Chapter 334: It's Not Like You
Tao Yao's words seemed incomprehensible, but Chu Fangnan instantly understood what Tao Yao wanted to express, because Chu Fangnan also had that kind of complex emotion, and it may be deeper than Tao Yao's.
Because Tang Ziye still had the kind of medicine that Chu Fangnan used to punish him in his body, although Tang Ziye had already asked Chu Fangnan to inject the antidote of that medicine into himself, he didn't do it.
It's just that the feeling of nostalgia is too painful and too sweet.
Tang Ziye was indeed in pain, but he was also happy, and this pain was a proof that he missed Chu Qingyin.
He was willing to suffer this kind of pain.
Looking at Tang Ziye's dark green eyes, Tao Yao knew that he understood what he meant, so Tao Yao continued.
"Ask yourself, if you had such mixed feelings, would you easily accept any past with this person?"
Tang Ziye shook his head. Indeed, he could not argue that anyone in such a situation would assess the risk of retrieving their previous memories.
If it is Tang Ziye, it may be a little more rigorous, after all, in the business war, the trickery and treachery, Tang Ziye's invincible weapon has always been his prudence and step-by-step.
If it were him, in this case, he would probably only be more closed than Tao Yao, so he really had no way to expect Tao Yao to open up to himself again.
Being able to sit down like this, calmly, and openly and honestly exchange each other's thoughts, Tang Ziye already felt that it was commendable.
He knew from a long time ago that Tao Yao's trust was not easy to come by, and after tearing his face between the two of them and shattering all the good things in the past, Tang Ziye knew that it was really difficult to gain Tao Yao's trust again.
When he learned that Tao Yao was pregnant, he chose to put her under house arrest instead of directly discussing with Tao Yao, and it was precisely for this reason that he chose to put her under house arrest.
Tang Ziye knew that Tao Yao, who no longer trusted him, would never have any more cooperation and dealings with him, and that child was just torture for Tao Yao, as long as he thought of that child, it would make Tao Yao think of the process of his trust being trampled on and broken by Tang Ziye.
And this process will allow Tao Yao to remember a deep lesson from now on, that is, don't make a mistake at will, don't trust at will.
Tao Yao had said before his amnesia that some people are not worthy of my trust. It is obvious that the so-called people are just referring to one person, that is, he Tang Ziye.
If she can choose, Tang Ziye really doesn't want Tao Yao to experience the previous pain again, but he has to let Tao Yao experience the previous pain, because once Tao Yao is injected with the antidote that can recover her memory, she remembers the previous things, and she will inevitably experience all the previous emotions again.
Tang Ziye only hopes that the process can come a little later, as long as Tao Yao is not in a hurry now, Tang Ziye is willing to delay this process forever.
But Tang Ziye knew very well that this delay could only be delayed by Tao Yao himself, and Tang Ziye had no way to make such a delay for Tao Yao.
Not only because Tang Ziye is an outsider, but also because of this kind of thing, no matter how much others persuade him, he can't make up his mind as much as the person concerned.
So Tang Ziye still thought about it and asked that sentence.
"When are you going to regain your memory?"
Tang Ziye brought up this topic, long pain is better than short pain, Tang Ziye has always been resolute, although he does hope that this day will never come, but blindly procrastination is not his style.
He will not take the initiative to make up his mind for Tao Yao, everything must respect Tao Yao's opinion.
If there are any changes in Tang Ziye before and after Tao Yao's amnesia, perhaps this point is the most profound.
Tang Ziye will never stand in a perspective overlooking all living beings to decide some things for Tao Yao as before.
Tang Ziye finally learned that only by respecting Tao Yao's opinion is the idea of being good for Tao Yao, and making the so-called correct and excellent wise decisions as self-righteous as before, he is actually trampling on Tao Yao's dignity and trust.
When Tao Yao heard Tang Ziye's question, she seemed to be deep in thought, she raised her head and asked, "If I want to inject a memory recovery potion, will I meet with Chu Fangnan again?"
"It seems to be like this," Tang Ziye nodded, "Chu Qingyin is not good at this aspect of potion research, everything in this area is studied by Chu Fangnan.
"Although Chu Fangnan can also hand over the potion to Chu Qingyin and let Chu Qingyin inject it himself, but this elixir involving memory may be more subtle in itself, if this part is done by Chu Qingyin, Chu Fangnan may not be at ease."
