Fang Zichun listened to Lan Ke'er's memories, he was overwhelmed with grief, tears rolled in his eyes, he held his head in his wrists, his hands were grabbed in his hair fiercely, his brows were tightly locked, and he felt pain in his heart, he said to his mobile phone: "Ke'er, can I see you?" I miss you so much! ”

"Zichun, let's speak today, I don't want you to see me sad and sad. Sometimes I'm so scared to face you, I'm afraid to be with you, if I accidentally get sick, I'm afraid that this and that, it will make you feel bad, and in the end I will think I'm unreasonable. ”

"First of all, it's all my fault, if I was by your side back then, you wouldn't have been able to do these things, you would always be the happy and optimistic Lan Keer, even if something similar happened accidentally, I would take good care of you and always accompany you out of the predicament, no matter what happened, I would never give up on you. Blame me for all this, Ke'er, promise me that I will always be with you in the future, okay? ”

"Zichun, things are not as simple as you imagined, in fact, you didn't see it when I was at my worst, it's unimaginable, my actions will make the people around me depressed and sad with me, and they don't know what to do.

Why did I choose to separate from him, these things are also the most direct reasons, it makes our lives slowly change, let our mentality slowly change, when I was sick, he thought about giving up on me. I was with him, and when I thought about it, I had no reason to live ...... well. I have a lot of psychological pressure, and the same is true for him, and his psychological pressure is not ....... ”

"Kerr, please trust me! No matter what you say, my heart will not change in the slightest! ”

"Zichun, we are so far away, everything is ideal, everything is good when you can't love, but there will be many problems when you are really together."

"How can you know if you haven't tried it? You said that I would chase you again, and you said that you would give me a chance, and you can't go back. I don't agree with the theory that I can't love, and I won't pay attention to these crooked theories! ”

Ke'er felt that Zichun was more emotional, afraid that it would affect his next work and life, so she said:

"Zichun, it's not early, let's rest......"

Look at the time, it's almost dawn again, and it's a sleepless night, what kind of complicated mood does such a night bring them?

In Fang Zichun's heart, he loves Lan Keer so much, no matter how many secrets the other party has in his heart, he will always move forward bravely.

In Lan Keer's heart, she also loves Fang Zichun so much, she is afraid that her imperfections will hurt the other party, so she is always careful......

Kerr barely slept this night, and the headphones came from Penny Dai's song "How":

It's getting dark here

There's it

It's cool here

There's it

Everything has changed here for me

I've become sensible

I'm starting to journal again

And what about you

It's almost dawn here

There's it

It's very hot here

There's it

Everything has changed here for me

I don't cry anymore

I put the photo away as well

And what about you

What if we were still together

Are we still deeply in love with each other?

Like at the beginning

Hold hands even if it's almost dawn

What would it be like to be together now

Are we still hiding from each other?

Like at the end

Know you're not wrong

I was forced to forgive

It's almost dawn here

There's it

It's very hot here

There's it

Everything has changed here for me

I don't cry anymore

I put the photo away as well

And what about you

What if we were still together

Are we still deeply in love with each other?

Like at the beginning

Hold hands even if it's almost dawn

What would it be like to be together now

Are we still hiding from each other?

Like at the end

Know you're not wrong

I was forced to forgive

What if we were still together

Are we still deeply in love with each other?

Like at the beginning

Hold hands even if it's almost dawn

What would it be like to be together now

Are we still hiding from each other?

Like at the end

Know you're not wrong

I was forced to forgive

I will not forgive

How can I forgive

Fang Zichun also stayed up all night without sleeping, and was listless at work the next day, during which he sent a WeChat message to Ke'er, but Ke'er never replied.

Being in a foreign country, it is not so easy to fly to Kerr, and the work at hand has not yet been completed, he wants to tell Kerr about Japan, but he is afraid that Kerr is worried about the future, and he doesn't know what to do for a while. He worries that just by chatting every day, Ke'er will feel a sense of distance and lack of trust.

"Zichun, I'm sorry, I just saw your message, I flew to Chongqing today, my cousin got married on the weekend, and I went to his wedding."

