The start of a new week means that our high-intensity preparations are about to begin.

Jiang Yueze opened a new experiment, and I was not surprised by this. It's just that I'm very busy every day, rarely eats with me, rarely meets me, and even news rarely reply to me in time.

I'm not a clingy personality, in the contrast of Fang Zhengshu and Yan Ting who eat and work together every day, although I feel lost, I am still full of energy every day.

But that's just the past.

Now, after this debate, our whole team is under low pressure.

On Sunday afternoon, there was no progress in discussing the debate.

I don't know if I can't let it go, or if it's hard to tell, everyone is full of thoughts, but they don't say it.

Even when Jiang Yueze asked me about the debate, I took care of him and bypassed the topic.

Even though I know it's a stupid thing to do.

He is the old man of the debate club, and he is a roommate brother with Senior Yan Bo, he wants to know, and he doesn't have to make a little effort.

But even so, I stubbornly didn't want to tell him. It's as if to tell him, he will know how obscure and dark my heart is when the girl's feelings are always poetry, as if I wanted to get close to him at all costs, had an inferiority complex in my heart, and was sensitive and twisted, but on the surface I was disguised as a proud and confident, domineering and hearty paper tiger, so naked in front of him, embarrassed and embarrassed.

Jiang Yueze looked at my evasive eyes, comforted me with his bright eyes and his delicate and gentle voice, encouraged me, respected my thoughts, and didn't ask any more questions.

I mumbled, unable to tell what was feeling in my heart.

Lost? It doesn't seem to be. Relieved? It doesn't seem to be.

Yes, it's just full of melancholy.

It's like, such a past me, I didn't have the opportunity to see the light of day again, and I was deeply separated from the current me, and I felt extremely regretful and pity.

Can I really tell a good story about a crush? Can I really face the same me I used to be?

These unknown fears and fears accompanied me all morning until I went to train in the afternoon, and I suddenly felt a sense of sympathy.

Because I found that everyone is still in the same state as yesterday. His face was full of amazement.

Seeing us like this, the two coaches also sighed melancholy, simply got off the podium, let us all sit together, took out our own stored food, stuffed each of us with a bottle of fruit wine with no degree, and wanted to give us a tea party.

After a long silence, Senior Sister Wang Zhuoying looked at our wilting appearance and said with a teasing smile: "Why, don't you say it?" Do you want to listen to us first? ”

We just got a little spirited, and all of them nodded.

Senior Sister Wang Zhuoying shook her head helplessly and smiled, and said: "Mine is very simple. When I was ugly and fat in high school, my favorite classmate was gentle, handsome, and talented, and I had a crush on him. ”

We shook our heads in unison.

Senior Sister Wang Zhuoying snapped her fingers in approval: "That's right! In my case, it is natural to stop losses in time and indulge in learning! Otherwise, how could you see me in Chongwen, who is one of the best in the country? ”

We were stunned for a moment, and silently wrote down our own opinions: crushing on a person, how to choose, depends on the actual situation, and it must be staged.

Then, we turned our heads to look at Li Bowei, looking forward to his story.

Senior Li Bowei was rarely stunned, and stumbled and said: "Mine is also very simple. It's just that she studies very well, and I'm okay, and both of them think it's good, so they're together. ”

"After that, the director found out, and the two of us separated. And then it's gone. ”

Senior Sister Wang Zhuoying began to smile and reminded us: "So what does Senior Li Bowei's story illustrate?" ”

We began to write in a small notebook: It is possible to die at the hands of the teacher if you make a decisive move.

"Then it's our turn to argue, and tell me about your poignant crush."

Kang Juan shook her head, looking very sad: "My crush confessed to me, but I refused." Because I felt that he would influence me, make me less and less like myself, and the trajectory of my life would also shift, so I missed him. ”

Zhao Yu and I didn't know what to do after listening to it, and in the end we could only write down our feelings with a little loneliness and melancholy: It may be right to give up decisively, but the peerless person in my memory has missed it for life after all.

After writing, we looked up at Xing Sisi and found that she had already unknowingly red-eyed.

None of us pressed again, just waited quietly for her to speak.

After a long time, she spoke lightly, not many words, but with endless regrets: "Nothing else, I was not brave enough to miss him." ”

None of us spoke, nodding quietly.

Then, everyone's eyes focused on me, and their eyes were earnest: "What about Jinyu?" Have you ever had a crush on someone? ”

I looked at a pair of wolf-like eyes, and I didn't squeak.

