"Xia Fei, come down quickly!" "Xia Fei, don't you want me?" I didn't seem to hear this shout, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, goodbye Xia Fei, goodbye to this world. But just when I was about to jump, I suddenly heard the child's crying voice, "Mom, Mom, Mom, the baby wants to hug, the baby wants to hug" What I thought was refined into steel, and finally in front of Mango's voice "The baby wants to hug", I couldn't form an army.

Let me take one last look at this lovely child. But the moment I turned around, I was pounced on by the firefighters and pulled back.

I'm Xia Fei, and the child who cried just now is my daughter, who is 3 and a half years old. If you insist on me saying that the reason why I gritted my teeth and insisted on living for so long, I think it must be because of this little man who is soft and fragrant.

I am a nurse in the operating room of Linchuan People's Hospital, and my husband Lin Jia is also a surgeon. When outsiders think that everything is going well for me, but no one knows, I don't know when it started, I can't sleep, I can't control my emotions, I get angry with my parents and husband, I can't stay in the closed operating room for a long time, I can't go to the underground garage, I try my best to cover it up in order to look like a normal person, and at this moment I am like a balloon bursting, I really can't hold on and endure, I want to be a hundred.

I even made full preparations for leaving the world, prepared the child's clothes until I was 18 years old, recorded all the mango's feeding habits and living habits, and wrote down the last words to be said, and the child was taken care of by my mother, because I absolutely cannot allow my husband's wife to remarry in the future may have the slightest possibility of being bad for my daughter, and the family money is divided into two, half of which is reserved for the mother to take care of the child, and the other half is given to my husband...... But all my efforts failed in my last desire to see the child.

There was no light on in the bedroom, only the cigarette in Lin Jia's hand by the bay window flickered and went out, only to see him press the cigarette violently, put his head against my chest and hugged me hard, and kept asking, "Why, why?" Xia Fei, tell me, why is that? Is it that we don't have enough money to spend, or what, why are you doing this, have you thought about the child or not, you have thought about your mom not? Have you ever thought about me? Are you bent on death, are you going to such a remote unfinished building? If it weren't for the fact that someone happened to use a drone to collect wind today and accidentally photographed you climbing upstairs, I might only be able to see you in the hospital now, right? Do you want me to tear you up with my own hands, and sew it completely bit by bit? You tell me, why are you doing this? ”

Lin Jia's slightly crying roar made me a little overwhelmed, on the way home, I had thought about it countless times in my mind, how to tell this cause and effect to others, but it really came to this point, but there was nothing to say.

Just quietly recognizing in the darkness, the outline of the man I loved the most, the warmth that flowed from the corners of his eyes, like molten iron, burned the back of my hand, and even my heart.

The child was sent to my grandmother's house, there was no warm dinner time, there was no speech, the two of us lay down in clothes, he was close to my back, holding my hand, I was like a child who made a mistake, I have never had such a nervous high-speed brain as at this moment, I don't know how long it took to stop, before falling asleep.