Wen Wanbing is 26 years old this year, and she has the envy of others to work as a civil servant working in an agency..... Born in a slum-equivalent residential building in the capital of a province not very developed in the south.....

For as long as Wen Wanbing can remember, she hasn't seen her father.....

In Wen Wanbing's heart, the term "Dad" is only limited to the mouths of the little friends around her and the villain's book..... Wen Wanbing has not lived with her mother for a very long time, and she doesn't have much impression of how long it is..... When she grew up and occasionally thought of a person like her mother, she couldn't think of her mother's specific appearance in her mind!

In Wen Wanbing's limited memory of my mother that is about to become blank, it's just that long dress with green flowers on a white background.... The floral skirt was very long, and it was so long that it almost covered my mother's white ankles..... In my faint impression, my mother likes to wear this skirt very much, and there is always a faint fragrance of flower dew on her body, swaying in your dilapidated residential building.....

Wen Wanbing remembered that she had not been with her mother for a long time, and on a rainy day when she was six years old, the mother who seemed to look very ordinary in Wen Wanbing's vague memory disappeared on the same day as a married man in the wealthy community opposite the dilapidated residential building.....

On the day she disappeared, Wen Wanbing thought that her mother was just going out to buy vegetables. When she woke up in the morning, she didn't cry, but obediently ate a browned egg fried by her mother on the square dining table in the narrow living room, and drank a glass of milk that had become cold by the way.....

At that time, Wen Wanbing didn't know that all her tribulations had really begun..... The little figure has been holding her little purple doll in the middle of the living room, waiting for her mother to come home.

When Wen Wanbing knew that her mother would never appear in front of her again, it was the afternoon of that day..... The rainy weather, the sultry atmosphere, the gentle and icy hunger, when the door of the house was smashed open by a group of fierce women, she knew that her mother had abandoned her and ran away with others.....

Later, she learned that her mother had premeditated and had moved all the valuable things out of the house (which she later learned from the neighbors).

Every time she thought of this, a contemptuous cold smile would appear on Wen Wanbing's lips..... Until now, her mother has not contacted her, whether she is dead or alive, Wen Wanbing doesn't know!

But in Wen Wanbing's heart, there is no longer the character of "mother"!

At that time, city life was not as fast-paced as it is now, and neighbors liked to come and go, and they basically knew each other! It is said that my mother has been ambiguous with the married husband for a long time, and rumors have even been rumored earlier.....

After my mother disappeared with that person, Wen Wanbing, who was young, began to bear some strange infamy that afternoon..... For example, "The Daughter of the Vixen", and "Shameless" and so on..... Although Wen Wanbing is still young, only six years old, she doesn't know the profound meaning behind the words that scolded her. But she already knew from the hatred and disgust in the eyes of those who scolded her that all these words were put on her as the most vicious language of the moment!

That night, Wen Wanbing shrank alone in the corner of the house beaten by the vicious people (the wife of the married man and a group of relatives), without shedding a single tear..... She just hugged her doll tightly with blank eyes, as if it was a spiritual comfort for her!

The pajamas she was wearing were still a set of pink lace nightdresses that her mother had tailored for her at the tailor shop on Wen Wanbing's birthday......

In the three days after my mother ran away from home, little Wen Wanbing stayed in the room alone and did not take half a step out of the door..... When you're hungry, drink some tap water, or go to the rice pot and get some rice that is about to turn rancid, and chew it hard in your mouth..... Alone in a cold and dilapidated house, huddled in his own bed late at night, unable to sleep all night.....

At a young age, she felt the sadness and sadness of being abandoned for the first time..... And since then, this kind of social desolation has been accompanied by Wen Wanbing, as if she was cursed....

It's strange that Wen Wanbing didn't shed a single tear from beginning to end, and some were just silently walking around like a frightened deer in the narrow and messy home in the dirty pink princess nightdress......

Since then, Wen Wanbing seems to have changed as a person, from the lively and active at the beginning to the taciturn, looking at everyone with a kind of guarded cold eyes......

Three days later, Wen Wanbing saw the unfamiliar face she hadn't seen from birth to the age of six, a rural woman dressed in shabby clothes and with a gloomy face.....

She told Wen Wanbing in a reluctant tone that she was her grandmother, her father's mother!

