I got up from my seat, squatted next to Mango, and touched Mango's head, "Then you tell Mom, your eyes are red and you want to cry, are you afraid that Mom and Dad will divorce?" ”

Mango had tears in his eyes, nodded, and the moment he nodded, big tears flowed down his face, and Mango put his arms around my neck, "Mom." Mom. I don't want you to divorce Dad, I don't know if I want to follow my father or my mother when you separate, because I can't see my father if I follow my mother, and I can't see my mother if I follow my father. ”

Again, I was surprised, "Who told you all this?" ”

"It was my classmate who told me, he said that his father and mother divorced, and he would ask who you wanted to play with, and if he said that his mother would not have a father, and if he said that his father would not have a mother, and maybe my sister and I would have to separate."

I looked at Lin Jia, and then said to Mango seriously, "Mom swears to you, Mom will not divorce Dad, because Mom doesn't want Mango to be separated from Little Cream, and Mom doesn't want Mango to be separated from Mom, or separated from Dad." ”

Mango still had red eyes, "You, you hook up with me." ”

I held out my little finger and said, "Here, pull the hook." ”

Mango wiped his tears with one hand, hooked the other hand with me, and muttered in his mouth, "Hang yourself on the hook, you can't change for a hundred years, whoever changes is a big stupid pig." ”

I patted Mango on the back, "Eat, kid." ”

Mango wiped her tears and nodded, "Mom." You're really not getting divorced, are you? ”

I said, "Yes, we don't get divorced." "I'm not sure if Mango heard us at the kitchen door just now, although I spoke softly, but I'm not sure, because Mango's reaction tonight is really abnormal, Mango is a girl with a lot of emotions and a very delicate mind, so it can't be ruled out that she discovered something from these details in life.

In short, the only thing I can do is to calm my daughter's heart and make her less afraid, and I don't want her to go back to the path I once walked.

Because of the failure of the family, I didn't dare to fall in love for a long time, I avoided talking about my feelings when I was in school, I was afraid of other people's confessions, and I was afraid of confessing to others, I was not good at expressing my feelings, I preferred to close myself in my own small world, I didn't have to communicate with people, I didn't have to dig out my inner secrets with people.

After the meal, it took me a long time to make Mango happy again, and when it was time to go to bed, when Mango and Little Cream were lying on the same bed and listening to bedtime stories, Mango made sure again that I would not leave her or her father one day.

I reluctantly smiled and said "never" but I wanted to cry bitterly in my heart, baby, it's not your mother who wants to leave you, it's your dad who wants your mother to leave.

Coaxed the child to sleep, I rushed to the balcony angrily, Lin Jia was smoking, I stood on his side angrily, "Lin Jia, you want to die, don't you?" Why do you ask this question if you don't want to die? I just want to ask you, what is the purpose of your divorce from me? ”

Lin Jia spit out a puff of cigarette, still didn't speak, didn't look at me, and my anger was rising little by little at this time, and I wanted to strangle Lin Jia.

But I tried to make myself look less irritable, I patiently said, "No matter what you think, whether you think you are dragging me down, or whether you think I am not worthy of you, in short, I can't divorce you, even if you have no real name, even if you have different dreams in the same bed, I won't divorce for the sake of my children at this moment." At home, whether you are sincere or pretending, you must give me a smile, show me happiness, and make the child think that we are okay. ”

"Fifi." Lin Jia covered his head: "Why do you bother? ”

"Why bother?" I stared at Lin Jia and refused to relax, "Why do you think I am?" You should know that I am a single parent and I am not a last resort, and I will never allow my children to not have a complete family. ”

"Fifi." Lin Jia closed his eyes in pain, "You forget, I can start over." ”

"Smack." My hand rose and fell, and I slapped Lin Jia in the face, and I gritted my teeth, "Are you talking about human words?" ”

I grabbed Lin Jia's collar, "Look at you now!" Just because Lei Ming found someone to help you today, just because you feel that your bad things are known, you can't live? You're going to part with me? Shouldn't you be thinking about how to cheer up and let people see that you're not the kind of people laugh at you. ”

Lin Jia shook off my hand, "It's easy to say, I owe so much money, and now I'm in debt because I saw the wrong person, what do you think I should do?" What else can I do, now up to the dean, down to my students, they all know that I have borrowed money for the guarantor, how can I be a person in the hospital now. ”

"How to be a person? Be a man with your tail between your legs! If you can't speak, don't talk, and reduce your sense of presence. I looked at Lin Jia seriously, "Lin Jia, you shouldn't be like this, you are in my heart, high-spirited, self-motivated, promising, in everyone's words, you are the closest person to the director, look at you now, I don't rarely talk about you." You said you were afraid that people would laugh at you, so now that it's happened, what can you tell me? ”

I looked at Lin Jia, who was squatting on the ground and decadent to the extreme, and my heart rose with distress, feeling that Lin Jia was so pitiful at the moment, but he did respond to that sentence, the poor person must have something to hate, and the reason why he put himself in such a situation was all caused by himself.

If he could resist Feng Nannan's temptation, he wouldn't quarrel with me, and then open his head. If he can work honestly and not have those unrealistic fantasies, he will not be in arrears and debts again.

I squatted in front of Lin Jia, "Lin Jia, I just want to ask you a word, are you divorcing me because you don't love me anymore?" I held Lin Jia's face, "Please tell me honestly, don't lie to me, I just want to hear the truth, after so many years of marriage, the two of us don't have to hide it." ”

Lin Jia shook his head, "Xia Fei, I love you, I have loved you from the beginning to the present." But now I can't love anymore, because I don't have anything left to give you, I can't give you money, I can't even seem to give you happiness, I only bring you pain, poverty. ”

"Lin Jia." I said softly, "Lin Jia, I don't care, the only thing I care about is whether you love me or not, if you say you don't love me, I am willing to divorce you, but if you feel that you can't give me anything, then you don't have to, I'm the same as Mango, I just want to be together as a family, we have all experienced life and death, what are you afraid of, you can't bear it yourself, right?" ”

Lin Jia didn't speak, I hugged Lin Jia in my arms, "Lin Jia, we have to work together, don't doubt me, I just want to go down with you, let's pay back the money together, save money to buy a house together in the future, and then our family of four will be happy, isn't it?" Although I know that this process may take a long time, as long as the two of us work hard, there is no hurdle that cannot be overcome. ”