"Why did you fall off a cliff back then?"

Ah Ran looked at me with a gloomy face, waiting for my answer.

But I didn't know how to respond.

What can I say?

Am I going to tell Ah Ran that the first time I liked someone, I was taken advantage of by that person?

Shall I say that I intend to give myself to him for the sake of that man?

Do I want to say that I was violated by others, and I mistakenly thought that my choice brought ruin to Beili, so I chose to do something stupid?

I couldn't say a word with a frown, just looked at him helplessly.

He sensed something was wrong and put his hands on my shoulders.

"Why don't you speak? Someone bullied you, didn't they? Who is it? ”

I smiled reluctantly and said half-jokingly:

"What would you do if someone really bullied me?"

"I made him double it back." His voice was low and terrifying: "Who is it?" ”

He glanced at the back of my right hand and said angrily:

"What's the matter with your hands? How could it hurt so badly? ”

I retracted my hand into my sleeve.

Hearing Ah Ran mention that person's name, my heart couldn't stop throbbing.

I was silent for a long time before I slowly asked:

"Back then, I heard that while Yue Xiongqi sent someone to raid Leng Yihan's mansion, he also ordered Cheng Feng to lead an army of 300,000 to the north......"

Before I could finish my sentence, he interrupted:

"Who did you listen to? There is no such thing at all. ”

My heart jumped. "Really? You didn't lie to me? ”

Ah Ran is also serious.

"What am I lying to you for? I even told you about Yan Yufei. ”

So...... At that time, I was in Luomapo, why did I hear the two soldiers talk back? ……

Suddenly felt that something was wrong, and carefully recalled the conversation he heard at the time:

At that time, those two people first ridiculed me for being blinded by love and being used by Ling Niankong. When I heard that, I was already in a state of confusion. Later, when he heard that Yue Xiongqi had sent troops north, he completely collapsed.

Just as I was about to question the two soldiers, Xiao Jifeng came and drove the two away......

At that time, my emotions fluctuated too much, and I didn't think about it at all, but looking back at this moment, I only felt that the timing of Xiao Jifeng's return was too coincidental.

Could it be that Xiao Jifeng deliberately wanted me to hear those conversations at that time?

If that's the case, it means that he already knew that I was Yan Zhaoran at that time, otherwise there was no need to tell me about the second half of the conversation.

So what is Xiao Jifeng's intentions? Is he just trying to force me to death?

But if he wanted to kill, I would be easy, because I trusted Ling Niankong and Xiao Jifeng too much. Or am I overthinking? ……

"Why don't you speak? What comes to mind? ”

Ah Ran looked solemn.

"Xiao Jifeng, this person should be extra careful. He's the head of the Wind Shadow Building, and he seems to have known who I was for a long time.

But neither before nor after my return, he did not do anything directly to me.

But the other people from the Wind Shadow Mansion tried to kill me three times and twice, and his behavior was really strange. ”

Ah Ran nodded.

"It's strange, but it's also possible that he has other tasks and can't do anything to you.

We know too little now to jump to conclusions. I'll send someone to keep an eye on him. ”

He softened his tone and said, "What happened back then, can't you tell me?" ”

Looking at the concern in his eyes, I felt very uncomfortable.

I don't want to hide it for Xiao Jifeng and Ling Niankong, I'm not so virgin, I just don't want Ah Ran to be sad.

I looked at him with a slight pleading.

He was a little disappointed but still said, "That's it, if you don't want to say it, don't say it......"

After a moment of silence, he suddenly called to me: "Xuan'er." ”

"Huh?"

"Or I'll give you back the throne?"

My mind went blank for a moment, and it took me a moment to realize what he had said, and my vision blurred.

He smiled helplessly: "What kind of expression do you have?" That seat was yours, and I just kept it for you. ”

I hurriedly shook my head.

"Don't, you've worked so hard for so long, that position is yours, and it will always be."

"Got it, stop crying." He patted me on the shoulder. "Fortunately, you're back, and I've finally fulfilled my mother's request. Next ......"

