From the moment Wen Wanbing was born, it was as if she was destined for tragedy from birth..... Bear everything she shouldn't have to bear at her age.....

When others were still coquettish in her parents' arms, she had already started to do small odd jobs to earn some living expenses, because Wen Wanbing didn't want to rely on that old grandmother who was still very hard-hearted, and if she could be self-reliant and try to reduce her grandmother's burden, Wen Wanbing would definitely do her best.....

After all, in Wen Wanbing's heart, although her grandmother dislikes her, she even often scolds her for being a disaster star and a nemesis. But this Wen Wanbing, who was ruthlessly abandoned by her own mother, her grandmother did not abandon her! On this point, Wen Wanbing endured her grandmother's bitterness and meanness, endured her grandmother's cold words, did not complain, and even had a trace of pity and distress for her grandmother in her heart!

For this reason, Wen Wanbing studied hard, thinking that she could get into a good university in the college entrance examination..... Because at that time, in Wen Wanbing's heart, the college entrance examination was her only way out, not only for her, but also for her grandmother!

In Wen Wanbing's memory, time is particularly merciless to her grandmother..... The premature aging of the face and the body that is almost collapsing because of perennial labor, Wen Wanbing sees them one by one! I just want to grow up quickly and earn money early, so that my grandmother doesn't have to work all day and sigh for her tuition!

Every time she left home for the holidays, she would quietly pretend to be casual and look back at the grandmother standing at the gate of the low house, her back was getting more and more bowed, and her hair had turned gray.....

Finally, after taking the college entrance examination, Wen Wanbing breathed a sigh of relief..... As soon as the results of the college entrance examination were announced, everyone was dumbfounded! Because in their minds, this thin little girl who was dressed in gray and tattered clothes all day could do so well in the exam..... However, when Wen Wanbing was filling in the volunteers, she chose a prestigious school with low tuition fees, in Wen Wanbing's opinion..... The lower the tuition, the better for grandma!

Such a good news, Wen Wanbing chose to tell her on her grandmother's birthday! Although she couldn't wait in her heart, she almost couldn't help blurting out every time she ate, but she still held back!

Finally, it was grandma's birthday...... It was a strange day, too, because it was gloomy and dreary from early in the morning, and the inside of the house was strangely damp..... Wen Wanbing remembered that the originally white walls in the house were covered with burnt yellow and even blackened marks everywhere due to the years and the rain leakage in the house...... At dinner in the morning, Wen Wanbing told her grandmother the good news! I thought she would see that relieved expression on her grandmother's face, but what ..... Grandma just gently put down the chopsticks in her hand, and put a pair of thin hands covered with age spots on the edge of the dining table.....

Grandma glanced at Wen Wanbing, who was still calm on the surface, but there was a hint of expectation in her eyes, and she didn't speak..... In the dimly lit kitchen, I can't see my grandmother's expression at all.... I saw that she didn't say a word, stood up from the dining table gently, and slowly walked towards the door of the kitchen.....

Seeing such a situation, Wen Wanbing sighed heavily in her heart..... I thought my grandmother would be very happy with her birthday present!

It's just that what Wen Wanbing never dreamed of was..... That day, which was supposed to be a happy day, turned out to be grandma's death day!

At noon that day, Wen Wanbing cooked rice and waited for her grandmother to come back to eat..... Because when my grandmother went out, she carried a basket of clothes, saying that she was going to the pond not far away to wash her clothes, and said that she would go to the field to pick some vegetables and come back..... At that time, Wen Wanbing just nodded and didn't say anything more...... Watching her grandmother slowly walk along the narrow dirt road in front of the house, Wen Wanbing also entered the door and began to do housework.....

However, waiting left and right, waiting for the bad news of grandma's drowning..... When she first heard the news, Wen Wanbing didn't believe it at all, and rushed out of the house..... This bad news made Wen Wanbing's legs weak and her limbs weak, and she stumbled all the way to the pond..... Peeling open the layers to see the lively crowd, what I saw in front of me was the miserable appearance of grandma's blistered water.....

He was wearing the cotton silk dark purple he wore when he was working on weekdays, with the little white flower pants, the shirt was plain white, his eyes were closed, his mouth was slightly open, and there was a green aquatic plant in it.....

