And at this moment, I unconsciously wandered to the Guandi Temple in the south of the city. I don't know why I, who never burn incense and worship the Buddha, entered the temple on a whim today.

Today's wind is a bit strong, and there are almost no pilgrims in the monastery except for the great monk who is sweeping the leaves.

My pious monk clasped his hands together and said, "Where can I ask for incense?" "Although I have never entered the temple, many elderly aunts in the unit often come out to worship the Buddha and chat with them, and I can understand a little bit about the general rules. The master pointed to the small house that I had entered.

I came to the house and asked for two sticks of incense, one in the front hall and one in the back hall. Then follow the example of the great monk and pious kneel on the ground to worship incense.

To tell the truth, the moment I closed my eyes and bowed down, I didn't think anything in my heart, I said that everyone in the world came to the temple to ask for something, to ask for wealth, to seek management, to seek health, and to seek blessings.

I don't know why I'm here, and I don't know why I'm here today. But the moment I knelt down, I could clearly feel that I was no longer angry.

After burning the incense, I didn't leave in a hurry. The courtyard of the front hall is very large, planted with several ginkgo trees, the ginkgo leaves are already in the cold wind, about to fall off, the great monk is constantly cleaning the ginkgo leaves in the courtyard. In the distance, a flock of pigeons foraged on the ground, making cooing sounds.

On the bell tower at the entrance of the temple, the hanging bell was shaken and jingled because of the wind, sitting in the courtyard, I couldn't hear the roar of cars, there was no commercial street full of voices, children frolicking and crying, and the market was selling, and suddenly I felt that the world was quiet. Only the sound of the great monk sweeping the floor, the sound of the dove cooing and the hanging bell ringing, time seemed to slow down.

I got up and walked towards the great monk, folded my hands and bowed, "Master, let me come." ”

Master Fu shook his head and smiled, "Everything in the world has its own trajectory to follow, everyone and everything has their own things to complete, and sweeping the floor is the practice I want to complete." ”

I sat back on the bench, my chin in my hands, in a daze, the wind was blowing, the weather was really cold today, but I wanted to enjoy a moment of peace in this courtyard, I didn't want to think about those bad things, I didn't want to think about anyone, I just wanted to be a selfish person and think about my feelings.

Lin Jia drove all the way to the unfinished building where I once jumped. He looked around anxiously, for fear of seeing me on the roof again, Lin Jia shouted my name outside the railing, and the empty frame of the unfinished building amplified Lin Jia's voice and echoed.

Lin Jia jumped into the unfinished building without giving up, and sat on the ground in despair after looking around, he held his head in both hands, my overreaction last night and my mother's broken thoughts and sister-in-law's request this morning made him think that I was a vicious woman, didn't I just send the child home, not to send him to death, as for such a big temperament?

At this moment, Lin Jia was a little scared, turned off the phone and didn't answer the phone, and couldn't find it anywhere, which made Lin Jia timid. Suddenly, the phone rang suddenly, and the caller ID was my mother-in-law, Lin Jia swallowed a mouthful of saliva, stabilized her mood, and connected the phone, "What's wrong, Mom?" ”

"Lin Jia, is something wrong with Fei Fei? I've always felt that something wasn't right, if you look for Fei Fei, just call the hospital, why would you call me. Mother seems to have reacted and thinks that Lin Jia will not behave like this on weekdays.

"No mom, I knocked the phone down to the hospital, the aunt at the door of the operating room said that she just received an emergency surgery and was not sure when she would come back, I guess it was on stage, and I don't know if the phone is out of battery, don't worry about it, I drove, I'll go to the hospital to wait for her, and I'll take her home when her operation is over."

"Are you alright?" Mother asked, slightly skeptical.

"It's okay, if anything, I'll tell you early in the morning." Lin Jia smiled wryly on the other end of the phone. I only heard Mango shouting on the phone, "Grandma, come quickly!" Then the mother said, "It's okay, I won't tell you, the mango is too skinny, you can't look at it for a while." Without waiting for Lin Jia to speak, her mother hung up the phone.

In the temple, after the great monk finished sweeping the ground, he took a few water lily stalks from the house, "The donor's escape can only be temporary, and escape cannot solve any problems, this is a few days ago, there were pilgrims from the south to transport water lilies, I will distribute them to the destined people, take it back." The great monk said to me gently.

I bowed deeply, "Thank you, master." How do you know I'm running away?"

The master looked at the Bodhisattva and said with a smile, "Where in the world can anything escape the eyes of the Bodhisattva?" "Let's go back to the house.

I walked outside the temple with the water lily stem, passing by the flower market and buying a pure white vase to match the purple flower.

Back at home, Lin Jia was not at home. I cleaned the living room and placed the water lilies on the table on the balcony. At this time, the door opened, and the moment Lin Jia twisted the door to see me, I could even see his pupils constricting.

Lin Jia hugged me, "Fei Fei is so good, you're fine, Fei Fei, it's good that you're okay." Fei Fei, where have you been, where have you been" Lin Jia even choked up as he spoke, "Fei Fei, I'm sorry, Fei Fei, I'm sorry, Fei Fei, I'm so scared, I'm so scared." ”

I stood there, Lin Jia hugged me tighter and tighter, I don't know what happened, Lin Jia actually changed from choking to crying, I don't understand what Lin Jia is crying about.

I patted Lin Jia on the back and said in a hoarse voice, "Lin Jia, you calm down." ”

"No, I can't calm down" Lin Jia said with a crying voice, "Feifei, do you know? I can't calm down. Lin Jia pressed my head against his chest.

"Feifei, you know what? I can't bear to be called by the police again and say that you may be in danger, I'm afraid that as soon as you run out, we will even be separated forever, Xia Fei, have you considered my feelings, do you know how worrying you are to run out? Saying that, Lin Jia grabbed my face with both hands, shook my head and said, "Do you know how worried I am? I've made you countless phone calls along the way, and you're scared me to death, do you know it! ”

I didn't speak, I just let Lin Jia vent all the fear in my heart, and he turned his fear into violence, shaking my head vigorously to remind me that I would not be allowed to do this in the future.

I closed my eyes and remained motionless until Lin Jia had finished venting. At last he stopped, and he slumped on the couch, his hands on his forehead, motionless, and the sky darkened little by little, until only the people and objects in the room were left with only afterimages.

I stared at Lin Jia and said, "Then you know, I originally went home to apologize to you and my mother, and then let you take the children home?" But you sent the child away without a sound behind my back, did you consider my feelings? That's my child, the child I gave birth to in October, not every one of you to be a good father, a good son, a good grandmother! You can hurt my heart in order not to make your mother sad? You can make me feel uncomfortable for your sister-in-law's heart? Lin Jia, let me ask you, in your heart, do you love me or your sister-in-law! "I used all my strength to explode the silence of the afternoon.

Lin Jia got up from the sofa, "What did you say?" The whole person pressed over, because the room was dark, I could only feel his breath, "I said, do you love me or your sister-in-law, if it is me, why did you do such a cruel thing to me!" Instead of being frightened by his approach, I squeezed the phrase out of my teeth in even more disgust.

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