"You're here? Sit down and have a few drinks with me. ”

Xu has been crying for a long time, Yue Luanyi spoke in a thick nasal voice, and there were undried tears on his cheeks.

"You can drink?"

I can't help but feel a little sorry for the girl in front of me.

"If you can't drink anything, just drink. When you get drunk, you can forget about your unhappy ...... Do you know how old I was when I first drank? Her voice was a little hoarse, and her eyes were tinged with twilight.

Seeing her like this, I didn't even know her anymore. Perhaps, she is not the carefree and unruly princess in my eyes. The reason why I have this impression is simply because she hides the pain in her heart very well.

She poured a glass of wine, handed it to me, and continued, "Twelve. ”

"It's small enough."

Looking at the wine glass in my hand, I hesitated.

It's not that I don't know how to drink, it's just that when I get drunk, my emotions become extremely sensitive. All the small grievances I have suffered in my daily life will come to my heart at once, and then I will cry uncontrollably, as if the whole world is sorry for me. When I wake up and remember, I often feel ridiculous.

But I looked at Yue Luanyi, who was lonely in front of me, but I still couldn't bear to let her drink alone, so I picked up the wine glass and drank.

I didn't expect this wine to be quite strong, but the wine flowed into the abdomen, and I only felt that the stomach was warm, which was very suitable for this harsh winter season. So he uncontrollably picked up the flask and poured himself another glass.

"Small? When I was twelve years old, my royal brothers went to court with my father and listened to political affairs. ”

Yue Luanyi also raised his wine glass and drank it all. Seeing this, I filled her up again.

She picked up a peanut, put it in her mouth and chewed, and spoke a little slurred: "Has Xuan'er ever liked anyone?" ”

When I heard this, my heart moved slightly, and I took another drink before I whispered, "Yes." ”

Although I had doubted my feelings for Ling Niankong during the day, after thinking about it, I realized that maybe I was really disturbed by the emotions of the original owner when I was attracted to him at the beginning. But I have come to this day step by step, and every choice I made during this period is my own will, and it is an indisputable fact that he is getting deeper and deeper, so I think I really like him.

In the midst of the chaos of thoughts, I seemed to vaguely see a faint figure outside the curtain behind Yue Luanyi. I closed my eyes and opened them to see that there was nothing again. My head is a little dizzy, did I start getting drunk so soon?

"And he...... What kind of people are they? Yue Luanyi asked softly, her eyes were a little confused, but there was a sparkling light in her eyes.

I hesitated to speak: "He...... He is cold and domineering on the surface, but in fact, his mind is very delicate, and his emotions are richer and hotter than anyone else. If he likes you, he can see your every smile, every move, and even your every little emotion. And if he hates you, he will pick up some things that hurt you to do, and pick up some things that hurt you, and say them, and punish your heart with every word......"

As I spoke, I unconsciously replayed in my mind frame by frame the bits and pieces of my acquaintance with that person:

"Xuan'er, you...... What happened to you? How are you like...... Like a different person? You used to ...... Before...... That's not true! ”

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"In the future, Kong'er will protect Xuan'er well and treat Xuan'er twice as well!"

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"Well, let me ...... Take a good look at you. ”

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"Girl, your tears are so bitter."

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"You just want my life, and I can afford it."

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"Would Xuan'er be willing to marry me?"

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"If Xuan'er is willing, we can have many children."

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"Give yourself to me, okay?"

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"Who are you to resemble her!?"

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"Xuan'er...... I know it's you. I know...... Because I owe it to you, you have to play such a joke with me...... Trying to get away from me. But I said it earlier...... My life is yours, and I am willing to punish me as much as you want, except for one thing: don't leave me again. I really...... Really can't afford ......"

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"Don't you like me? What's wrong with us taking what we need!? ”

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"As I said, she is my person, and her body is naturally mine. For the sake of your detoxification for me, I will not kill you for the time being, and I will send someone to arrange a place for you to live tomorrow. ”

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"Only today, you and I, abandon the past suspicions, forget the way we came, just meet in Pingshui and spend the festival together?"

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"So, you shouldn't have been tempted by me in the first place. Tonight, I just said a few gentle words to you, and you were distracted and jealous, and you were really stupid. Do you know that the most dangerous thing for a woman like you is to be emotional, because once you are emotional, you can't turn back even if you hit the south wall, and it's been like this for the rest of your life. Am I right? ”

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"She's so beautiful and so good, I don't deserve her. And you, just right. ”

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"If I hear her name from you again, I will kill you."

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"I don't allow you to hurt yourself again, no matter what it is."

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"Yan Linxuan, what are you pretending? It's not like I haven't seen your body, and it's not like I haven't tasted your taste. You begged me to ask for you, why are you so reserved now? ”

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"Do you really care if a shameless slutty woman like you is seen or touched by someone? Why pretend to be a chaste martyr? ”

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"So, Yan Linxuan, you are not completely helpless, when necessary, you can trust me."

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"You...... Nothing? ”

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"If you don't ask, how do you know I can't afford it?"

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The pictures in my mind disappear one after another, but after my words are finished, they also return to a quiet.

I suddenly felt wet on my cheeks, but I didn't bother to reach out and wipe it. Maybe I've been emotionally suppressed for so long, and it's really time to release it.

"Such a person...... It still seems to be worth liking. Yue Luanyi took another drink.