Little by little, his eyes sank.

I knew what he was going to do next, so I leaned over and hugged him.

"I'd like to do the next thing with you."

"No way!" He flatly refused.

"Ah Ran, I know you want to protect me, and you don't want me to get into those disputes.

But I've been destined to avoid those things since I was born, so let me help you, okay?

That burden is too heavy, I can't bear to see you work so hard alone, let me carry it with you, okay? ”

He stepped back, and I let go of him, and I saw the light in his eyes.

"Do you really think so?"

"Hmm." I nodded earnestly.

He was a little helpless. "Alright then, I'll talk to you about the two countries in two days. But ......"

"But what?"

"You're so stupid, are you sure you won't mess with me?"

I almost didn't vomit blood when I heard him say that.

"You're stupid! You're the only one in the world who calls me stupid! You always scold me, and you beat me at every turn......"

I complained, but I could tell he was happy.

The food on the table was almost finished, and he told someone to leave.

"I've already sent someone to the other courtyard, and you can see Qingdai before evening."

"Qing Dai?"

She also came back without incident?

"yes, I thought you would go to live in another courtyard, so I arranged her there. Since you are going to live in the palace, she will naturally go back to the palace to accompany you. You maid is wise, and you got out before you. ”

"Did she follow the secret line you told me at that time to return to Night City first, and then contact you?"

"Not bad. She's been back for months. I still have excerpts to read, so I won't accompany you yet. ”

"Okay."

******

I sent Ah Ran out of the door, and I felt a little tired, so I took a nap for a while.

As soon as I woke up, I heard a knock on the door. The brain was dazed and didn't want to pay attention, but he heard a familiar voice: "Your Highness." ”

I immediately sobered up and ran over to open the door.

"Your Highness, you're finally back!" Qing Dai's face was already full of tears.

I immediately stepped forward and hugged her, but I was speechless for a moment.

When she saw me crying like this, I was infected by her emotions, and I didn't hold back my tears, but I still let her go.

"Let's go inside and talk."

"Yes!"

I sat down on the couch, but she stood.

"Sit down!" I snorted.

She was hesitant, but when she saw my insistent gaze, she sat still.

I looked at her red eyes with tears and felt sad in my heart.

"It's really hard for you to follow me."

"No, Your Highness, no. Qing Dai is glad that she was taken away with His Royal Highness in the first place, and she can still take care of you by your side. ”

"Silly girl, why are you thinking about me all the time? Have you ever planned for yourself? ”

Qing Dai shook her head. "Qingdai just wants to be by His Royal Highness's side."

I looked at her for a moment, but swallowed what I wanted to say back into my stomach.

If it were purely according to my current nature, I would have set her free from her slavery.

But now I have memories of another life, and I know that in her eyes, this is not only not for her good, but for her to drive her away.

It's better to take your time and find opportunities to help her plan her own life.

But I also have a problem now, and that is that I am confused about how I position myself.

Because I have lived in the 21st century for much longer, I still feel that I am the surgeon Yan Linxuan.

But it is undeniable that I am also Yan Zhaoran.

It's just that more than thirty years of experience in another world have turned me into a different person.

A little girl who will never live as cautiously and even fearfully as Yan Zhaoran will ever be.

But I don't need to worry about it.

Didn't Ah Ran say it? No matter who I am, he can accept it.

He is the only person I care about now, and since he can accept it, then I will live according to the way I am used to Yan Linxuan. What do you want to do so much?

"By the way, Your Highness, Qing Dai brought you the clothes when you came back, you can see if there are many things......

As she spoke, she brought in a tray from the outside. On them were my clothes, as well as the bottles and jars I carried with me, silver needles and knives.

I checked them in turn and found that the clothes had been washed and cleaned, and the silver needle knife was still usable, but the medicine bottle had been filled with water, and the medicine had to be refilled.

Eventually, my gaze fell on an azure object, and my heart sank.

Is that...... A sachet ......