"Plus you and I know, Chu Fangnan will definitely use this reason to find ways to see you."
"Then postpone it a little longer," Tao Yao thought about it, but still shook his head helplessly and said, "Although this is very emotional and seems to be a bit pretentious, I still want to say that I really don't want to see Chu Fangnan for the short term." ”
"If I see him, I don't know how my emotions will fluctuate, or wait until my heart is a little stronger, and when I can face these things, when there are no mood fluctuations, and when my mood is invisible, let him inject me with a medicine that can recover my memory."
"Do you still trust him?" Tang Ziye asked, "After all, the kind of antidote that allows you to recover your memories is also configured by Chu Fangnan, if Chu Fangnan wants to deceive you, or wants to deceive you, he can configure other potions for you, so that you can't get back your previous memories." ”
"If you go a little further, he can even give you a false memory, are you sure you still have to trust him in that regard?"
After being silent for a long time, Tao Yao said: "I don't believe in Chu Fangnan very much, but I don't seem to have any other choice. ”
Tang Ziye sighed softly.
This woman is like a little hedgehog, when she trusts you very much, she will open her soft belly and throat to you, and entrust her life to you.
But once you touch her bottom line, violate her trust, and make her feel that you are no longer trustworthy, she will only gather herself up and show you her hard thorns.
Although for humans, the little hedgehog's thorns can be subdued if they prick their hands again, but just looking at the cute little hedgehog is so guarded with a whole body of thorns, it makes people feel as if they have been pricked in the heart.
Obviously, whether it is Tang Ziye or Chu Fangnan, they just want to do their best to take care of Tao Yao, but both of them have made a mistake that Tao Yao can never forgive, that is, they deceived her.
Alas, Tang Ziye sighed fiercely in his heart.
What's the use of talking about that today? The lost trust can never be regained, Tang Ziye knows it, and Chu Fangnan also knows it.
But in the face of Tao Yao's rock-solid attitude, Tang Ziye couldn't help but have something to say.
"Do you really think that if you cheat on you once, you will never trust him again? Maybe...... Maybe that person has some kind of trouble? ”
Or maybe the man has turned back? You have to give people a chance to make amends, don't you? ”
"If a person makes a small mistake and sentences him to death without being interrogated, isn't that too much price for that person?"
"I understand what you mean...... Tao Yao nodded and said, "Actually, I've also thought about it, maybe it's just because I don't love him enough." ”
"If I really love Chu Fangnan deeply, maybe I still have the patience to listen to his explanation, or maybe in my own heart I will want to excuse him, defend him, and understand him."
"I can only say that I don't love him deeply enough, so I refuse to give him another chance to correct himself, and I don't trust him enough, so I can't let go of his deception."
"Then will you meet the person who makes you love enough?" Tang Ziye couldn't help but ask.
Tao Yao smiled lightly: "You are beating around the bush like this, I also understand what you mean, do you want to talk about yourself?" ”
"I can't give you an answer now, and I don't know if I can give you a reasonable answer if I get my previous memories back, I can only say that I will really do my best."
"Now in my eyes you are a very good person, if I can forgive you, I will definitely try my best to forgive, is this promise enough to reassure you?
Tao Yao couldn't help but raise his head, as if he wanted to stretch out his hand, but finally put it down.
She traced the handsome outline of the big radish with her eyes, and said softly: "People like you should be forever proud, please don't make that kind of low-profile attitude in front of me again." ”
"I don't need you to be so cautious, to be careful, if you have done something bad to me, we can go our separate ways, if you have a clear conscience, we can start again."
"Please don't be so cautious anymore, you're not like you."
These few words, although they were not a deep tirade or flowery words, made Tang Ziye's heart feel a huge shock unprecedentedly.
Tang Ziye rarely wanted to cry, but she had a feeling of wanting to laugh, but in the end, the proud Tang Ziye could only keep her face expressionless.
He asked Tao Yao with some uncertainty: "Do you think this is not like me?" Do you really know what it looks like to be like me?
"I understand, you want to say that we haven't known each other for long since I lost my memory, right?" Tao Yao smiled and nodded, "But I just feel this way, you should be more dazzling, more rebellious, and more unchangeable by anyone." ”
"Although we haven't known each other for a long time, I still have to say that you are not very like you now."