Now Fang Zichun knows more about Kerr, Kerr is willing to tell him these things, he feels that it is a trust in him, he knows that from high school to college, there have always been many boys pursuing Kerr, he thinks that Kerr has already had a boyfriend in college, as Mr. Wang said back then, Kerr still has many choices when he gets to college.

He has always wanted to know the story of what happened to Kerr in college, but those are in the past, he doesn't have to ask, he doesn't have to know, since he knows that Kerr has never forgotten him, he has always believed that his heart for Kerr will never change no matter what, and all he needs to do is to redouble his love for Kerr to make up for his ignorance of Kerr at the beginning.

But so far away from Kerr, how should he comfort Kerr's inner hurt and pain? How can you cherish the people you love the most?

After thinking about it for a long time, he decided to give Ke'er a song, opened the microphone, and sang a song by Wang Feng's "Nowhere to Place":

I smell the smell of early spring

It was like the fresh fragrance of a childhood dream

I also tasted the bitterness of longing

This time I looked at the boundless autumn rain in the distance

O beloved

Do you remember years later

My thoughts

My sorrows and struggles

Did you know?

I don't have the tinkling hearts of you and me

This will be the case

There is nowhere to put it

I'm on my way to the place where I arrived

Or the moon lying at the end of the road

There were Beatles on the radio

But where are you sleeping beside me?

O longing man

It is often said that time makes love

It becomes forgetful

Blurred and broken

But do you know?

I don't have the tinkling hearts of you and me

Always

There is nowhere to put it

Looking back at this chaotic life

There are too many people rushing through my heart

But when I miss it

But it's only you who let me

Quietly leave tears

O beloved

Time flies, and we want to do it eventually

Growing old

Gradually, fear and giving up

But do you know?

I don't have the tinkling hearts of you and me

This will be the case

There is nowhere to put it

O beloved

Time flies, and we will eventually grow old

Gradually, fear and giving up

But do you know?

I don't have the tinkling hearts of you and me

This will be the case

There is nowhere to put it

This will be the case

There is nowhere to put it

His heart has never been placed, but he is glad that his beloved has always loved him, and he is very grateful that God will give him another chance...... During the recording process, all he thought about was Kerr's appearance and his longing for Kerr for so many years......

After singing, he left a message for Keer on WeChat: "Keer, I sang a song for you, can you identify my level?" Please give me a lot of advice! ”

Lan Keer was busy with everything in the evening, and when she saw the messages and songs sent by Fang Zichun, somehow, since she talked about the past yesterday, she was always a little depressed, and she didn't even want to reply to Fang Zichun's WeChat immediately.

She lay quietly on the bed and listened, such a beautiful voice, affectionate singing, all along, in her heart, this is the best sound, she wants to listen to this sound every day to sleep. Gradually, tears blurred her eyes and soaked her pillowcase...... How much she understands Zichun's concern for her and her thoughts, but she has never been able to get rid of her own thoughts, she can't get past her own level, she is afraid that Zichun will no longer love her after knowing her more.

Especially when I heard the sentence "Beloved, time flies, we will eventually grow old, gradually fear and give up......"

She sent this sentence to Fang Zichun.

"Will you give up in the end?"

"I'll never give up on you, Kerr!" Fang Zichun said resolutely.

"Zichun, you don't know me well enough, I still have a good personality in your heart when I was in high school, but now it's completely different, we haven't gotten along together, and we haven't even had a meal together, you won't know my temper, my habits, all you have in your heart is the ideal Keer!"

Fang Zichun had an impulse at this time, he really wanted to fly to Ke'er's side immediately and hug her tightly......

"Kerr, no matter what kind of Kerr you are, no matter what happens to you, no matter what you become, that's my responsibility, don't try to scare me away, I won't give up your ......"

"Zichun, I was almost depressed, I have a psychological disorder, and I still get sick often, do you still want me?"

After saying that, Ke'er was in an extremely bad mood, she silently shed tears, trying not to let Fang Zichun hear her crying.

"Kerr? My Kerr, are you crying? Is it okay not to cry? I feel sorry for you...... Can you tell me what's going on? ”

"You......... Want to hear it? ”

"I want to know why, I want to help you ......"

Kerr recalls six years ago......

That year, the company organized a trip to Sanya, and colleagues and their families happily embarked on the trip together. Who knew that Ke'er had a severe stomach ache on the night she went, her husband not only didn't stay to take care of her, but also went out with others for supper and barbecue, she had to stay alone in the hotel to rest, she wanted to go to bed early.

"I'm asleep, remember not to turn off the lights when you leave, I'm afraid of the dark, you just take a room card." She said to her husband.

