Qing Dai saw that I had been staring at the sachet, and handed it to me with some doubts.

"Is this sachet important? It's a pity that it's soaked in water, and I don't know if the taste is still the same as before. ”

I clenched the sachet in my hand little by little, but my heart seemed to be blocked with cotton, and I was uncomfortable, so I asked softly, "Is there any wine?" ……”

Qing Dai saw that I was in a bad mood, so she put on the wine and retreated.

As if I was enchanted, I picked up the sachet and sniffed it at the tip of my nose.

Suddenly, I was surrounded by a rich fragrance.

It was a mixture of agarwood and sandalwood......

The man said that agarwood was made more than white sandalwood; The man said, It smelled of him; The man said, "With this sachet, I will be surrounded by his smell whenever and wherever I want......

Bastard!

I cursed and threw the sachet out.

The sachet flew diagonally across the room and ended up smashing against my pillow.

I just picked up the flask and poured it hard, and the spicy liquor made me cry.

I choked, tossed the flask aside, coughed desperately, coughed and cried.

But I laughed again after crying and crying, and I remembered the scene before I parted with him.

How ridiculous!

I cried so sadly because of a small handkerchief that I thought he was still looking for Leng Qingqian.

And what's more!

There are countless ridiculous things like this!

When I first met him as Yan Linxuan, I was inexplicably moved by him.

At that time, I knew that he was a dead man in his heart, so I loved humbly, suffered and suffered a lot.

And he hurt me like that because he loves Leng Qingqian. I occupy a cold and shallow body, and there will be no good results.

I knew that.

But I don't understand it now, because I'm just cold.

So...... So the reason why I got those injuries was because he loved me too much?

How funny!

Isn't that funny? Isn't it ironic?!

"Hahaha......"

I laughed, but the more I laughed, the more I couldn't stop the tears.

Memories burrowed into my head like a nightmare, replaying them over and over again.

I continued to pour myself wine, trying to stop these heart-wrenching memories, but to no avail.

My brain didn't listen to me at all, and all kinds of thoughts were driving me crazy:

Afterward...... Afterward...... Ling Niankong said he liked me...... He said he loved me and said he loved me no matter who I was......

He also took me to the banks of the Jinshui River, took me to look at the stars on the roof of the octagonal tower, and said that I would definitely be the best wife in the world.

At that time, I really thought about marrying him, and even thought about having a baby for him!

Scold...... I was really crazy at that time!

When he was in Xinghua Village, he said that he had liked me for a long time.

Didn't he like me for a long time?

He's been liking me since I've been in my last life!

Who can compare to such affection? Who can compare?! ……

Sometimes I laughed so much that I couldn't breathe, and sometimes I cried so much that my internal organs ached.

It seems that I am really crazy, but because of a man.

Oh, Yan Linxuan, you are really promising! ……

My consciousness was up and down, and the jug was already empty, so I just picked up the jar.

Later I seemed to fall asleep and dream, but it seemed like it was just meditation in a trance.

Because I feel like I've been drinking, but I don't know if it's in a dream or if it's really drinking.

There were a few knocks on the door, but I ignored them, and no one from outside dared to come in.

I didn't care if I was lying on the ground, I didn't know if I was in bed or on the ground, I just felt like the world was spinning.

Ling Niankong, the conversation between you and Luo Chenran that I overheard that day was actually that she told you that I was Leng Qingqian, right?

You must not know what to do when you know it, do you?

Are you happy or sad?

The so-called method that Luo Chenran brought you to recover Leng Qingqian should be the way to restore my memory, right?

Tell you the truth, are you scared?

You're afraid I'll remember, right?

Later, I cried and asked if you want to get Leng Qingqian back, you must be very conflicted, right?

You don't want me to remember the past, but if you don't tell me who I am, you can't explain it to me, who I don't know anything about it.

Oh, it's really hard for you!

Ling Niankong, what kind of medicine did you give me?

It's been until now, and I'm still stupidly wondering if you mean anything to me.

When we first met, I was still cold. Did you really like me at that time?

If you really like me, how could you say that to me on the slope of the horse?

How can you hand me over to Xiao Jifeng?!

But if you don't like me, when you are on the edge of the cliff, why do you say that you are wrong in such a tone, begging me not to seek death?

And why were you so angry when you thought I was encroaching on Leng Qing's shallow body?