"Really?" I picked up a handful of kelp and put it in my mouth.

"yes. So does he like you? Yue Luanyi looked at me with a pair of big eyes.

I smiled wryly and shook my head.

"That must be you're not good enough." Yue Luanyi filled the wine glass for me again.

"Really? Is it just because I'm not good enough? I muttered, my brain sinking as warm fluid slipped uncontrollably from my eye sockets and my chest ached.

"Of course. If you're good enough, what guy wouldn't like it? ”

This girl, as expected, is just a child, and she thinks about her feelings so simply.

"Then Ling Niankong doesn't like you either?" Xu was really a little drunk, and I began to speak without thinking about it.

"That's only temporary, he'll definitely like me in the future! I'm so good, he's going to fall in love with me! She said, suddenly like a deflated ball. But...... But there was already a man in his heart, a dead man. The tears that had been accumulating in Yue Luanyi's eyes for a long time finally fell.

"Yes, he has a dead man in his heart." I stroked Yue Luanyi's back, secretly guessing what Ling Nian Bai Ri had said to her, which made her so sad.

"Xuan'er, I'm so sad. But I don't seem to know what I'm upset about. Do you know why I'm sad? Yue Luanyi's words were filled with tears.

"Because you're out of love." I took another drink.

"Broken love? What is a broken love? Yue Luanyi looked at me puzzled.

"Falling out of love is ...... One day you saw a very rare thing in the market, and you couldn't wait to tell him, share it with him, but you found that you couldn't, because he didn't care...... "I still wiped the tears from my cheeks uncontrollably."

"You're right, that's it! Don't care...... Whatever I gave him, he didn't care much...... Isn't it...... Didn't I give him enough? Not good enough? Wouldn't I give him more and he would notice me and like me? ”

Looking at Yue Luanyi like this, I felt more and more sorry for her, but I still hardened my heart and warned her: "Don't be stupid, you have a plan like this, dig out your heart and lungs for that person, and move yourself to a mess." In that person's eyes, maybe you're worthless, and they'll laugh at you for being stupid. If you don't love, you don't love, there's no way at all. It's like there's no way around when you fall in love with him. If you want to pay for him, don't expect 'I treat you like this, you must repay the favor'. If you want to give, you must give purely, and pure giving is the beginning of love. Expecting him to reciprocate something for you like you is not love, at best it is just love. Love is selfless, whereas liking is selfish. ”

After listening to my words, Yue Luanyi cried even more fiercely, and sobbed: "But people are selfish, aren't you selfish?" ”

"Yes, I'm selfish, so I try not to love. If you don't love, it won't hurt. So you get the idea? The easiest way for you to feel less painful is to let go. ”

But how easy is it to let go?

"Down? No, I don't want to put it down...... I can't let go of ......," Yue Luanyi leaned her head on my shoulder with tears in her eyes. "Xuan'er, sing me a song, okay?" Her voice was soft, like a dream.

Sing?

I'm helpless, this girl really thinks of a play.

However, looking at her slightly swollen eyes, I still couldn't bear it.

Looking up at the cold moon in the sky, he suddenly thought of Zhang Xinzhe's "White Moonlight", so he hummed softly.

I sang this song in the past, but I never realized that the tune of this song was so poignant, I'm afraid it's because of my mood, right?

Singing and singing, I suddenly found that the lyrics seemed to be very in line with the person's state of mind: Isn't it the white moonlight in the hollow heart? Niankong's heart is full of her, but she is far away from nowhere. He had hurt her, and she had become a wound on his heart that would never heal.

I think if he could turn back time, he would wipe the tears from her cheeks and embrace her, and never let her be hurt again.

However, there is no if in this world, if he is hurt, he is hurt, and if he is gone, he can no longer ask for her forgiveness.

He couldn't catch her, but he couldn't let her go. I want to forget, but it is so unforgettable, deep in the bone marrow.

She was like a knot that bound him, and he was powerless and unwilling to break free......

When I first arrived at Ling Mansion, the person was drunk and trembling and hugging me silently weeping, as if his heart had been cut with a blunt knife.

It seems that in the end, between me and Ling Niankong, I am still the only one who makes mistakes. It was I who deceived him, gave him false hope, and then cruelly shattered it......

Niankong, I'm sorry......

I closed my eyes, hummed the last melody, and let the tears run wild.

After the song, Yue Luanyi had already fallen asleep leaning on my shoulder. I stood up and lifted her up, a little unsteady on my feet. Qixiu appeared in time and helped me.

"The princess is drunk, you can help her back to the room." I said.

I handed Yue Luanyi over to Qixiu and walked back alone, looking up at the sky as I walked.

This moonlight is really chilling!

Niankong, if you force me to stay by my side like this, the result is just that we torture each other. But even so, you are not willing to let go of any person and thing related to Leng Qingqian, so persistent, never dying.

I smiled wryly. Maybe it's destined to be a bad relationship between us......

I was already a little unsteady on my feet, and suddenly I tripped over something, and my whole body rushed forward uncontrollably. I thought I was going to fall hard, but I didn't want to be held up.

I looked at the person around me, but the night was foggy, and I was hazy with tears, and I couldn't see the man's face clearly, but I could only vaguely see that he was quite tall.

"Is it Xue Rang?" I asked suspiciously, but the man did not answer.

"Thank you." I broke free of his hand and tried to keep walking, but I felt a wave of vertigo......