I don't know when it began, my sleep became intermittent and very shallow, so shallow that I could hear the elevator door gently opened, and I always had to wake up intermittently many times in the middle of the night, whether it was taking care of the children, or because I couldn't sleep because of anxiety, in short, this state has lasted for a long time.

In the morning, I started with my sore legs and sleepy eyes, and every morning I had to rub my face vigorously to get out of bed. Now sleep separately from the children, each of the two children wears a sleeping bag, because the bed has a bed block, so there is no need to worry about the child falling off the floor.

In this way, the burden at night can be a little lighter, but because I have too many things in my heart, I can't sleep well at all, and now I am like a frightened bird, worried that the phone will ring, worried that I will be harassed by debt collection calls, worried that I will be kicked out of the house by my sister-in-law, and worried that I will not be able to pay all the money.

"Let's go." In a feeling of loss, Lin Jia was evoked, "Go to work." Lin Jia patted me on the shoulder.

"Lin Jia, do you still want a divorce?" In the car, I asked again about last night's topic, I don't want to have a hard and unhappy life, at least make it a little happier, after all, there is no money, if I am unhappy, it may be even more difficult.

"Hmm." Lin Jia said very little today, I think it's still awkward.

"So, is it because of the child or because of it?"

"Get out of the car, you're going to be late." Lin Jia diverted the topic, he didn't answer me, I didn't get an answer, I wasn't too happy, I hoped I could say from his mouth that it was because of me, but no.

The two of us didn't speak in the elevator, and I don't know when we didn't have a good morning kiss or a parting kiss. I hurriedly stepped off the elevator without speaking, without looking back, and Lin Jia didn't even say goodbye.

Today's mood is very affected, I made a lot of mistakes during the operation, either I didn't put the drainage tube logo, or I forgot to insert the urinary tube, in short, I was in a very panicked state throughout the day.

After work, I told my mother to let her pick up the baby, and then I came to Vivien's shop for fun.

"Yo, I've been coming here a lot lately, let me, the director of the women's street department, see what's wrong with our future director Xia?"

"Let's go, it's not in shape," I glared at Vivien, and then said to the clerk, "Get me a glass of ice water." ”

Xiaoyou smiled and nodded to me, then poured a glass of ice water and said to me, "Sister, why does your face look so bad today." "I smiled" probably because I haven't slept well, I haven't been sleeping very well lately. ”

"Then you have to go to the hospital to have a good look, because poor sleep really affects people's health." Xiaoyou said to me seriously, Xiaoyou didn't know that I had depression, and I didn't know that I always had insomnia.

"Okay, thank you." I took the ice water and drank it down.

"Sister, you drink slowly, you drink so fast, it's not good for your stomach." Xiao Yu was a little worried when he saw me drinking ice water like this.

"It's okay, I'm an iron stomach, haha." I smiled at Xiaoyu.

Xiaoyou is only 20 years old, she looks full of youth, her eyes are crooked, and when she speaks, it seems to become a crescent moon.

A person who is not very familiar with me can care about me like this, and suddenly my heart has a warm feeling.

"Tell me, what's wrong?" There weren't too many customers at this time, and Vivien had time to spend with me for a while, she sat down and watched the customers in the shop and lit a cigarette.

"It's okay, it's just that I'm quite depressed." As he spoke, he felt aggrieved and wanted to shed tears.

"Let's go, Niu'er, sister will take you to a good place." Vivian snapped her fingers at me, "Xiaoyou, you look at the store, something calls me, I'll take your Sister Xia Fei out to breathe." ”

Then Vivian pulled me and walked to a neighborhood, which was a very dilapidated neighborhood, with houses built in the last century, no property, no elevators, and then turned around and stopped in a building.

"Where is this?" I asked, puzzled.

"Let's go, follow me in and find out." Vivien smiled and pulled me into the unit.

Then we came into a resident's house on the first floor, but when I opened the door, I was stunned, there were several tables in the small three-bedroom house, and several tables of guests were eating hot pot! That's right, it's to eat hot pot.

"Come on, come on, let's go inside." Vivien said to me.

We walked to the bedroom inside that had been converted into a small private room, and Vivien yelled outside, "Boss, here!" ”

A short woman stood in front of us, grinning, "Vivien, you're here again." ”

"yes, bring a friend to try," Vivien said with a smile, "It's still the same as before, the butter hot pot should be extra spicy, and then the rest will be served on my usual food." ”

The landlady smiled and said, "It's okay." ”

After the female boss left, Vivian poured me a glass of water, "Drink water, wait for the hot pot to come up and have a good meal, today my sister will treat you to a good meal, and tomorrow you will have no worries." ”

I looked around and said, "Where did you find all these places?" ”

"You think I eat like you, follow Lin Jia to eat high-end restaurants, I like this kind of dirty, but the taste is very authentic, I know that there are many chain hot pot restaurants in the city, but that kind of hot pot is too far from the authentic taste."

"How did you find them?"

"Hmm......," Vivien smiled, "probably smelling it." ”

After a while, the hot pot was brought up, the store used a gas stove, and there was a gas tank next to each table. ”

The hot pot restaurants I've eaten all use induction cookers, and there are very few like this.

"Why haven't you used a gas canister?"

"How is it possible, when I was a child, there was no natural gas pipeline at home, and gas canisters were used, at that time, I drank my mother at home, and when I changed the gas canister, my mother dragged it from the first floor to the fourth floor by herself, and the gas tank sank, and my mother stopped and stopped, and I pushed her in the back to prevent the gas canister from falling." I held my chin in both hands, looked at the dancing flames, and my thoughts drifted a little farther away.

"Mom, are you tired?" I was supposed to be six years old, or younger, and I had a little hand pushing the gas canister in the back, and my mother was pulling the gas canister in front of me and clenching her teeth and pulling it upstairs.

"Don't be tired, baby, get up quickly, mom can do it herself."

"Don't." I shook my head, I was going to help my mom with the work. I was desperately pushing the gas canister for my mother in the back, and I may have used all my strength, but maybe not only could I not help my mother, but I would also cause trouble.

The distance of the four floors, under the effect of the gas canister, made me feel extraordinarily far and tired, I wiped the sweat from my face with my hand and said to my mother, "Mom." Can you reward me with an ice cream? ”

The mother let go of her clenched teeth and smiled, "Yes." ”

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