Since that incident at school, Kerr has been very afraid of the dark, and she likes to leave at least a small light when she sleeps. Her husband also knows this, but he hasn't cared much about and cared about it.

As a result, when her husband went out, he couldn't find his room card, so he took away the room card inserted in the door, and of course, the room was powered off, and Ke'er was already asleep at that time.

Not long after, Ke'er had a dream, suddenly woke up from the dream, she found that the room was dark, and she was alone, as if she had been stimulated by something for a moment, she was anxious and dressed and ready to go out to find her husband, but the door of the room could not be opened, she was very scared, and thought to herself: "Who locked the door?" Who locked the door? She heard the sound of the door locking, apparently hallucinating.

Suddenly, she remembered that on the night of the school accident, she hid alone in the dark and cold corner of the classroom, reaching out and missing her fingers, the ...... of loneliness, helplessness, fear and fear, and she was so depressed that she curled up in the corner of the room alone, and stayed in fear for hours until her husband came back .......

It turned out that the door of the room was broken, and it could not be opened from the inside, and then they changed the room, but the next day Ke'er was really sick and had a high fever all day. What was supposed to be a pleasant trip ended unhappily......

Back in Shanghai, Kerr found that something was wrong with her, she always had the sound of locking the door in her ears, she would be more afraid of the dark, she didn't dare to close the curtains at home, and she didn't dare to stay alone in a space. And he didn't dare to travel anymore, he didn't dare to stay in a hotel outside. The personality has also become sensitive and suspicious, and when she hears a little noise around her, she thinks that someone else is locking the door, and becomes highly nervous.

This seriously affected her work and life, she didn't even have the heart to devote herself to what she should do every day, she was panicked all day long, she was frightened, she couldn't eat or sleep, and her mental condition fell to a low point all of a sudden, and she lost a lot of weight.

In this case, her husband not only did not feel more distressed to protect her, on the contrary, he always put that sentence on his lips: I don't know what to be afraid of? If you are someone else, how can you be like you, you are also afraid of that, can you adjust it yourself? You also affect everyone's mood like this!

Ke'er praised her whole person, she couldn't get the care and consideration of her relatives, she also complained about herself, and she didn't understand why she became like this, but the fear and discomfort in her heart may only be felt by her. Occasionally, she saw a special profession of "psychiatrist" on the Internet, and she found a psychological counseling agency and was going to "see a doctor".

The psychiatrist tested her, and then the doctor told Keer: "Your situation belongs to a psychological disorder, which is an obsessive-compulsive disorder caused by a strong stimulus, if you dredge and adjust it in time now, I believe it will get better soon, you are a very smart and meticulous person, if you can actively overcome it and overcome yourself, I believe you will be stronger in the future." It's a good thing that you can realize that if you are really sick, you will definitely not admit that you are sick, but if you let it go unchecked, it will lead to depression. ”

Kerr decided to take time out of her week to see a psychiatrist. She often thinks about how good she is, why these strange things happen to her, and no one around her cares and no one helps, how helpless she is, and when she thinks of this, she is in a bad mood and becomes less and less confident.

The psychiatrist told her that it is actually normal for a person to feel afraid of something, everyone has things they don't like and feel afraid of, as long as they don't expand it, be afraid within the normal range, do the same as others, live in the moment, make themselves happy, and they will come out of the shadows.......

Doing more things that interest you, diverting your attention, chatting with good friends, and spending more time outdoors are all good ways to overcome psychological barriers.

Keer is a very smart person, where will she not understand these truths, all along, her friends will tell her when they have difficulties, she is often a person who is very good at comforting others and helping others out of trouble, but when something bad happens to herself, it is quite difficult to do.

The most important thing is that there doesn't seem to be anyone close to her who can understand her, and even Luo Xiaoyao is so far away in space. It would be much better if there was a close friend around.

She will actively go to talk to friends she trusts, she is not afraid of others laughing at her, she needs the understanding and help of others, which is also the reason why she is not finally depressed, she will say anything, instead of holding it in her heart and feeling uncomfortable.

After two years of treatment, plus Kerr herself actively overcomes, the psychological barrier that is extremely uncomfortable is finally getting smaller and smaller, although the current Kerr has not completely returned to the past, she is still afraid of the dark, and still does not like to lock the door, but she has also returned to a more normal life. It's just that if you're in a very bad mood, it's easy to recur once in a while.

It was another heart-wrenching experience...... Such an experience will make the two people who have been talking all night at this moment ...... heart-wrenching.

Ke'er recalled this past with tears in her eyes, and her mood couldn't calm down for a long time...... Zichun, can you feel the uneasiness and sadness in Kerr's heart? Do you have the heart to hear Kerr? Isn't there nowhere to put her?