"We were in love with each other, and it hurts to think about it."

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After holding me, He Bei let go of me without stopping and stood beside Lin Sheng, and I put myself in an embarrassing situation again, "Thank you." ”

I walked forward without raising my head, in the process I forced myself to composure, just finish this road and reach the corner, those people and things will not follow He Beici's gaze anymore.

Jiang Nai received my call and quickly appeared in front of me, he saw my pale face and without saying a word, picked me up and put me in the car, fastened my seat belt for me, started the engine and rushed out.

I raised the back of my hand and put it in front of my forehead with some weakness, and my voice was also weak, "What are you doing?" ”

"Take you to the hospital."

"No need, I went to get the test results today, and you can send them to Caffrey for me when I get back." I turned my face away and wiped away my tears.

Jiang Nai's foot on the accelerator loosened slightly, the speed of the car gradually slowed down, and his tone sounded a little helpless, "How long will you have to shed tears for him before you completely let go?" ”

"Jiang Nai... You don't understand. "I opened the window and greeted the cold wind blowing outside the window, which blew me up a little bit.

I don't want to have no contact with him anymore, but the world is so small that two people who are afraid to meet each other can meet again.

He Beici's wedding came as scheduled.

During this period, we never saw each other again, but on the day we went out, we were stopped by Jiang Nai, "Where are you going?" You can't run around now, you know? ”

"Today he gets married." I bowed my head, not daring to look at the eyebrows of the person in front of me who were twisted together in worry.

"Then I'll be with you." Afraid that I would object, he emphasized again, "You should know your current physical condition, you can't have no one around you." ”

"Okay." That's fine, at least He Beici will feel that I have someone by my side. But how could he care, how could he care about a person who could give up even years of affection.

The parking lot is still some distance from the hotel, it is already a cold winter, and after getting out of the car, Jiang Nai naturally draped the down jacket he brought when he went out on my shoulders. He held out a hand to me, "I can't go in with you as an assistant." ”

He needs an identity, a boyfriend.

I stood for a long time without reaching out his hand, but he took his hand back with a sigh, and then straightened my clothes for me and took my bag. "Just as I didn't say anything, let's go."

"Jiang Nai." He looked back at me standing still, and before he could ask questions, I took the lead in holding his slightly cool hand, "I owe you once." ”

It didn't seem to be the temperature of winter that day, Jiang Nai's hands were hot very quickly, and even warmed Su Yuzhi's cold hands.

He Beici and Lin Sheng stood in front of the door to greet them, and I also saw He Father, He Mother, and He Beinian. Their expressions were slightly embarrassed after noticing me, and I smiled and blessed them, "Uncle and aunt." He Beici just looked at me silently, I took out the red envelope that I had prepared and gave it to him, "I wish you... Happily married. ”

Jiang Nai handed his share after me, and I don't know when he prepared it.

I seemed to hear He Beici's chuckle, "Aren't the two of you a family?" Since it's a family, there's no need to give it separately. ”

I made eye contact with him, and saw the banter in his eyes, Jiang Nai took his words one step ahead of me, "If Mr. He is too much, it will be okay for you to send more when I get married to Yuyu next year." ”

I didn't refute Jiang Nai's next year's wedding, after all, the current situation, my future has nothing to do with his He Beici.

I chose a seat in the corner and sat down, and Jiang Nai asked me why I didn't sit closer. I think that if you sit close, Lin Sheng will have a mustard in his heart.

Lin Sheng took his father's arm and slowly walked to He Beici in the center of the stage, and the happy smile on his face could not be hidden.

Under the witness of the master of ceremonies, the two newlyweds took an oath, exchanged rings, and kissed. The boy who used to have my eyes full now has someone to protect for the rest of his life, and I sincerely wish them to grow old together.

The He Beici who held my hand and lay on the lawn, the He Beici who took me over the school fence, the He Beici who we had an agreement, and the He Beici who planned the future with me, all belonged to a girl named Lin Sheng from now on.

He no longer belongs to me and no longer has anything to do with me.

Lin Sheng took He Beici's arm and got off the stage to toast, table after table, I heard He Beici's hearty laughter, and the shy voice of Lin Sheng in his arms when he was ridiculed.

When he came to our table, he handed me the wine with an uncertain expression, "Su Yuzhi, you have to learn to cherish the people in front of you." ”

We toasted together, but just before the entrance my wrist was held by Jiang Nai, "Your body... Or don't drink it. ”

"How can you not drink on such a good day?" I brushed his hand away and squeezed out a smile at He Beici, "The person in front of me is my sweetheart, and I will cherish it." ”

He Beici never saw Su Yuzhi's tears that were blocked by the wine glass. Her body... No matter how her body is, it has nothing to do with him, and they no longer have a position to care about each other's lives, good or bad, happy or sad.

There is one person whom I love more than all living beings, more than all things in the world, and even more than myself. But in the end, under the arrangement of fate, we will be strangers and have nothing to do with it.

It was still early when I left with Ena, and the sky was still gray when I came earlier, and the ground was covered with snow.

"It's snowing." I reached out to pick up the snow, but I didn't expect to see snow like this again in Beicheng after many years. "Jiang Nai, you like me, don't you?"

I heard Jiang Nai chuckle, "After so many years, I didn't expect you to say my mind first." ”

I could have guessed a thing or two about his mind as early as when I was in college, but I was afraid that once I said something, I would never go back. "Jiang Nai, don't waste your time on me. I have seen everything you have done for me for so many years in my eyes and in my heart, but now, you need your life even more. ”

"You said it, so many years." Jiang Nai smiled lightly, "Being kind to you has long become a habit, habits can be formed in an instant, but it takes a lifetime to change." Su Yuzhi, since you have seen through my thoughts, let me continue to be by your side, whether as an assistant or a brother, it is good if I can accompany you. ”

The snow was getting heavier, and Jiang Nai reached out to me, and this time I didn't hesitate to reach out. We ran all the way to the parking lot in the snow, and I didn't have any scruples that day, even though I was wearing high heels and a bulky gown. Because I know that it is Jiang Nai who is holding me, and he will take care of me.

He turned around and smiled at me, and we shuttled through the snow-shrouded crowd, "Su Yuzhi, don't look back." ”

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Afterward... Afterward.

My heart disease finally survived the cold winter, but it didn't usher in the hot summer.

The potion in the hospital smells so strong, I have to gasp every day. Jiang Nai would push me with a pale face and go downstairs to the lawn outside to watch the people in action.

He would crouch in front of me and ask me if I was cold, if I wanted to rest, and I would just shake my head and wake up in a hospital bed.

Jiang Nai sat on the edge of my bed as he used to peel apples for me, I looked at Jiang Nai as if he was a little older, and occasionally when he sat on the edge of my bed and was closer to me, I could see a few gray hairs in his hair.

My voice was hoarse, and I knew I was already on the wane.

He leaned over to my lips, as if smiling, but there were tears in his eyes, "Huh? You said. ”

I used the last of my strength to hold his hand beside my bed, and it just felt so warm.

I couldn't make a sound anymore.

Dimly, I seemed to see He Beici, and he said, "Being with you is my heart's desire." ”

I remember that after countless nights of overtime with me, I asked Jiang Nai why he was so desperate for me. He said, "I will keep your peace one day." ”

Jiang Nai cried, crying like a child.