When I woke up the next morning, my legs were as if they had been filled with lead, and I couldn't lift them heavily. Leaning back on the pillow, I thought about how to face it all. Just as I was thinking about it, I saw Lin Jia push the door in, and I quickly turned over and pretended to sleep, so as to avoid the awkward meeting.

Lin Jia opened his mouth and said, "Xia Fei, get up?" I asked for leave from the hospital, we don't go to work today, you wash up, let's get ready for breakfast. With that, he turned and left.

I could only open my eyes, wash up, and go to the restaurant, where Lin Jia was watching the morning news. "Come on, I bought your favorite preserved egg porridge and egg scones." I sat down to eat, without raising my head, like a child who had made a mistake, not knowing how to speak. "It seems like it's been a long time since we've sat down for breakfast together." Yes, every morning before dawn, we have already set off to work, stay in the hospital is a whole day, the child eats in the kindergarten, we eat in the hospital, sometimes the operation is busy and misses the meal time, and the day can not eat, the operation is over, he has to write medical records, rounds and change dressings, the time for us to meet is actually really too little, even if they are both operating in the operating room, they may not be able to cooperate in an operating room. Watching the morning news and eating breakfast like this may only have happened in the days of marriage.

"Xia Fei, shall we go to the psychiatric hospital today?" Lin Jia's words interrupted me as I was reminiscing. "Well, okay," I said, looking down and muttering. "Xia Fei, don't think that I decided to take you to the hospital because I gave up on you, on the contrary, I hope I can do this with you until I am old, yesterday's things are too sad, I don't know, if you really jump, what will happen to me and Mango, because I can never imagine that in my future time, without you, I hope we can watch Mango grow up together, get married and have children, and we grow old." Speaking of this, Lin Jia choked.

I took a deep breath and said, "Lin Jia, I am willing to go to the hospital with you." ”

After eating this breakfast quietly, we went to the psychiatric hospital, found Lin Jia's college classmate Zhang Teng, listened to my self-complaint, and after making a score sheet, Zhang Teng told us that he hoped that I could be hospitalized for standardized treatment. Lin Jia held my hand and said, "Zhang Teng, can we not be hospitalized?" You asked me to leave Xia Fei by myself, I can't do it" Zhang Teng said with a serious face, "Old classmate, Xia Fei can walk on the rooftop once and then walk on the rooftop for the second time, have you ever thought about what if she is not discovered?" Can you be inseparable from her 24 hours a day? And depression patients are not completely enclosed wards, do you see the second-floor garden-style ward in the back? It's all for people with depression. ”

"Lin Jia, I'll be hospitalized, don't worry, I will live well, I still have my mother, and you and Mango, these days when I can't control my emotions, I'm really fed up, I want to start over."

"Xia Fei, have you really thought about it?" Lin Jia asked with some hesitation, "Yes, I think about it, I want to live well" I looked out the window at the garden ward, I thought I would be able to do it all over again.

After going through the hospitalization procedures and assigning the ward, Lin Jia went home to prepare his belongings, while I, sitting in the room, called my mother, and before the phone was connected, I forgot all the good words at the moment of connection. "Fei Fei?" My mother tentatively called my name. "Well, Mom, is Mango okay?" "It's okay, I've gone to kindergarten"

"Then she ......" Mother seemed to know what I was trying to say, interrupting me, "I told her that Mom was playing a rescue game with us to test Mango?" You see that you were very brave enough to impress your mother yesterday, and your mother admitted defeat. She really thought she was playing a game, and she was excited to think that she had really won the game, so she slept happily last night" "That's good, Mom, I'm hospitalized" "You have to take care of yourself, Feifei, don't worry about the child, tell your mother if you have any difficulties, Mom will never give up on you" Hearing this, I couldn't stop crying, in order not to worry my mother, I excused myself and said that the doctor was here and hung up the phone.