Fang Zichun suddenly received a message from Lan Ke'er.

"It's okay, Ke'er, I know you're busy, take a good break on the weekend, it's rare to see your relatives, and report your safety when it's time to do so!"

"It's just a plane, a two-hour thing, it's very convenient to meet anywhere in the country, it's not rare!"

Ke'er's words seem to imply that Zichun that meeting people is a matter of a ticket, and it is not so difficult.

Fang Zichun suddenly didn't know how to answer, he could only say: "When you arrive in Chongqing, we will talk later." ”

Several of their high school classmates live in Chongqing, including Lin Sixue, and before Kerr went to Chongqing, she had made an appointment with a few classmates for dinner.

The younger brother's wedding scene was warm and romantic, reminding Kerr of the piano song "Dream Wedding", but the longed-for fairytale-like wedding was a ...... that she longed for, but was out of reach, and wished her brother and sister-in-law happiness forever.

The next day, Kerr came to the place where she was meeting her classmates as scheduled, and she met Lin Sixue at the same time. Ke'er seemed very uncomfortable at this meeting, but she didn't expect her former good friends to give her a sense of distance, but they still sat next to each other and chatted, which was natural.

During the meal, Ke'er took advantage of the fact that the other classmates were not paying attention, and quietly asked Lin Sixue: "Sixue, what's the matter with you and Fang Zichun?" She asked, with a joking expression.

"Who told you that? Kerr"

"Teacher Wang."

"Teacher Wang is such a gossip!"

"How could I not know anything about it? You've done a good job of secrecy, did you like him in high school? ”

"It should be!"

"What a happy thing it should be to be able to achieve positive results with my classmates, why did I ...... later?"

"Maybe he didn't like me at all!"

"How can I be with you if I don't like it......"

"I don't know."

"You've had so many suitors since high school, and he's still quite attractive!"

"It's all over, Ke'er, tell me about you, how are you doing?"

The conversation between the two starts out lightheartedly and ends with a heavy end.

After eating, the classmates met to go to the K song, and Lin Sixue sang a song "Say Scatter, Disperse", Ke'er kept looking at her expression and watching her every move.

"Is it sung to Zichun?" Kerr thought to herself.

After a while, Lin Sixue said goodbye to everyone in advance. Kerr continued to catch up with her classmates......

"You know what? What about Lin Sixue and Fang Zichun? Kerr, you know? ”

"I don't have as much gossip as you guys!" Ke'er said expressionlessly.

"I also think it's strange, why are the two of them together?"

"Why? Lin Sixue is not because she saw that Fang Zichun was mixing better, Zichun was very capable! ”

"I heard they were still living together at that time! Is it okay to talk about marriage? ”

"But then?"

"I think it's because Fang Zichun doesn't like her at all! I don't really like her personality either! It feels like the city is deep all day long, and it is difficult to approach! ”

Several people discussed hotly, and only Ke'er was silent on the side.

"Kerr, aren't you good friends with her? There's a lot more to say just now, and she didn't tell you about it? A classmate suddenly asked Keer.

"I don't know anything and I don't want to know! Don't gossip, we're still having fun singing! Kerr said casually.

On the way back, Ke'er kept falling into deep thought, she didn't want to think about the truth of those words, she just wanted to know if Zichun had really forgotten her at that time......

The trip to Chongqing brought Keer not only the lively warmth of her brother's wedding, the happiness of family reunion, and the joy of meeting her classmates after a long absence, but also the things that were hidden in her heart and never forgotten and forgiven......

"Zichun, because I care about you, I care about your business, didn't you say that you won't forget me? It turns out that you forgot about me first, and went to find someone else, so how can I forgive? ”

Kerr wrote down this passage in the memo:

In the past 20 years, we exist in different spaces, too many things have happened in your and my world, we are all changing and growing, your memory is the perfect me at the beginning, but what about me now? I know you know me, but why can't you come to me right away? You were not wrong back then, but you still want me to forgive, even if you are not wrong, I will not forgive you, I will never forgive......