Chapter 25: New Year's Chapter 4
Mu Yuxun chatted with his grandparents for a long time, but what Mu Shengnan wanted to say to his daughter was conveyed through the old man, Mu Shengnan loved his daughter deeply.
Yu Xun's original name was Yu Xun, and he was afraid that the name Yu Xun would always remind him that he and his daughter were not biological mothers and sons, so he changed his name to Yu Xun, changed the word without changing the pronunciation, and also boarded Mu Shengnan's restraint on himself, not to stop, but to give his daughter the expectation of finding her biological mother.
And the necklace around her neck was left by her biological mother, proving her biological mother's love for her. Mu Shengnan did not forget to tell at the last moment that no matter what happens in the future, don't take it off, just hoping that her daughter can find her biological mother with this small bond, and I hope that after she leaves, her daughter will still have a mother and a child with a mother.
I was afraid that my daughter would resent her biological mother, so I beat and scolded her, I was afraid that she would not study well, and she was even more murderous, knowing that she would die soon, Mu Shengnan could no longer be ruthless, and all kinds of information had been revealed in those days, all kinds of instructions to her daughter, in retrospect, were all last words.
Mu Shengnan was stingy, hoping to save money for his daughter to go to college, and gave her the necessary living expenses, but Mu Yuxun misunderstood her mother and didn't want to take more.
In the past, Mu Yuxun had a home and someone he liked, so he had the dream that every girl pursued. wants to go to college, wants to be with the person she likes, and wants to have a good life, Wu Wei has guarded her dreams since she was ten years old, protected her dreams, and indulged in this kind of dream.
Today, Mu Yuxun knows that her mother is also her own dream keeper, guarding herself, and she can sleep in her dreams forever. There was hatred, hatred of one's fate, hatred of oneself that could not be changed, hatred of oneself for not getting more love. Now Mu Yuxun wants to hate himself, he has an incomparable mother who loves him deeply, and a warm Wu Wei who cares for him, they used to stand in the distance and silently protect themselves, and they don't know the ocean of love in the depths.
but
Mu Yuxun didn't dare to hate himself, for fear of hurting his mother who loved him, and for fear of stinging Wu Wei, who was caring for him.
Bidding farewell to the second elder, Mu Yuxun sat in the car, pillowing on his lap as when he came. "Wu Wei, I think I'm so stupid, I don't know how to be blessed in the midst of blessings. In the past, I always thought that picking up some rags, changing a pencil, and changing an eraser could reduce the burden on my mother and make my mother happy. ”
Xie Lan listened to Mu Yuxun tell the old stories, reminiscing about all kinds of things, holding a tissue in his hand and staying on his red nose. When she was a child, she stood in the garbage heap, endured the stench, rummaged through some old newspapers and cans, often scratched herself, and endured the sarcasm around her at a young age, just to see the person's smile.
Faced with being pushed down by herself, her knees were scratched, her delicate skin was covered with bright red blood, and she was like a sunflower, smiling at herself like a fool who had killed her. At a young age, he borrowed all the smiles of the future, and now only tears remain.
If you see a dirty child, don't stand by and give him a hug, wipe the stains on his face, and save the soul of a child, maybe just go home and wash the soiled clothes.
When she understood this truth, Xie Lan could no longer be close to the child's heart, and once she only needed to hand the apple in her hand or wipe the stains on her face to exchange for an angelic heart, but she didn't, and now she didn't even have the qualifications to comfort her, so she could only listen to their stories.
"On that day, if my mother hadn't heard my cry and hadn't picked me up, would she be happier, have her own children, and have a perfect family." Mu Yuxun was on Wu Wei's lap, his face facing inward, hiding his expression.
"I don't know, because that day, she picked you up and took on the responsibility of mother, and you have become a source of her happiness from that moment on, because Auntie has never complained, never regretted. You're asking me the same question again. Wu Wei teased her side hair.
"I think there is only one thing that my aunt is very unwilling to do, but she believes that you can do it, so she insists on fighting against death until she sees me."
"What's the matter?"
"Silly girl, it's you, I want to see you enter the university with my own eyes, my aunt knows that she can't see it, but she believes that you can do it, and entrusts me with your expenses for the next four years."
Wu Wei stroked the girl's back, feeling her tremble.
"Cry if you want, no one will laugh at you."
Wu Yajun kept tears and drove the car silently, never looking back, nor looking at the rear mirror. Xie Lan pushed his chin in his hand, put his arm on the edge of the window, and looked at the withered poplar that disappeared in an instant outside the window with teary eyes.
The cry came out of the girl's mouth, choked and swallowed, accompanied by snorting again and again, and her hands tightly pulled Wu Wei's clothes.
once swore that he would not let this girl cry and cry, but Wu Wei not only failed to do it, but also broke his oath and persuaded the girl not to be patient.
The four people in the car avoided each other's gazes, except for Mu Yuxun, no one knew who was still crying.
"Auntie, can you hear me, please bless your daughter This is the last time to cry, I love her, she is all I have, please bless us too." Wu Wei prayed in his heart, but Wu Wei, who did not believe in ghosts and gods, firmly believed that the heroic spirit named Mu Shengnan existed.