When I was in elementary school, I was naughty by nature and loved to talk nonsense. Because I'm left-handed, and left-handedness is linked to "smart", I was naturally labeled as "smart". And I, in order to be worthy of the people around me in my heart, gave a "smart" label, but I did a lot of mentally retarded things. For example, to the foot-bound doctor, the third aunt came to my house to save my mother's soul, and made wild remarks about them and drove them away.

At that time, the word left-handed hand was a foreign product, associated with Einstein, Leonardo da Vinci and other celebrities, and people were happy to chase and dream of new things, which was understandable.

However, after I went to university, I found that this left-handed foreign product, because of a medical study, is linked to mental disorders, emotional disorders, etc., left-handed brains, in the background of Western culture and Eastern culture, I am like a book published by the "Second Academy" "Genius on the Left, Madman on the Right".

How should this sentence be understood?

To put it simply, the conscious and subconscious minds are binary thoughts. My understanding of culture is only in the east and west directions, and I don't know anything about the permeability of the north and south directions, so in the subconscious world, culture is only a regional difference, and there are no national borders. In the world of consciousness, culture serves the survival of ethnic groups, and has a smaller range of regional distinctions.

When Western culture spread to the East, left-handed hands were linked to cleverness, which was a synonym for genius. When Western culture is influenced by Eastern culture, left-handed hands are associated with mental disorders and emotional disorders, and there is a risk of becoming a madman.

In primitive times, human beings followed the sun and food, and this feeling has never changed. Culture is the product of an ethnic group within a certain region. When an ethnic group expands its territory in order to survive, for convenience, it will try to eliminate the leader and culture of another ethnic group, the leader can be eliminated, but the culture is not, and the things in the bones will be passed on to the next generation. "The best thing to do is to be compatible. Create a Datong world, Datong culture, and the idea of "harmony".

In fact, I think Chinese parents generally don't care whether their children are left-handed or right-handed, only left-handed children do.

The main reason is that this kind of ideological transformation stems from the fact that the main battlefield of culture has always been in the West, and we are inevitably influenced by the mainstream culture of the West, and it is easy to ignore the local culture.

As a result, I am going to recount a horrible dream I had on the night of February 14th.

In the dream, everyone in Anxi Town is going to move, and a meeting is held before the migration. And when I was on the stage, it was a story about how the animal world survived, and when I walked off the stage, everyone whispered and started the meeting.

Then, back in the corner of the meeting, I heard a voice from the dark clouds, lightning and thunder in the sky. He told me about the development and evolution of the earth and the evolution of human beings since Pangu opened the world. It's too long, and I worked hard to write it, but I only remembered a beginning and an end.

The voice was calm and powerful, like a voice from outside the sky. I longed to write down this story, but I was just a mortal in the flesh, but it was difficult to record it with a brush shake, and the writing was too slow to accelerate, and the voice was faster and faster, at least for three days and two nights.

However, I was so tired that I did not want to share this gospel with the world, but I listened to the voice that left me with the only clear and meaningful sentence: "The only way to eternal life comes from good thoughts."

I was awakened by fear.

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When I woke up from fear, my first thought was that the voice I heard came from God.

However, God is the face of white culture, too high to be fathomable, and it comes from Western culture. And I am indeed a mortal with a cool head, a warm heart, and a belief in red culture.

It is precisely because I am a mortal that I could possibly believe in such a thing as God. The source of God and the Bible may just be a lie without a concept of time.

The memory clues in this dream were fished out one day in the 11th month of the lunar calendar in 07, and I accidentally read the Bible. When I saw a Bible on the couch at home, I finished reading it and asked my mom curiously, "Who brought this book?" ”

My mom replied unfazedly, "I don't know."

At that time, it was only my mother, my brother and I who were at home, and I was very surprised, and I was frightened for a while, and I was terrified, and I was terrified for a long time.

First of all, it couldn't be that my brother took it home, and I didn't have it, but my mother didn't know, and I imagined countless possibilities, such as the foot-binding doctor, the third aunt, and others came to my house and forgot on the sofa, so my mother should know...... Or, is it that there is another thing that changes time and space, and a book falls out of thin air, for example, I obviously returned the flower head rope before, but no one has seen it. I found a book on my couch, a Bible I've been curious about for a long time...... This experience was so terrible for me at the time that I couldn't help but wonder if there was a supernatural event, or if it was the effect of my mind as described in the Parchment.

Then, be enveloped by the emotion of fear. It's hard to focus attention and imagination on, "Maybe this is just a white lie?" "After all, at that time, I didn't understand why adults and children love to lie just like that.

So, my thinking has always been, is it possible that the Bible came down from heaven on our couch and was discovered? My consciousness simply threw such a question at me, but could not answer it.

A feeling of horror and disbelief, like a dick in the movie, suddenly found out that he was a spy trained by a secret organization, so he suddenly woke up and decided to save the world, not limited to saving his own thoughts.

When I was sixteen years old, on the couch at home, I accidentally got the book of the Bible, like a treasure that came down from heaven to save my soul.

Because I believed my mother, I never doubted it. My mom said she didn't know where the book came from, so she really didn't know.

It wasn't until I went to college and came home to find that there was a Bible at home, but it was not as big or as good as what I considered a treasure, that I realized that this was really one of the many lies my mother had told my children.

When I learned that the treasure of the Bible was nothing but a lie, it lost its divine power. And it never saved my report card.

When I graduated from college, I was going to sell it to the people who had not read it in four years of college, but I was too reluctant to leave it to the aunt who managed the dormitory, so let her sell it.

Then, I couldn't figure out why my mother didn't want to admit the book, even though my mother took it home.

When I figured out the truth, I fell into self-blame, and forgot about the twists and turns of the emotional exchange for the wild words I had said.

Now that I think about it, it was just my mother's kindness and reluctance to tell me the origin of this book, and she seemed to think that I was deeply educated in red culture, how could I be led astray by my third aunt who believed in God, and decided to reject my deceased parents and not want to miss them?

And she has believed in red culture for more than 40 years, but she has the idea of understanding white culture, how to explain it to her children?

However, after reading the Bible, I began to blame myself for the wild words I had spoken as a teenager, and my subconscious mind became even more reluctant to speak.

The reason for this is ridiculous. But when "God" decided to save my mother's soul, I stopped the messenger of "God" and also stopped my mother.

And all the accusations and lessons of my mother during my adolescence have become a kind of wrongful behavior that stopped her from believing in "God" in the first place.

As my third aunt told me when I was a teenager, "I don't want you, but I will regret what you have done at this moment, because after death, the soul will be whipped and tortured, and Jesus has borne all the sins of the world, and we will seek the Lord's forgiveness."

When the third aunt died, I don't know if God saved her soul, I just think that she died as tragically as my eldest aunt.

Later, my younger brother and I also went to college, and my mother walked out of the sea of spiritual suffering, which also has the credit of my father burning books to eliminate his anger, and more importantly, my mother can go out of the small village and out of her own world, to understand the prosperity of the people in the city, and is willing to learn the way the city people treat their children, and change herself.