Ruan Xiuya was talking, her eyes swept over the bed, and she was shocked: "Jin Tang!" Jin Tang, you're awake! ”

She threw herself on the hospital bed.

I saw that my precious son was starless and unfocused, which looked very distressing.

His son is distressed, in the past ten years, he has not even had a cold, but now he is lying here like a living dead, teaching her how to endure it.

Quan Ye walked up to her and patted her shoulder with one hand: "Auntie, this is not an incurable disease, it will definitely be cured." ”

"Ono, what's wrong with Jin Tang? Isn't he awake? Ruan Xiuya, who had already been frightened into the six gods, turned back to him anxiously and asked, "Why don't you speak?" Did you just hit the medicine too hard? ”

Regarding medical matters, Quan Ye didn't understand either, and glanced back at Dr. Gao.

Doctor Gao hurriedly explained, "We definitely won't mess around, Mrs. Si. Just played the relationship of tranquilizers. ”

He hadn't told his family what had happened yet.

In the treatment of schizophrenia, in addition to psychological counseling, his serious condition must be assisted with medication.

Tranquilizers are secondary, after which those drugs do have some effect on him.

If you take it for a long time, there will be some side effects, and it is not recommended for family members who are not psychologically tolerant to visit-

For example, Mrs. Si, who has always been very emotional.

"And when will he speak?" Mrs. Si asked nervously.

"At any time," Dr. Gao replied, "it depends on the patient's own wishes." ”

Tranquilizers only calm down the emotional patient and prevent them from becoming dumb.

So he doesn't speak now, it's definitely not because of the drug.

Quan Ye couldn't bear to see Ruan Xiuya's appearance, so he said to Si Jin Tang: "Tang, if you can hear us talking, you squeak so badly, Auntie is frightened." ”

Si Jintang can hear it.

Unlike before on the road, his world has now recovered, and his sight and hearing are normal.

When he lost consciousness, he had a lot of dreams, dreams that were pieced together in bits and pieces, long, long.

Intermittently, connected.

At the end of the dream, he hears the merciless words that make him want to fall into the abyss, and then the event repeats itself.

The crowd waited for a long time, but they didn't hear him speak, but they saw tears slipping from the corners of his eyes, and he just kept his eyes open, looking up at the sky without focus.

"Son......" Ruan Xiuya was distressed and scared, grabbed his hand and cried urgently, "Doctor...... Doctor, will you save my son...... What the hell happened to him...... Doesn't it hurt somewhere? Jin Tang, where do you hurt, tell your mother. ”

"Auntie, he's not hurt, don't worry." Kwon Ye comforted her.

After examination, he did not suffer any external injuries.

"I'm sitting in the car." Si Jin Tang finally spoke.

"What?" Ruan Xiuya stopped crying, afraid that her voice would overshadow his.

"I saw me sitting in the car motionless, not knowing what I was waiting for."

As soon as he said this, Quan Ye understood that he was talking to himself.

Because he was the only one who had heard him talk about his dream, this third-person scene, was when he first had that dream.

Dr. Gao and An Baijin immediately took out a pen and paper to record, and then added a mobile phone to record.

"And then?" Kwon Ye asked.

"I felt that the situation was very bad, my heart was beating very fast," he said calmly, "I seemed to know what was going to happen next, I ran to the car and wanted to tell 'him', get out of the car, don't sit in the car, you can't catch up, you will regret it!" ”

At the end, the tone was a little heavier.

"'He' answered the phone, and then I saw that I wanted to run down. The stupid guy was too slow to react, and 'he' got out of the car and stood across the road. I ran over, but I passed through the body of Xiang Xiang, and when I turned back, she was already lying in a pool of blood, and I couldn't save her......" Si Jin Tang said slowly, his eyes were wet, "I can only watch her die in front of me, just like 'him'." ”

Ruan Xiuya listened to his words, covered her mouth and cried silently.

What had her son done wrong to be tormented like this by the man who didn't exist.

"Then I understood in that instant," Si Jin Tang said quietly, "Aye, that wasn't a dream. The heart-wrenching, real feeling must not be a dream. 'He' is me, I'm 'him', everything really happened, think about it, it's really dead. ”

Kwon Ye: "......"

How can a non-existent person "really die"?

Just as Quan Ye was about to say this, he heard his next sentence: "You are right, thinking about this time does not exist, it is my imagination." ”

Quan Ye: "? ”

He pondered the sentence carefully, and it didn't seem quite right......

Dr. Gao and An Baijin were stunned for a moment, this was the first time they had seen a person with schizophrenia recognize the truth so quickly.

He knew that after he had hallucinations, it would definitely help in the treatment, and as long as he was willing to cooperate with them later, he would definitely get better soon!

When Ruan Xiuya heard this, she finally smiled: "Great, it's good if you understand......"

As if he hadn't heard her words, Si Jintang continued: "Actually, I may have realized this a long time ago, and I don't want to admit that I really died when I think about it, so I fantasize that she is by my side." Those weren't dreams, they were my real memories. ”

His turn made a room full of people ponder for a while, and then understood.

Going around and around, he still didn't recognize it!

He just changed his perception, and he now insists that the dream he had was not a dream, it was his real memory, and Gu Xiang was also real, just because she was dead, so he fantasized about her.

He now also knew that Gu Xiang, who was with him during this time, was an illusion, but the premise of all this was that he still believed that Gu Xiang was real.

In short, he was still very sick.

Si Jin Tang knew that no one in the ward would believe what he said, including Quan Ye.

They would surely think he was sick and still schizophrenic.

But only he knew clearly that he was not sick.

Or maybe he was really sick during this time, but now he is better.

He has understood it all!

Thinking of the scene of death in front of him, playing out in front of him over and over again, he watched and thought about dying before his eyes again and again, and he only felt a strong sense of powerlessness and grief.

As she died again and again, he felt the real pain.

He had a ridiculous idea that no one would believe him if he said it.

He lived two lives.

In that life, there was thought, and in this life, thinking is gone.