We grunted and poured the wine into our stomachs, and tacitly did not speak.

Xing Sisi and I were both stunned for a while, tacitly not speaking. But somehow, when I looked at her, I suddenly remembered the last time I overheard her talking to Xu Siyang, and what Wang Jiayi told me. The more I thought about it, the more I couldn't leave her, and my heart was full of suspicions.

What she said to Xu Siyang last time, I don't understand. But the reason Xing Sisi told me later sounded reasonable at the time, but now when I want to think about it, I feel that it is full of loopholes: if Xing Sisi said that Xu Siyang was at her mercy because she knew about Senior Sister Wang Min, and Xu Siyang was afraid that he would tell the people who shouldn't tell, then the question is - who are the people who shouldn't be told? So what does Xing Sisi know about Senior Sister Wang Min?

And the content of their conversation that day, it is also difficult to find the reason. Why did Xing Sisi say to Xu Siyang, "I thought you knew my feelings best"? Why do you say that Xu Siyang also has her own selfishness for helping her, and she sees Xu Siyang's shadow in her? What's even more strange is that Xu Siyang reacted violently, obviously poked in the sore spot, and even said the words "I don't want the four people to know" and "I don't know what I will do".

So, what is Xu Siyang's selfishness? On the day of the Golden League, what did Wang Jiayi say about what he heard?

Who is the "she" he refers to who is "passionately free and decisive"?

Just when I was puzzled, I saw the pendant on Xing Sisi's phone case, and couldn't help but think of the Q version of my doll she gave to Xu Siyang.

In an instant, I was stunned, and I couldn't help but suffocate my breath.

Don't......?! I thought of something, and I couldn't hold the beer in my hand. I couldn't even breathe, I couldn't help coughing, and my whole body fell into an unprecedented panic.

"What's wrong?" Xing Sisi heard me coughing and immediately cared about me: "Are you okay?" Is it cold? ”

"Nope." I barely managed to calm down and smiled at her: "It's just choking, it's nothing." ”

"Then let's pay attention." Xing Sisi frowned, as if he was very worried about my body: "You are just recovering from a serious illness, you shouldn't have blown the cold wind on the rooftop, if you want me to say, let's go back early." ”

I hummed and watched her face full of sincerity, quietly bowing her head and drinking, suppressing her doubts and anxieties.

No, it won't. It won't be what I thought it would be.

I tried my best to comfort myself, but my whole body fell into an unbelievable panic and nervousness, and even though I desperately told myself that it wasn't true, I couldn't help but think about it.

The more depressed the off-road brute grew, the more it seemed that there was an evil villain in my heart who was bewitching me a little bit: Since I have doubts, why don't I ask? She is in front of you now, and the answer is in front of you.

The other person immediately stopped: No, you are not qualified to doubt anyone's intentions without evidence.

But this evil villain refused to let me go, but he made the ugliness and fear in my heart a little deeper: What are you afraid of? Scared that you guessed right, or scared that you can't afford the result? Or are you afraid of more.

I couldn't help but tighten the can in my hand, and only in my heart in vain, I retorted angrily: No, no, I didn't. I didn't!

The can in my hand was pinched by me, which caused Xing Sisi to look sideways frequently, and his tone was also joking: "Hey, I said what's wrong with you?" What's on your mind? Or did someone mess with you? The cans are all pinched and deformed by you. ”

I desperately resisted the curiosity and impulsiveness surging in my heart, but I still couldn't hold back and asked the question: "Sisi, Xu Siyang has something to hide from me, do you know?" ”

Xing Sisi's smile immediately faded, and he looked at me silently.

When I looked at her, my heart seemed to be half cold, and half of my strength was taken away, and my tense body relaxed.

She didn't deny it, but generously admitted: "I know." ”

She said it cleverly. I don't know if she knows that Xu Siyang has something to hide from me, or if she knows that Xu Siyang is hiding something from me.

My brow jumped suddenly, for fear that my guess would come true. It was easy to suppress the anger surging in his heart, and asked in a calm voice: "You already knew that Xu Siyang was close to me because I was like Senior Sister Wang Min, right?" ”

“…… At last. Xing Sisi frowned, hesitated slightly, and said, "I didn't mean to hide it from you...... It was because I promised Xu Siyang that I would never tell the fourth person, so I kept silent. ”

No wonder, no wonder. Xing Sisi always looked at me with those eyes that wanted to speak and stopped. It turns out that she has known for a long time, but she has been hiding it from me.

Actually, the suspicion I thought in my heart was true. It's ironic.

I pursed my lips, endured the fishy smell in my throat, didn't embarrass her, and changed the question: "Who is the third person?" ”

Xing Sisi was very embarrassed and didn't say anything.

