The girl walked alone on the tree-lined path, her round-toed shoes with thick soles striking on the white masonry.

I just made a foreign appearance in front of Su Xiaolian.

Dai Mengtong put her hands behind her back, and walked through the grass in the breeze, she came to the front of the court, and her thoughts drifted into the distance.

I'm Dai Mengtong.

That day, because I was scolded, I came to the park alone, and there were many children in the park, but they didn't want to play with me.

I sat alone on the swing in the park, quietly watching the white clouds moving slowly in the sky, she came to my side, the child was also alone, alone and projecting his eyes around.

She came to me.

"Hello, I'm Li Rurong, can I play this swing with you?"

That's what she said.

I saw her eyes, which were very similar to mine, and I happily agreed.

We were all happy, she was happy to be able to play on the swing, and I was happy to have someone to play with me with the same look.

"I'm Dai Mengtong, let's play together."

That's how I answered her.

We made a pact there to be good friends with each other, good friends for life.

After saying goodbye to her, I walked home alone, a home without a trace of warmth and coldness.

Later, Xiaorong often came to the house to play with me, because my father didn't know when he knew that Xiaorong's father was the boss, so he asked me to invite Xiaorong to the house as a guest, and if I didn't agree, he would take the bamboo stick on my body to form a memory and beat my body hard.

My mother didn't die like I told Xiaorong, but ran away with a rich man and left forever. The girl's body slowly grows up, making me more and more like my mother, and my father's eyes look at him every day from the beginning of love and regret to hatred and abuse.

Why did my mother leave, I think I have some experience.

The man had a beast hidden in his body, and he took off his disguise day by day as he lived his daily life.

Probably when I can remember, the object of this bamboo stick was my mother, and the constant swinging every day made this originally green bamboo stick turn light yellow.

I don't want Xiao Rong to come to this cold home, so I often refuse Xiao Rong's requests, I don't want a trace of darkness to invade that girl, this is probably my biggest hope when I was young.

I don't know when I became afraid to face Xiao Rong, even outside, without my father's gaze, I became cowardly, and sometimes I didn't even dare to face Xiao Rong's smile.

Sometimes I wonder if I deserve that big smile.

It is not known when the rumors appeared.

The sting of a single-parent family, the absence of a mother, and the seat where the parent-teacher association will always be absent.

But it doesn't matter, there is also Xiao Rong, we said that we would be friends for life, in the darkest time, Xiao Rong's appearance swept away the dark clouds that shrouded the sky, and the nectar of the sun sprinkled on my body, in which should have been thirsty heart, I saw spring.

Xiao Rong's smiling face is the beacon of my lost in the dark, guiding me in the direction of the dark.

Just, just, just why, she didn't smile at herself anymore.

Yes, I only have Xiao Rong, Xiao Rong is everything in my heart, yes, people are marionettes, and the invisible three threads on the body. Vanity, complacency, fame and fortune are all alive for these, Xiaorong is different, she is an angel, illuminating all the gloom on me for the first time.

"Ugly."

"Xiao Rong is an ugly bastard."

"It's really ugly! Hum. ”

I don't know when the abuse appeared in their mouths, and Xiao Rong, who was standing alone in front of him, stood up at that time.

"Xiao Rongcai is not ugly, she is my most, most, best friend."

That's what I said.

"Playing with the ugly eight is also the ugly eight!"

"Ugly."

"Mengtong is an ugly bastard."

"It's really ugly!"

I didn't care about these words in my ears, because Xiao Rong was beside me.

turned around, but Rong left quietly at some point, and I gradually took on the words alone.

Grievances are like broken glass biting into your mouth, but you can't spit out the blood in your mouth.

It's really fun to be with Xiao Rong, even if it's a lot of pain.

I still stay by your side as before, the disgusting words gradually only hit me, I began to bear it silently, forced a smile in front of Xiao Rong, I wanted to pretend that it didn't matter, but you really didn't care.

It's betrayal, the smell of betrayal spreads in my heart, the angel doesn't belong to a person like me after all, she will still flap her wings, return to the sky, and disappear from her sight.

The splash that fell from the sky that day was sprinkled from the sky, I tried my best to push Xiao Rong away, I was drenched in the soup chicken, rolled my skirt and came to Xiao Rong, the water splash slowly flowed down my thighs, and what I got was a sentence: Xiao Tong, you seem to be peeing your pants now? Hahaha, toilet pauli.