I've always prided myself on being smart, but this time I really don't understand, I can't see through your heart.

Or do you have no heart in the first place?

What are you doing now?

I'm overboard, you're looking for me like crazy? Or do you go home with a sense of relief? ……

There seemed to be a mess in my mind, and the more I tried to straighten it out, the more entangled I became, and as a result, even I fell into it, and the more I struggled, the more suffocated I became.

Also, even if I think these things through, what can I do, anyway, I can't be with him anymore......

I slowly lowered my head to look at the place of my heart.

Hey? It's weird, it looks good, but how do I feel like something is piercing my heart?

It turns out that this bloodless injury is even more fatal!

Ling Niankong, it seems that we are finally coming to the end!

In fact, we're at the end of our rope, aren't we?

Is it really God's mercy to be able to get to where we are today?

Or is this a punishment from heaven?

Ling Niankong, you may be sincere to me, but just because you put me in a desperate situation three times and twice, I will never forgive you again.

There are so many scheming and your faces.

I don't want to make excuses for you, and I don't want to think about the possibility of "maybe you're having a hard time".

You cannot live if you have done your own iniquity.

Just when you Ling Niankong sent me to Xiao Jifeng's bed, we were destined to have no good ending.

It's hard for me as a modern adult to accept being violated, especially when I was just a teenage girl!

That alone is enough to make me lose all hope in my life!

But even though I think about it so much and make up my mind so much, just thinking about you makes me feel so painful that I even have to breathe.

Ling Niankong, you have done so many bastard things, I am still reluctant, reluctant to let you go.

It's like tearing out a thorn in my heart to forget about you.

And before I can do it, I'm already dying of pain......

******

I don't know how long I've been mad, and I woke up with a headache that felt like it was about to crack.

I moved, and found myself resting on a man's arm, my own hands still clutching that arm.

I went to look at the person next to the bed and saw Ah Ran, who was pale.

Seeing his angry gaze, I was completely awake and sat up from the bed.

"Awake? It's not easy, you can still wake up, why didn't you drink yourself to death? ”

Ah Ran was obviously angry, and I felt guilty.

"I'm sorry for worrying you......" I said as I wiped tears from my eyes.

"I've grown my skills, and I've learned to use wine to kill my sorrows, ah?!"

His voice suddenly rose up:

"Crying for what?!

Are you so wronged? Do you still want to drink it? No problem, I'll be with you personally today! ”

As he spoke, he stood up suddenly.

I was so frightened by him, I had never seen him so angry, and I hurriedly moved to the bedside and hugged him from behind him, and cried:

"Ah Ran, I was wrong, I'm sorry, don't be so angry, okay? I don't want you to be angry with me......"

He seemed to sigh and sat down on the edge of the bed, but his back was to me.

I moved" suppressed the emotions in my heart and said timidly:

"I know I've gone too far this time and shouldn't have drunk so much.

I'm not usually like this, I just felt bad yesterday, that's why I drank.

It will never be like this again......"

"Are you uncomfortable?

Why don't you want to think about me seeing you drunk like that yesterday, and I feel bad?! ”

His anger did not subside, and the words he uttered made me dizzy.

I continue to apologize:

"I'm sorry, it's me who is too selfish, it's me who is ignorant...... Or...... Or you can beat me. ”

I took his hand and put it on my head.

He shook me off and was silent for a long time before he said:

"Are you just that can't let go of that person? He's that good? ”

My body stiffened.

He...... Does he know what I'm drinking?

Also, I was really drunk yesterday, I don't remember him coming, I must have said a lot of drunk words to him......

I put my forehead on his shoulder and said in pain:

"No, he's not good at all, he's just a bastard......

Ah Ran, don't worry, it won't be long before I can forget him, I will definitely forget him......"

He moved, and I looked up and saw him turn sideways.

"Xuan'er, if there is someone you like, no matter who that person is, as long as you have carefully identified it, I will bring someone to you. But that person alone can't. ”

He looked at me for a moment, straight into my heart.

He seemed to have made up a lot of determination before he said it.

"Well, I know, I'm going to forget about his ......," he said, and the tears flowed again.

Although I don't remember what I said to Ah Ran last night, judging by his appearance, he should know the harm Ling Niankong caused to me.

"Forget him, or sooner or later, you will be more miserable than you are now."

His solemn look made me a little dazed, but I nodded earnestly.