Dad's hometown is in a place with beautiful mountains and rivers, although this place is not far from the town, but it is not civilized and the transportation is not convenient. At that time, there were not many people who went out to work, and there was no trend .... Therefore, all the family income of the people here comes from that barren land.....

The folk customs are even a little ignorant in Wen Wanbing's eyes now, and there is no honesty and simplicity that belongs to the peasants in the books..... Some are just selfish and mercenary!

In this way, after her grandmother simply packed up some things at home and her clothes, she left the home where she had lived for six years with Wen Wanbing!

Grandma's home, dark and dilapidated..... Simple few rooms are full of clutter except for the sleeping place! In the low houses, there is an old musty smell everywhere, and even the quilts built at night are ......

But that's it, Wen Wanbing also felt very satisfied..... At least she's not alone anymore now! When she took the car home, Wen Wanbing always wanted to pull her grandmother's hand, but she always shook Wen Wanbing's hand away!

Grandma is not tall, a little thin, dark skin, and her perennial work has made her back more bowed than her peers, and a person who is nearly sixty years old looks like she is seventy years old. The wrinkles on his face are like the bark of a tree, old and deeply precipitated with the sadness of years.....

Grandma is clean and neat..... He is very kind and amiable to others, but he is harsh to Wen Wan and cold....

In her grandmother's eyes, Wen Wanbing is like a group of foxes like her daughter-in-law, who is Wen Wanbing's mother, and the whole person is a broom star, a disaster star.....

Every time Grandma cooked by the stove, she would look at Wen Wanbing who was sitting on the threshold by the door in a daze with a strange look.....

From time to time, I will mutter, saying that Wen Wanbing looks so charming and good-looking at this young age, and I don't know who she looks like!

When she said the last sentence, the corners of her grandmother's cloudy eyes were full of suspicion in her wrinkled eyes...... Wen Wanbing knew that in her grandmother's eyes, it was said that because she didn't look like her father at all, this uneducated woman who worked in the countryside often doubted Wen Wanbing's bloodline!

In her grandmother's house, Wen Wanbing has always lived carefully, and even sleeps quietly..... I'm afraid that my noise will disturb my grandmother's sleep and work in the next room!

Whenever I slept on that damp bed at night, mosquitoes buzzed in my ears, and the heat of the weather made Wen Wanbing, who had no fan in the room, unable to sleep at all, so I had to carefully turn over and over on that small and hard bed.....

At that time, Wen Wanbing missed the fragrant but simple but extremely clean and refreshing bed at home.....

When my grandmother was tired from work, she would sit outside the house with a small bench to rest..... Don't forget to nag and complain to Wen Wanbing during the rest time! The most said thing is that Wen Wanbing is a disaster star..... Because her grandfather was born on the day Wen Wanbing was born, in order to go to the provincial capital to see her, he suffered a car accident and unfortunately died!

What makes grandma most entangled is that in the entire long-distance passenger bus, there are dozens of people, so many people, but Wen Wanbing's grandfather is the only one who suffers!

God seems to have deliberately joked with Wen Wanbing, so that she was born to suffer such unfair treatment!

In Grandma's chatter, Wen Wanbing's father is the first college student to go out of this poor country! At that time, college students were not like now, and the streets were full of ..... At that time, college students were all dragons and phoenixes! Because of his excellent grades in college, he stayed in a public institution in the provincial capital directly after graduation. Such an iron rice bowl once made the grandmother proud in the village, and everyone said how promising her son was!

It's just that the unfortunate death of the grandfather made Wen Wanbing's father unable to think about it for a while (because the father thought that the grandfather's death was caused by him), and he was depressed......

When grandma talked about poor Dad, she often burst into tears and looked at Wen Wanbing with a resentful look, as if her father's death was caused by Wen Wanbing!

I learned from my grandmother that when my father unfortunately passed away, she was only a little over a year old and had just learned to walk!

After my father passed away, my grandmother never went to Wen Wanbing's house again!

Grandma's all these broken thoughts and gnashing teeth of complaints, Wen Wanbing listened to her heart little by little, and planted one tree after another about that painful memory in her young heart day by day!

As soon as she said this, her grandmother would be very excited, and sometimes she would cry loudly..... Looking at her grandmother's old face full of folds, Wen Wanbing felt even more sad in her heart. Because from her grandmother's eyes that kept shedding tears, she saw her grandmother's panic about her old age and the despair of her continuous poor life! The thin fingers, deformed by labor, were clenched into fists, and the black mud of the ground was all between the nails.....