Yes, what is more sad than sadness is the comforting words that I want to get, but it is empty joy.

I hate darkness and loneliness, but there is only darkness and loneliness around me, and even if I don't like it, I have to face it.

I have nothing left and now all I have is left.

Gradually, I no longer expect any people and things, so do I have my own future?

My current self is a wonderful age, I like the current period, but I can never like the current self.

I don't know when the nickname of Toilet Tong began to spread.,Xiaorong also began to be estranged.,Who caused me to look like this.,I don't know.。

All I want is a reassurance from Xiaorong and a smile at myself every morning, and that's enough.

The constant ridicule every day made me hide in the corner and cry alone, often alone, alone! Collapsed, and another person healed himself after crying.

Such a self is really a rotten person.

I've heard that fish only have memories of seven seconds, and sometimes I really want to become a small fish, forget the memories of seven seconds ago, and live happily in the water forever, so that I won't have any troubles.

When did the nightmare appear?

When I received the letter and was called to the women's bathroom, I hid in the corner and shivered, watching those boys take out the things that girls would be shy of, and the filth sprayed on my body, I didn't dare to resist, so I could only kneel in the corner with a trembling body, and the pungent smell was disgusting.

Weak, helpless, miserable.

Such a sad self, even if it is like this, he does not cry.

When she appeared in front of her, the water spray from the hose wet her hair, which had been stained with filth, and tears fell to the ground like stripped beads.

I understood that life is like this, there is nothing to look forward to in the future, and there is nothing to be disappointed in, because I have nothing of my own.

The icy water flowed from the top of my head to my kneeling knees, but I felt very warm, because my heart was like an ice cellar, and there was no colder place.

Tsk, I'm really sick like this.

The rotten days are a perfect match for such a bad self.

Death, sometimes oh think about it, hate why his mother gave birth to herself, and suffer so much in such a dark world.

On the way home, with a foul smell on my body, my skirt kept dripping down this droplet, I passed by an overpass, and the people around me pointed at me, I put my hand on the guardrail of the overpass, looked down, maybe I would be relieved by jumping from here.

Born human, I'm sorry!

Birds on the road stood on telephone poles chirping, and my blank eyes looked at the sky.

Do you hear me, they're calling me to die, too?

People will die sooner or later, so it's better to do it now, I'm too tired, and I want to be free.

It's just that his body has stretched out of the guardrail, but his hands are clutching the guardrail in fear, and the trembling of his hands pulls himself back from death after the thought of death appears.

It's really sad, obviously my life is so dark, my life is so tired, but I don't dare to die.

What a coward!

After that, Xiao Rong disappeared, and all I saw was a domineering girl named Li Rurong, and among those people, there was also a girl named Li Rurong.

And the little Rong in my heart stayed forever at the age of twelve, and died.

The deadliest thing in this world is that the people who now take you to hell have taken you to heaven.

I won't forgive her, it was she who killed the little Rong who smiled every day and said good morning to herself.

Whether it's my own father, or my mother, or those indifferent people, I can never forgive them, because I'm such a rotten person.

Selfish and disgusting!

So I won't forgive them.

"I'm Su Xiaolian."

The girl who walked in from outside the classroom disrupted my thoughts, her blue eyes full of confidence, the light I had seen before.

"Hello, I'm Li Rurong, can I play this swing with you?"

That's what the girl had said.

Through her figure, I seemed to see the little face who smiled at me every day, I rubbed my eyes and looked at her carefully,

She was as beautiful as a doll, and she couldn't stop getting her breath from all over her body.

For breakfast, she stretched out her hand to invite me, and although Li Rurong was also there, she still smiled and followed her to the cafeteria.

Li Rurong's apology, how powerless does it seem, just a word of sorry can stop my tears?

My heart is bleeding, and I live quietly, just because, the feeling of bleeding makes me feel that I can still be alone.

Standing alone in front of a mirror, naked. The forehead touched the cold mirror, and I saw myself reflected in the pupils in the mirror, without any shyness.

I walked quickly on the tree-lined path, looking back step by step, the trees were fluttering willows, and the sky was charming eyes.

Watching the white clouds move in the sky, the birdsong is fading away, and a person is long, his eyes are hesitant.