and generous.

But after getting married, she found that life is realistic, and no matter how much poetry and painting you have, you can have it, but you need to have enough money and leisure to have extra energy.

She also knew that in the small city of Qinfang, the husband she chose was more than enough, and there were more than many people, but she still couldn't control her little temperament from time to time to have a small outburst, of course, at that time, they were still living with her parents-in-law, and her small universe could only be locked up in a room for two people when it exploded. Because of this, she exploded even harder.

She has been spoiled by her mother since she was a child, but after she got married, she lived with her parents-in-law and had to take care of the feelings of the two old people, she knew that this was a matter of course, but she still felt from the bottom of her heart that whether it was behavior habits or daily words and deeds, she could not be free. She doesn't mind serving the elderly, but she also doesn't want to live together every day. But at that time, she couldn't tell Qin Wafan what she thought clearly, so she had to lend it to the nameless fire and send it to him.

Later, they finally had their own house and their own small space, but they also had two children, and she also lost her job because of the second child, and became a housewife completely. The gap in her heart can be imagined, especially that the family life is even tighter, and the living expenses of the two boys are tight, plus the mortgage and down payment, there is no left, and in the past, she needs to find someone to borrow. So the quarrels became more frequent.

For a little daily triviality, for a late return, he can be turned upside down. When the child was in front of him, he was cold for several days. Probably, he also thinks that home is not home, because the warmth is not enough, but why doesn't she feel that this life is a chicken feather?

The housework at home and the upbringing of her two sons were watched by her alone throughout the day, which was much harder than when she was teaching in No. 1 Middle School. She didn't dare to look in the mirror, for fear of seeing that the wrinkles at the corners of her eyes were obvious again, and there were more. She is not yet thirty, is she going to live as a completely middle-aged person?

For this reason, she complained in her heart, who might she blame? In front of the children, she has to try her best to restrain her temper and be a patient and gentle mother, otherwise, wouldn't that be a failure for the children to be their sons?

Therefore, the resentment in her heart could not be released, so she had to lend it to him again, and vented it through all kinds of trivial things in life, and sometimes, even when he came back to wash rice at night, she could complain to him a lot. She didn't know if he had to treat her as transparent when he sat at the table and ate with her, so that he could eat it tastefully.

In fact, many times, when she calmed down, she also knew that people turned big things into small things, and small things turned into small things, how could she count small things into big things? However, she was also helpless, she knew that she shouldn't, but she couldn't control it, as if a pinch of fire was dancing in her heart, and if she didn't send it out, her chest would burst.

In such a small quarrel for three days and a big quarrel for five days, perhaps, like her at that time, he began to consider whether the other party was suitable to continue to live together, right?

When she finally blurted out the word "divorce" that had been buried in her heart for a long time in a quarrel, she actually had a sense of comfort after an explosion in her heart, and finally she didn't have to suppress it, and finally said whatever she wanted.

She didn't want to show her comfort at the time, so she continued to quickly lock herself into the room with an angry expression.

She also seemed to recall that when she rushed to say the word divorce, there was a sense of relief on his face. Could it be that he really wants to divorce her?

She distinctly remembered that she was alone in the room at the time, and she began to reminisce about the look she had observed him. If it is said that divorce, it must be her who proposes it, and he drags her alive and dead. Now it seems that he wished that she would say this, and even wished that she would take it seriously, and that he would obey her wishes? Could it be that he was hooked on a vixen?

At that time, she began to think crankily again, and recalled his past situation over and over again in her heart, little by little:

He usually doesn't like to socialize too much, except for inviting his four little assistants to dinner after working overtime, or looking for Bai Yu to drink lemonade, and going to Qin's restaurant to make an appointment with Qin Fat's boss, the rest of the time is at home. Except for Zhang Lan, who cooperated at work, and Zhang Ming, who had worked before, I didn't see him have too much interaction with other women.

She also observed that whenever the two of them went out, he almost didn't look sideways at those beauties or anything, and looked at them as if they were transparent.

The married life of the two is quite normal, although they have a second child, they don't sleep in separate beds like other people's families. It's just that his snoring wakes her up when she finally falls asleep. But she knew that he was too tired from work on weekdays, and in order to avoid the hidden effects of sleeping in separate beds, she endured it herself and tried her best to get used to it.

So, could it be Zhang Lan and Zhang Ming? It's not like, she can log in to see his email at any time, except for his and Zhang Lan's work emails or holiday greetings, there is nothing else, and the tone is polite and thoughtful.

Moreover, he also specially brought Zhang Lan back to have dinner together, the purpose was to reassure her that she understood.

As for Zhang Ming, it is even more impossible, the woman came to Qinfang for other men, and she turned around and went back to Guangzhou less than two days after falling out with others, and she should not be so quick about her husband, and her husband, she also understands, even if she likes it, she will not like the woman who destroys other people's families, otherwise, the 50,000 yuan will not be really returned in the end.

So who else? Unconsciously fell into boundless worries and troubles, and began to figure it out again.