So, the origin of "Thirteen is not 23" is that my screen name is "Jasmine Thirteenth Street", and he likes James.

Therefore, Brother Hang will let him give the prize he receives.

So, so, he really likes me.

With that thick stack of photos, I didn't know what to do.

If you want to send Xu Siyang over, what has happened before? Or do you take it yourself and don't know?

If it is sent over, Xu Siyang will inevitably ask who sent it, and if Sister Qingqing tells me that it has been handed over to me, then isn't all this a goof?

If he takes it back, then Xu Siyang will definitely find out where the photos in the desk went, and if he asks Sister Qingqing, he will still know the truth.

So what should I do? I can't get around Sister Qingqing, what should I do?

I rubbed the envelope, and I couldn't think of a solution for a while, but I recalled the doubts that Xu Siyang gave me in the past, little by little.

I remember one time, Xu Siyang said that he had several impressions of me, and I felt far-fetched at the time, but I didn't say anything. But now, I finally understand what he meant.

For him, my first meeting with him was at a convenience store, and I gave him the extra red trouser belt.

It turns out that I really provoked him first.

That's why he would be very surprised and surprised when he saw me again, so sometimes he would look at me with complicated eyes, so he would stop talking many times, so he would talk about the red trouser belt when I talked about it.

Because he likes me, feels guilty, and can't help it.

I don't know that after Xing Sisi fell out of love, he asked me, "Compare your heart to your heart, if someone cheats on you, will you forgive him?" When I got my default answer to that question, what kind of torment should I have in my heart?

I don't know how disappointed he was when he was injured in a basketball game, and he said "Are you leaving" with a faint expression.

I don't know how sad he would be when he looked at my back and took these photos without me knowing.

I don't think I'll ever know about this, the only thing I can spy on is the loss and sadness in the muttering that Wang Jiayi heard.

I sighed, presumably I didn't know how to put the envelope back.

I have to think about what to say to Sister Qingqing.

I folded the envelope and restored it to its original state, and put it in front of Sister Qingqing: "Sister, this is a Christmas gift from Xu Siyang, I may have to put it back, pretend not to know, and wait for him to give it to me." ”

Sister Qingqing sighed, obviously surprised, and apologetic: "That's it, that's really embarrassing." ”

I waved my hand, "It's okay. Even this matter has to be kept secret, otherwise he may hurt his self-esteem. ”

Sister Qingqing nodded: "This is natural." ”

I hummed and took the envelope back: "And that drawer is that?" ”

"The penultimate desk and the third drawer have a lot of materials on it, and they are very tightly hidden."

I smiled, "Got it, I'll be back to the way it was." ”

When I put the envelope in a complicated mood, I was always uneasy in my heart, but one thought gradually became clear - I really can't push it anymore, and I must make it clear to Xu Siyang as soon as possible.

But what to say? said that I saw the photos you washed out, I know that you like me, I know that you treat me as a stand-in for Wang Min, I know that you are afraid and I know that I don't forgive you, I know that you feel guilty about me, and I know that you don't want me to know this.

Or let's stop being friends. I can't afford to be so good to me.

Even if I knew I was going to hurt you no matter what.

At that moment, I finally understood that the older a person grows, the more difficult the choices he faces. If you're not careful, you make choices that you will regret for the rest of your life.

But even then, you have to choose.

There is no way back.

Just when I was thinking nonsense, Xu Siyang's message came: Before the game, he said that he would invite me to dinner, should he fulfill it?

I looked at the message and, somehow, couldn't help but laugh.

You see, what is supposed to come will always come.

I replied casually: Sunday hot pot, waiting for you at 7 o'clock.

When the time came, I went to Sunday in advance, chose a seat in the middle of the projection screen, and watched "Whose Youth Is Not Confused" starring Bai Jingting on the screen.

I quietly watched Lin Tianjiao and Gao Xiang fighting each other, laughing crookedly, and when I was laughing so much that tears were about to flow out, Xu Siyang arrived.

"What are you looking at? Laughing like a convulsion? ”

I smiled and pointed, "You haven't seen this movie?" When I was in my third year of high school, the teacher led the whole class to watch it, and the girls in the class at that time were all fans of Bai Jingting, and they were unhappy about their separation. ”

Xu Siyang glanced at it and nodded: "It's a little impressive." The male protagonist is really sincere to the female protagonist. ”

Noncommittal, I pushed the menu over: "Look what's to eat?" I heard that his family's fat cattle are good. ”

Xu Siyang hummed and took the menu: "Then the mandarin duck pot, tomato and spicy soup base." "Love

I nodded, indicating no objection.

When I ordered the food, the waiter quickly brought the bottom of the pot up and started the fire, and put the hot cola in front of me, my heart thumped again.

I lowered my head and took a sip to hide my inner turmoil. When I looked up into Xu Siyang's eyes again, I instinctively wanted to escape.