For such a sad grandmother, Wen Wanbing, who was young at a young age, saw that in addition to being distressed, there was no other way to do it.....

Because she once tried to pour her grandmother a glass of water to drink when she was sad, but her grandmother didn't appreciate it at all and pushed the water away from her..... The look of disgust was as if the glass of water she was serving was poisonous!

In her grandmother's opinion, she should have enjoyed her son's filial piety from now on, but because of Wen Wanbing's birth, her beautiful family was ruined.......

Under the light of the setting sun, a faint red gloss was cast around Grandma's thin body..... That layer of gloss looks beautiful and magical! It's just that grandma looked at Wen Wanbing's eyes, hating and complicated..... With her short gray hair and the haggard old face on her face, this sixty-year-old peasant woman became the old man prematurely!

Since she was a child, at her grandmother's house, Wen Wanbing has been trembling and cautious, for fear that if she does something wrong, she will be scolded angrily..... From the moment Wen Wanbing went to live at her grandmother's house, she began to learn to read people's colors, and she also learned to be independent in these complexions early, which made her have an excessive precociousness different from her peers in her later life!

It is said that grandma also has a son, who is the younger brother of his father, that is, Wen Wanbing's uncle..... I heard from the villagers that when he was eighteen years old, he went to prison for attempted murder.....

I don't know how many years the uncle has been in prison, at least when Wen Wanbing left her grandmother's house alone, she didn't see the legendary handsome and a little fierce uncle......

In Wen Wanbing's memory, although grandma, a seemingly ignorant rural woman, nagged her and scolded her every day..... However, when it comes to reading, it has always been very simple to let her go to school, without any words......

At this point, in the eyes of Wen Wanbing, who has been inferior and sensitive since she was a child, this is because her grandmother doesn't want to see her at home at all, she just wants her to leave the house as soon as possible, out of sight!

So Wen Wanbing has been living outside the school since junior high school, and she spends it at school except for holidays.....

As Wen Wanbing grew up day by day, the home she was in the provincial capital before, when she was a sophomore in high school, she once went to find it based on her weak impression when she was a child (it took more than half a year to save money, and finally made up some round-trip fares)..... As a result, the place in memory did not have that dilapidated five-story residential building at all! The development of the city is changing with each passing day..... In these changes, the residual memories of Wen Wanbing's childhood dissipated little by little, and in the long river of time, there were ups and downs, and they could no longer be found!

After coming back that time, Wen Wanbing was even more silent, in her opinion.....

That home, hidden deep in her heart, has always been a hope buried in her heart! Hope disappeared, and in an instant, a soft place in the depths of her heart was punctured, which made Wen Wanbing's heart even more sad......

Wen Wanbing's grades have always been in the middle and upper grades of the class, not too good, not too bad.....

Because she feels that her grades are too good, she is easy to be criticized, and her grades are too poor, and she will be looked down upon..... In order to make yourself inconspicuous, in order to walk in the crowd, you will quickly drown.....

She chose to work hard to make herself look as unobtrusive as possible..... has been obscure, try to make yourself a transparent person in the eyes of your classmates!

But he is still often bullied, often scolded as a "poor ghost" and "orphan", and ridiculed by his classmates.....

In high school, there was a boy who was very special to her, and his grades were very good..... is honest, and he takes care of Wen Wanbing very much!

But Wen Wanbing refused such care, and was cold and detached from the male classmate who was only half a skull taller than her with pimples......

Since Wen Wanbing can remember, she hasn't shed a tear! It's as if the tear ducts are broken......

is even more cold and distant, and does not like to talk. The clothes on my body are all the kind of shabby clothes that my grandmother picked up from other people's houses, and they all don't fit....

In Wen Wanbing's opinion, the darker the color of the clothes, the better, and the uglier the clothes, the better......

Bangs always drooped her eyes and lowered her head, not wanting anyone to see her face.....

Because grandma has always said that she has a fox face that is naturally disgusting!

When I was in junior high school and high school, all the teachers and classmates had the impression of Wen Wanbing, with average to high grades, taciturn, loner, eccentric and stubborn.....

It is such a character that made Wen Wanbing stumble through the years of junior high and high school!

Now that I think about it, except for the bullying of her classmates, those years should have been the most stable and comfortable days for Wen Wanbing in her life!

Although most of the time I don't have enough food and clothing!!