Senior Li Bowei immediately added: "Don't worry, what you said today, we are absolutely tight-lipped and will not let Yue Ze know." "Fish fish

I shook my head and muttered, not sure whether to tell them or try to convince myself, "He'll know sooner or later." ”

Now everyone was even more excited: "Huh? Then don't hide it, let's talk about it, we can't wait! ”

"That's it!" Li Zhaoqi also followed: "Quick, let's listen to you!" ”

I pursed my lips, not wanting to reveal too much, but picking out what I wanted to say: "He's excellent." It is particularly excellent in Chongwen. When I had a crush on him, I played a lot of tricks and managed to be his tablemate. Tell him my preferences without a trace, and try to win his favor. Study hard, strive to become a better version of yourself, and become a more different existence in his eyes. ”

"And after that? Has he understood your mind? ”

Everyone asked eagerly, and I nodded lightly: "I should know." However, due to some personal reasons, we still didn't get together. ”

"Ah......" Everyone looked lost and shook their heads helplessly.

Only Xing Sisi looked at me thoughtfully.

I smiled lightly at her and slowly lowered my head.

Senior Sister Wang Zhuoying continued to ask Zhao Yu: "What about you?" Cutie? ”

Zhao Yu shook his head: "I haven't had a crush, so I don't know what a crush is." ”

We looked at her in amazement and thought it was incredible.

"Okay, what about Li Zhaoqi?"

Li Zhaoqi smiled, full of spring: "I'm in a crush now." ”

"Huh?" Everyone except me was stunned and asked, "Who?" ”

Li Zhaoqi shook his head: "It's inconvenient to say." ”

Everyone's faces were clouded with a layer of loss at a speed that was visible to the naked eye.

It's just me, hiding the merits and fame and smiling mysteriously.

"But I can tell you how I feel." Li Zhaoqi laughed endlessly, with a little shyness: "Most of the time I am very happy to see him." Sometimes I feel that he is too dazzling, and I will feel inferior. But most of the time, it makes me feel like I can work harder to get closer to him, and even if it doesn't work out, I'm sure to become a better me. ”

Everyone smiled and nodded and applauded her.

"Alright, now everyone is done." Senior Sister Wang Zhuoying drank all the fruit wine in her hand, and her eyes were earnest: "So do you have your own understanding of this debate?" Do you know how to solve the problem? ”

We nodded thoughtfully, and shook our heads thoughtfully.

"So be it." Senior Li Bowei and Senior Sister Wang Zhuoying glanced at each other, and said tacitly: "I'll train here today, go back and think about it yourself, and we'll see the results tomorrow." ”

We slowly closed our notebooks, packed up our things without saying a word, and turned to walk outside.

I walked absentmindedly on Chongli Road, and somehow walked to the laboratory building where Jiang Yueze was.

I looked at the floor where his laboratory was located, silently counted the windows, and when I had counted, I looked up at the window, and the past passed in my mind, page by page.

Jiang Yueze did the problem seriously, but he used it wholeheartedly to draw a key picture for me who listened to the book of heaven; After I unintentionally said, "The mango pudding made by my aunt is so delicious", Jiang Yueze brought me a smile of mango pudding for a week; In the fierce part of the basketball game, I shouted and cheered Jiang Yueze, and after Jiang Yueze heard it, he turned around and ran backwards, with a fragment of a smile in his eyes that only I could see; There was a starry night, deliberately not taking Lu Zhixin's hitchhiker, walking on the silent street with him, and seeing the advertisement of sorbet on the door of the 24-hour convenience store, Jiang Yueze immediately turned around, silently bought it for me, and carefully helped me unpack the memory...... It's full of sweetness.

Gradually, some memories that I wanted to forget, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't forget them, but instead became more and more profound, like a wave, surging all the bitterness up.

I cried and said I was sorry, but I didn't have the face to look up at his embarrassed eyes that were as impurious as the bright moon; On the day when I was ordered to go home to review and not to step into the school again, I cautiously leaned on the window of their class and watched his back stand tall and dusty, crying so hard that I couldn't cry anymore; There was also the day when the college entrance examination results were released, I didn't get admitted to Chongwen, squatted in the toilet of the tutorial class and cried, muttering that I would lose Jiang Yueze's helpless appearance forever......

Memories turned page by page, and in the end, only the sound of the wind blowing through the dead leaves remained.

Ah, I sighed, I couldn't help but sigh, in a flash, it's been so long.

"Jin...... Yu? A clean but uncertain male voice sounded behind me, and I subconsciously turned my head and saw Xu Siyang.

"Is that really you?" Xu Siyang strode over and looked at me with a smile: "What are you doing here?" Do you want to see the building? ”

I gave him a cool look: "That's right." ”

He shrugged his shoulders helplessly and smiled: "Since you want to see Senior Brother Jiang, why don't you go up?" ”

I shook my head: "He's experimenting, I'll bother him." What's more, outsiders are not allowed to enter the laboratory. ”

Xu Siyang opened his mouth and said, "Home ......"

Before he could finish speaking, I rushed to say, "Neither can the family." ”

Xu Siyang smiled and closed his mouth, and put his hands in his pockets idly: "Then do you want to go with me?" ”

I looked at him, and the breeze blew through his broken hair, but it added to the charm.

I laughed slowly, "Okay. ”