He looked at me steadily, the smile in his eyes faded, leaving only seriousness and hurt.

"What's wrong? Why are you looking at me like this? ”

I raised my head again and stared at him, plucked up the courage to call for beer, and before Xu Siyang's command was spoken, I poured a can without saying a word.

It wasn't until the cold and slightly bitter beer poured into my stomach that I swore to death: "Xu Siyang, I have something to tell you." ”

Xu Siyang hummed: "Say it." ”

I was in a deep breath and was about to make a showdown, but the words that came to my mouth changed to "I promised to tell you a story, so I will tell you a serious story today."

Xu Siyang hummed, still uneasy: "You don't have to be detailed, and you don't have to be reluctant." ”

I hummed, very frustrated, but I still started the opening statement seriously: "The matter between me and Jiang Yueze, it's a long story......"

I don't know how long it took to speak, but the waiter served the food back and forth several times, adding a soup base halfway, and there were more and more people in the store, and the people were boiling, as lively as the boiling pot bottom.

By the end of the talk, the people in the store had changed wave after wave, and the movie had reached its climax, Lin Tianjiao and Gao Xiang's relationship was getting deeper and deeper, and people couldn't help laughing.

"After that, it's time for college. You know all of this. ”

Xu Siyang listened quietly to the end, watched me say nothing, silently opened the second can of beer, and poured it into a fine water.

I looked at the meat that had stuck to the plate, silently lowered it all into the pot, and watched the bottom of the pot boil full of white foam, and my heart grumbled.

We were eerily silent, and after a long, long time, Xu Siyang seemed to digest what I said and looked at me seriously.

I was a little overwhelmed by him, and took the initiative to make up for myself: "I've told you everything now, but don't say that I'm not righteous and have something to hide from you." ”

He smiled helplessly, a little lonely, and a little embarrassed: "It's my fault, I apologize." ”

"Not really." I hurriedly waved my hand, scooped up the fat cow in the spicy pot and stuffed it in my mouth, but it was so spicy that my throat smoked.

He hurriedly poured me a cup of hot Coke, and I quickly poured a big sip before I felt a little better in my throat.

When my throat was comfortable, I waved generously: "Answer questions online tonight, I will tell you anything you want to ask." ”

He looked at me for a long time without speaking, his eyes were gentle, impassive, and his emotions were very light, but it was impossible to guess what he was thinking.

I didn't feel cramped anymore, I just stared at him, let him look, let him be silent, let him immerse myself in my own theater.

After a long time, he smiled, still the same smile he usually had for me, no worse than that. But the starlight in his eyes was much dimmer than usual.

He shook the beer can in his hand, drank it all, and finally spit out lightly: "No, I know everything I want to know." ”

I blinked, pursed my lips, and hummed faintly.

He laughed, his voice clear and clean: "In that case, then I should be honest with you too." If you want to ask me, I'll tell you. ”

I rubbed the cup, my heart began to tug, and it was a long time before I said uncertainly, "Is there something you are hiding from me?" ”

Xu Siyang's smile froze, so fast that he couldn't see clearly, but there was a hint of nervousness in his voice: "What do you mean?" ”

I stopped talking several times before I made up my mind to meet his eyes and slowly spoke: "On me, you can see the shadow of Senior Sister Wang Min back then, right?" ”

Xu Siyang's laughter instantly cooled, as if the boiling soup base was added by the waiter with bone broth, and there were no more waves.

And I, after seeing his expression, remorse and self-blame flooded all over my body.

After thinking about it for a long time, it still hurt people.

Fang Jinyu, you are really a pig.

I looked at him restlessly, trying to reorganize my language, but I was afraid that I would get darker and darker, so I simply shut up and stopped talking.

Xu Siyang was silent for a moment, slowly raised his head, and his voice was hoarse and sour: "You know? ”

I nodded hesitantly.

His expression was complicated, and he said in an astringent voice: "When did you know?" ”

I also find it difficult to speak out: "On the day of your birthday, I saw an old photo of Senior Sister Wang Min. I just, I know. ”

Xu Siyang nodded and hooked the corners of his lips slightly: "So that's the case." ”

I quietly watched him finish all the beers, and said silently: "I don't mean anything else, I just really want to know, how similar am I to Senior Sister Wang Min back then?" ”

He glanced at me slightly, with guilt, remorse, self-blame, and fear in his eyes, but his eyes were still sincere and clear: "It's similar, it's different." ”

His eyes spread slightly through me, and his voice was vague and seductive: "I have never really understood her mind, and you, warm and sincere, are much simpler than hers." The only thing you are like is that brightness and publicity. ”

"But that's it, she's not entirely on her own, either. The quality that attracted me, with her precisely calculated scale, and the filters she installed, made it impossible to see what it was. ”