Grandma was lying on the ground alone and helpless, with water all under her!

Cautiously walked to grandma's side and sat down, the nerve endings of the whole person were occupied by sadness..... My nose was a little sour, and I exhaled deeply and forcibly held back the tears that were about to burst out of my eyes!

Both hands clenched into fists, clenched and clenched, using all the strength of her body to calm the desolation in her heart, when Wen Wanbing touched the undried hands of her grandmother, who had become cold, her hands trembled uncontrollably..... Grandma's fingers were stiff and unusually cold, like ice cubes in the dead of winter!

Gently, Wen Wanbing gently took out the aquatic plant in her grandmother's slightly open mouth, carefully, for fear of hurting her grandmother, who had been miserable all her life.....

In this way, Wen Wanbing sat next to her grandmother's cold body for an afternoon, not moving..... has lived with her grandmother for twelve years, and her grandmother has never smiled at her, which is the most regrettable thing in Wen Wanbing's life!

After that, Wen Wanbing borrowed money everywhere, and with the help of her neighbors, her grandmother was simply buried on the third day after she drowned.... In the past three days, Wen Wanbing has been guarding her grandmother's coffin day and night, her expression is cold and numb, and her eyes are empty and gray.....

Before the burial, she kept burning paper money next to her grandmother's coffin, staring at the everlasting lamp under her grandmother's coffin day and night, adding sesame oil at any time to keep it from going out (according to the older generation, this lamp is to illuminate her grandmother's way to the underworld, so that there is no darkness and no fear along the way)......

After the grandmother was buried, because Wen Wanbing did not shed a single tear from beginning to end, gossip began to spread in the village again..... said that Wen Wanbing's little girl's life was too hard, and she killed the people around her one by one, and she was born a disaster!

The gossip power of people is endless, and when word of mouth spreads, things often start to develop towards a strangely exaggerated interface..... However, Wen Wanbing heard a rumor about her grandmother's death.....

It is said that Wen Wanbing's grandmother has long known that she was admitted to a prestigious university, but for an elderly person in a rural area who is not even guaranteed to have a basic life, the tuition fee is a sky-high price in Wen Wanbing's grandmother's mind.....

Because she was overwhelmed, Wen Wanbing's grandmother chose to commit suicide..... chose to commit suicide on her birthday because she was afraid to see her granddaughter's disappointed eyes because she didn't pay the school fees!

Hearing these rumors, Wen Wanbing's mind would automatically come up with the scene after my mother abandoned me and left home when I was six years old.....

It's all the same bad rumors, and all the people are bad for her!

When her grandmother drowned, Wen Wanbing was just 18 years old, and it was also in that year that because of her grandmother's funeral expenses and her grandmother's foreign debts over the years, Wen Wanbing's college career before she started began to become strangely difficult.....

After my grandmother passed away, this seemingly simple country house was basically no longer able to stay, and in the middle of the night, there were often some strange noises outside the door, as if someone was standing by the window of the room where she slept!

Wen Wanbing, who was about to become an adult, had already sensed an unprecedented danger from those subtle noises..... When you go to bed at night, you have to carefully check all the doors and windows in the house, and then put some heavy objects behind the door, and turn on all the lights in the house, so that you can lie back in bed with peace of mind, but you never dare to fall asleep easily.....

In this way, day by day, when she couldn't stay up any longer, before the summer vacation was over, Wen Wanbing took the more than 300 yuan of scattered money from her grandmother's pillow, and left the countryside where she had lived for twelve years since she was six years old......

On the day she left, she deliberately went to her grandmother's grave to take a look, looked at the fresh loess piled up high, and bowed deeply three times!

The lonely and thin figure, the fresh loess mound, the desolate land around, the grandmother lying alone in the ground, that kind of scene Wen Wanbing will remember for the rest of her life, and it is also deeply imprinted in her mind..... The stubborn appearance and dull sadness of the young and thin little girl in my memory made Wen Wanbing's heart ache faintly......

In this way, Wen Wanbing resolutely left a small mountain village under the southern city where she had lived for twelve years with a small rucksack full of debts, because there was no one she cared about in this place!