Three days after separating from his cousin, Lu Yanzhi never expected that what his cousin said would come true.

Xiao He committed suicide.

When she was brought in, she was unconscious.

Lu Yanzhi desperately wanted to save her back.

In the empty emergency room, Lu Yanzhi called her name in a low voice, over and over again.

He said, "We're holding on......

But Xiao He was already asleep, very quiet, very quiet......

Coming out of the emergency room, Lu Yanzhi looked at Xiao He's parents at the door, as if he had lost his voice, his lips opened and opened, and he couldn't spit out a word.

"I'm sorry, we've done our best."

This sentence, starting from Lu Yanzhi's medical practice, has not been said many times.

But every time, he had a very powerless feeling.

And this time the feeling is even stronger.

He looked at Xiao He's mother, who was paralyzed on the ground and had cried until she had convulsions, and the tears that she had been holding back couldn't help but fall first.

He didn't dare to stay there, and stumbled back to his office.

Lu Yanzhi got off work early, and no one knew how he spent the night.

Early the next morning, Lu Yanzhi handed in his resignation.

He couldn't stay here anymore.

Whether it was out of consideration for himself or out of responsibility for the patient, he couldn't stay here anymore.

That feeling of powerlessness hit again and again, like a slender needle, piercing the heart without hesitation.

Lu Yanzhi's resignation was unknown to his family.

Even his cousin was kept in the dark.

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The window was bright and dark, Lu Yanzhi had been confused for the past few days, and he didn't know what time it was at this moment, so he could only judge with difficulty whether it was day or night through the gap in the curtains that had not been tightened.

I don't know how long I slept, but he got up from his bed.

He hadn't eaten well for the past two days, and when he got out of bed, he was still a little shaky.

In the kitchen, the kitchen utensils he bought back at the beginning had become decorations, because no one had cleaned them for the past few days, and a thin layer of dust had fallen on them.

Pulling a bottle of cold beer from the fridge, he walked over to the window and sat down on a chair.

On the balcony table next to him was a book he was about to finish.

In the past few days, he has not gone out except to sleep and read, nor has he touched his mobile phone.

The beer had been sitting in the fridge for many days, and it was so dry that the lips were a little cracked and a little uncomfortable when they touched the edge of the can. When the beer entered his throat, he couldn't distinguish the taste, only that it was really cold, and it was cold in the heart.

I don't know how long he sat by the window, he drank beer while looking at the lights of thousands of homes outside the window, the streets were full of traffic, and the bustling and bustling were visible to the naked eye, but unfortunately none of these belonged to him.

Compared to the outside window, the room is completely different from another world.

In this world, apart from him, there is only endless chill, endless loneliness.

After drinking, he threw the empty jar in his hand, and there was a crisp sound of colliding with the table. Lu Yanzhi frowned unhappily, feeling very noisy.

He likes to be quiet now, he doesn't even want to turn on the TV, the sounds are too noisy for him.

He opened the book in his hand and sat quietly watching.

At three o'clock in the morning, he took his medicine and lay in bed.

The dark blue sheets were a little wrinkled. He hadn't cleaned his room in days.

There was also a mess under the bed, piled up with some daily necessities.

The moment he closed his eyes, he remembered the passage he had just read in the book.

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