"Hmm....." Vivian shook her fingers and couldn't speak, "I'm not married, I don't have the right to speak, don't lead you astray, whatever you choose is your own choice, outsiders can only watch the excitement, and you still have to deal with things yourself." ”

"Yes, yes."

"Would you like a drink?" Vivien grinned and tried to persuade me one more time.

"I don't want to." I flatly refuse.

In this way, there was a blind chatter until five o'clock in the morning.

"Go home quickly, spend a night here, aren't you afraid that your husband will get up and pee and find that you are not there, thinking that you have a private meeting with a wild man late at night?" Vivien put her hands behind her head and looked at me.

"No, I'm not that kind of person." I stared at Vivian seriously, "Since you are married, you should have a sense of responsibility in addition to love." ”

"According to what you say, Dr. Lin was a little irresponsible before."

"Yes. So his actions reminded me of my father and mother's suffering for so many years because of me. "It's gone, and now it's a lot calmer, not as excited as it was then.

"It's really unusual that you can still hold on like this."

"Didn't I tell you that I've been thinking about it since I was hospitalized? Think about when I was a child, people asked me, Xia Fei, where is your father? I always had to lie and make up reasons, and then the children made fun of me for not having a father, and when I got a father, my classmates laughed at my father for not being my own father. In this way, I have been living with low self-esteem and lies, telling everyone that I have a father and that my father is on a business trip. In elementary school, I asked to write the name of my parents, and I made up a random name in the father's column. And then I tell people that my current father is my own father. ”

I shook my head and looked at Vivian with a smile, and said all these words in one fell swoop, as if it was not Vivian sitting across from me, but the little Xia Fei who showed stubborn eyes when I was 8 years old because my table mate said I didn't have a father, and then I was punished by the teacher. "It's because of these things that I will always have inexplicable inferiority complex now, I really don't want my children to have such flaws in my personality in the future."

Vivien patted me on the shoulder again, "Go back, woman, like a phoenix bathing in fire." ”

Say goodbye to Vivian and drive home with a somewhat relaxed mood.

On the way back, I saw the breakfast shop with lights on the street, and suddenly I felt that people were born hard, how could there be so many easy and smooth sailing people.

I looked at my watch, and at 5:50, I stopped to buy breakfast. "Auntie, I want two bowls of millet porridge." Because Mango had to eat at school in the morning, he didn't prepare breakfast for Mango.

"Okay, take it or eat it here?"

"Take it away." I rubbed my hands and stood on the side of the road, "Auntie, what time do you get up, there is porridge so early." ”

"I get up at three o'clock every day, and I have to boil all the porridge at three o'clock, and I have to steam the steamed buns, and the noodles have been fermented since the night before."

"Aren't you tired, aren't you sleepy so early?"

"Oh, I'm old, I've been sleeping for a short time, I've been used to it for so many years, when I was young, I always thought, grandma's, when I'm fifty years old, I must stop doing breakfast shops, and I can sleep until what time I want to sleep every morning, and the result is good, the children are not married at the age of fifty, and I have to make money to build a house and marry a daughter-in-law. I finally got out of it, but my sleep was short, so I simply had a heart, worked until I died, I couldn't sleep, and I usually didn't have any hobbies, so it was better to make more money for my grandson to keep. ”

I took the porridge and said goodbye to my aunt. Yes, it's not easy for anyone, everyone sees that buying breakfast makes money, but getting up at three o'clock every morning, all year round, just this one, how many people can do it? Life is not easy for anyone behind closed doors, at least Lin Jia and I work and the wind can't blow, the rain can't get wet, there is heating in winter, and air conditioning in summer, so what's not to be happy about.

The child was picked up, just to take a break, and the mother-in-law could remember to take the child, which is better than not caring about anything all year round.

Thinking of this, I sat in the car and nodded at the steering wheel, said yes, and hurried home.

When I got home, Lin Jia hadn't woken up yet, so I made breakfast, changed my clothes and freshened up.

After a while, Lin Jia got up sleepily, rubbed his eyes and said to me, "Good morning." Why do you wake up so early? ”

"Early in the morning, I couldn't sleep, so I got up and bought breakfast. Hurry up and wash your face and get ready for breakfast. ”

"Okay," Lin Jia rubbed his eyes and began to brush his teeth and wash his face.

After breakfast, it happened that my mother came.

"Mom, have you eaten?" Lin Jia greeted her mother.

"After eating, you can eat quickly, and go to work after eating. Don't worry about me. Mother said with a smile.

On the way to work, Lin Jia kept looking at me, "You don't look like the same today." ”

"Is there one?" I put the makeup mirror down and looked left and right, "What's different, if you want to say it's different, maybe you didn't wear makeup today, right?" ”

"No, no." Lin Jia smiled, "You laughed today." Since you walked from the little cream, you haven't laughed, and you don't dare to talk to you these days. ”

"Really? Do I have one? I pointed at the vanity mirror and poked my finger at the corner of my mouth, "Is there a big difference between laughing and not laughing?" ”

"Hmmm! Much worse. ”

"Virtue! The requirements are quite high. If you don't get angry with me twice a day, I will naturally laugh happily. Taking advantage of the red light, I pinched Lin Jia's ear to show my cruelty.

"To be honest, Xia Fei, I feel like you're really a different person today, you used to be a little too restrained, really."

"Restrained?"

"Well, sometimes it makes me feel like you're too polite with me"

"Is there one?"

"Well, I want you to do whatever you want without thinking too much about my feelings."

"Am I too concerned about your feelings?"

"Yes, on weekdays, you like to eat millet porridge, but I like to eat eight-treasure porridge, we have almost never eaten eight-treasure porridge at home, because you always accommodate my habits, you look at sometimes your temper is very bad, but when it comes to my habits, you are always very accommodating, even if you are unwilling in your heart, but you will still follow my ideas, just like this morning, you bought millet porridge, in fact, it tastes very good, you don't have to look at my thoughts so important every day."

"You're telling me to ignore you?" I joked.

"You can also stop once in a while and take care of yourself, you work every day and then take care of me and the kids, I know you're tired."

"Then why do you keep doing things I don't like?"

Lin Jia was silent, and while waiting for the red light, he held my hand, "Xia Fei, don't worry, it won't be in the future." ”

"No need to promise, I want to see your performance, you promised me, this is the last time to embarrass me, I will not send the child away again, I am the child's mother, where the child goes, it should be my decision, no one can control it."

"Well, don't worry, you won't send it away." Lin Jia held my hand and said firmly.

So, this dispute finally ended like this, I thought that there would be no improvement before the little cream came back, but it was very unexpected, I ate a barbecue, bought a breakfast and slowly thought about it, and sure enough, everyone in the world is bitter, for there is self-ferry.