Because I love you, I often want to apologize to you. My love was heavy, dirty, and there were many unpleasant things in it, such as sadness, sorrow, self-pity, despair, and my heart was so fragile. I am always defeated by these negative emotions, as if I am struggling in a swamp and sinking more and more. And I love you, I just want to drag you in, but I want you to save me. 】

Thinking of this, he hooked his lower lip.

I can't tell if the smile is because I think of that person or because I am laughing at myself.

I don't know what I thought, Lu Yanzhi's eyelashes trembled, and he couldn't hold back the tears that wanted to run out of his eyes tightly.

He didn't reach out to wipe it, as if he was tired and tired.

He rolled over and let the tears trickle down his eyes and into the pillow, leaving one mark after another.

At four o'clock in the morning, the person in the bed tossed and turned, and he was not asleep.

He opened his eyes, and the circles under his eyes were red.

Sitting up, he felt for the sleeping pills on the bedside table and took another one.

Half an hour later, the drowsiness did not strike.

The boundless darkness surrounded him, and it was a long solitude.

He shook his hands to get the medicine bottle, and cried and ate one after another.

At five o'clock in the morning, he dragged his exhausted body into the kitchen, blood falling to the floor, and following his steps all the way to the bathroom.

The window was already slowly brightening, and the faint light could not dissipate the darkness in the bedroom.

Lu Yanzhi didn't know when he became unconscious, he only remembered that he used his last strength to make a phone call to Jiang Huai.

In a weak, trembling voice, he spoke into the phone:

"Brother Huai."

"Please—"

"Help me."

——

What Jiang Huai said, Lu Yanzhi didn't hear clearly.

He tried to sober himself up, but he was too sleepy, and his eyelids were getting heavier.

"Plop", the phone that was still ringing fell and sank into the bathtub.

Jiang Huai's voice stopped abruptly.

The moment he closed his eyes, Lu Yanzhi thought, if-

He said if.

If there is a next life, he still wants to ...... I really want to meet JAC.

——

The sky was slightly bright, the mist in the early morning cloud city had not dispersed, and the temperature was a little low.

On the street, small stalls and vendors have set up breakfast stalls, and many people who are rushing to work for the morning are already sitting there eating hot steamed buns.

The flowers on the peach blossom embankment by the river were raging by the wind last night and blew off the ground, and many branches were bare.

I don't know how long it took, the sun broke through the mist, and the wind, not to be outdone, blew away the mist.

In the central hospital, the lights in the emergency room are still on.

Lu Fangzhi and Eno stood at the door and waited anxiously.

Jiang Huai called in the morning, Jiang Ye hadn't gotten up yet, but when he heard the news of Lu Yanzhi's suicide, he woke up instantly.

Because Jiang Huai was abroad, he couldn't rush over at the first time, so he found Jiang Ye as soon as possible, and the two woke up more people and asked for Lu Fangzhi's call.

When Lu Fangzhi and Eno arrived at the Chengwan apartment, the room was too dark, and the curtains in the living room were tightly drawn.

One of Lu Fang turned on the light when he entered, but before the two of them found Lu Yanzhi, the first thing they saw was blood on the floor, drop after drop.

Eno looked at the source and saw the knife on the kitchen floor, and the blood on the knife had not yet dried.

Lu Fangzhi ran into the bedroom, and Jiang Ye hurriedly followed.

The bathroom door is not closed, and you can still look out the window from the bathroom angle.

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