I looked at her way of wanting to speak and stopped, her heart was beating faster and faster, and her lips trembled for a long time before she could barely speak: "Is it Senior Sister Wang Min?" ”

Xing Sisi was stunned, a little surprised, and took it for granted, but still shook her head: "Does she know, I don't know." But the old black ... Sun Zeyi is the third person. ”

I closed my eyes and whispered, "When did you know?" ”

“…… It's early. She was silent for a few seconds before she said slowly: "Do you remember when you participated in the friendship?" You asked me to ask the old ...... Sun Zeyi's matter about Xu Siyang, not long after, I mentioned it to Sun Zeyi, and he hinted at me, and then I found out. "Home

I closed my eyes and felt like I was stupid.

Actually, so early, I knew. And I, like a fool, was kept in the dark and didn't notice anything.

In this way, everything can be said.

Mayai wanted to speak again and again, and the little eyes full of hints; Senior Sister Wang Min's suggestive "he may have found a better one", Xu Siyang's vigilance and uneasiness when I was alone with Senior Sister Wang Min, and the ...... of the meaning behind his inexplicability, all have clear and clear answers.

I couldn't help but smile bitterly in my heart: Fang Jinyu, Fang Jinyu, you boast of your emotional intelligence online, but your reaction is so slow that you don't even see it at all.

My nose was sour, and I thought of Xu Siyang's clean and sunny face, and I felt so strange.

Xu Siyang, am I too nervous, or are you disguised too well?

Xu saw that something was wrong with me, and Xing Sisi was about to cautiously try to speak, but was interrupted by me: "So, he will help you get back together?" ”

"Hmm." Xing Sisi nodded, his eyes full of apology: "He and I are in ...... situation Similarly, they are all ......, so they can understand my feelings, so I always trouble him. ”

I remained silent, looking at the crumpled can in my hand, and my heart was tingling.

The situation is certainly similar. Because they all use another person as a stand-in. It can even be said that it is the same.

Because he, like Xing Sisi, fell in love with the stand-in.

That way, everything makes sense.

It's just that I found out too late.

"Jinyu, I know that I have no position, let alone the right to say this. But I still want to say. Xu Siyang, like me, regrets it very much, but he doesn't know how to make up for it and whether he will be forgiven, so he can only hold a secret and panic all day. Believe me, he is no better off hiding from you. ”

My mind was in turmoil. I don't know if Sun Zeyi was like me at the time, there was a sullen breath in his chest, but he couldn't let it out.

Because I have mixed feelings for Xu Siyang.

Do I hate him? Undoubtedly not, because the feelings for him are limited to good friends, good brothers. Am I angry? There is no doubt that there is. Because it's essentially a deception. And for me, deception is one of the things I can't accept the most.

Aside from these, what dominates my thoughts more is embarrassment and entanglement. There is also the cliché guilt and insecurity.

He is my most trusted and important friend, even if we have known each other for a short time, I have put him in a very important position, if there is no accident, we can accompany and support for a long time.

But now that I know what he thinks about me, it has been since a long time ago, and I don't know how deep or heavy it is. But as long as I think of how he is entangled, cautious, snickering and losing to me, listening to me and Jiang Yueze, seeing my undisguised thoughts about Jiang Yueze, I feel uncomfortable to death.

The more I thought about it, the more sad I felt, and the thought of his smile, his eyebrows, his eyebrows, and his clean smile stinged.

Among them, how many clouds and breezy appearances conceal his desire to speak, and how many smiles are actually his pretense of relaxation?

He helped me every time, but never said a word, he got along with me almost day and night, but his mind never showed half a point, and his words and deeds never crossed the line, which made me suspicious...... It can be seen that he has been thinking about me, and he doesn't want me to feel guilty or burdened.

So, behind such a bright and sunny person, behind a comfortable and clean smile, how many times are frustrated and sad and can't hold on, and they need my comfort? And how many times have I been able to accompany you?

I didn't dare to continue thinking about it, the more I thought about it, the more I felt that I was not a thing, and the more I thought about it, the more I felt that I owed him a lot.

The more I thought about it, the more I felt that I would rather never know him.

In this way, he may not be like now, a person in the quagmire of pain and entanglement, sinking deeper and deeper.

Xing Sisi was also silent with me, and only slowly spoke after a long time: "Will you also draw a line with him like Sun Zeyi?" ”

My hand gripping the can tightened, making a "click" sound. But my throat tightened, and I couldn't make a sound.

I was silent for a long time before I found my voice, hoarse and ugly: "I don't know. ”

Xing Sisi was silent. Neither of us spoke again, just sat quietly.

"Jinyu, let me say more." Coldly, Xing Sisi opened his mouth: "Actually, Xu Siyang is afraid that you will ignore him one day, so he will agree to all my unreasonable requests." He really, wouldn't dare to take any risk with you. Because you're so important to him. ”

I opened my mouth, only to feel the fishy sweetness in my throat.

It turns out that this so-called "friendship" is so unexpectedly heavy.