Gradually, her voice grew louder, and her wails became more and more poignant and desperate, and the air seemed to feel her despair, unwillingness, and resentment: "But why, why is this happening!" Can anyone tell me ......"

I didn't know what to say, I just silently tightened my arms and hugged her tightly, as if that would make her warmer a little bit.

In the face of birth, old age, sickness and death, language is so worthless and powerless.

However, I can relate to her feelings. Because pain and suffering are interchangeable.

"Do you want to hear my story?" I heard my own hoarse and obscure voice ring: "A story about life, death and growth." ”

Shi Yu's sobbing gradually became quieter. I leaned her against my neck socket to give her a place to lean on.

"The beginning of the story is very similar to you." I spoke slowly, as if I had returned to those dark days: "It's just that the time is earlier than yours, in the winter of my senior year of high school." ”

Shi Yu didn't speak, and his body was still shaking. I stroked her arm, trying to give her some strength, looking at the stars in the sky and gently recounting my hard time.

At that time, the entire senior year of high school was in the midst of intense preparations, and the top students were eyeing the guaranteed slot, and I was no exception.

"I insist on getting up early every day, going back to the dormitory last, studying every minute, and striving to have a good result in the first monthly exam. If I am in the top five of the whole school, I will be eligible to compete for a guaranteed place. ”

Shi Yu hummed and cooperated with me: "And then? ”

"At this time, something happened in my family." My tone was waveless, and I didn't even have a superfluous expression: "I was suddenly notified to live on campus, but my parents didn't even show their faces, although I had doubts, I didn't think much about it until I came home from vacation." ”

Shi Yu was obviously attracted to this story, and asked, "Found something wrong?" ”

"Hmm." I replied, "The bedside table in my mother's bedroom was locked for the first time, and when I pried it open, I found a large stack of payment notices, tickets, medical records and medical certificates, my brother and my grandmother, two of them. ”

Shi Yu didn't speak, and the warm liquid dripped down my neck.

I gently wiped away her tears and continued: "Grandma has bone cancer, mid-term. My brother has more symptoms, submandibular adenitis, fluid accumulation in the lungs, and tumors, as for benign or malignant, further observation is needed. ”

Shi Yu silently shook my hand and said with difficulty: "At that time, you must have had a hard time. ”

I shook her hand back and smiled warmly at her, "Well, it's hard. ”

"During the preparation for the college entrance examination, you can't delay for a minute, not to mention that it is still a critical period for competing for guaranteed places."

Shi Yu hummed and asked lightly, "What happened later?" ”

"Later." I squinted my eyes and looked at the sky, and my voice was elongated and profound: "Because of too much psychological pressure, I lost a lot of money and lost my qualification from the beginning. ”

Shi Yu was stunned for a moment, and then said in a low voice: "You didn't give up, did you?" ”

"Hmm." My chest was tight, and I breathed out a better breath: "The teacher helped me fight for another chance, but because the answer sheet in English was wrong, only the results of the subjective part were left, and I still lost the qualification for the competition." ”

Shi Yu didn't expect it, and asked cautiously: "What about later?" ”

"I'm not reconciled, I'm so unwilling. So I have been holding back a lot of energy in my heart, waiting for the province's independent enrollment. Speaking of this, I couldn't help but smile bitterly: "But I didn't expect that at this time, my brother's condition was diagnosed, and it was actually lung cancer." My grades didn't improve a little bit and went down a lot. ”

"I finally got to the independent enrollment, but because I was in a trance, I didn't get the first certificate in the provincial taekwondo, the information was incomplete, and the results were unstable, so I was directly swept down."

Shi Yu tightened my hand.

I smiled and continued: "After that, I was sluggish and violent, but fortunately, although the arts and sciences were divided into classes, I was not in the same building as the boy I liked, but I could still see him occasionally, and at that time, I would always be in a better mood. ”

Shi Yu's tone was also quite distressed and relieved: "This can be regarded as a little comfort." And what about later? ”

I didn't answer immediately, I drank the beer in my hand, followed the teacher's movements, and threw the can into the trash.

After completing these, I said lightly: "I was rumored to be in early love with him, and a girl was not used to it, and scolded me for being shameless in the toilet, dragging that boy down, scolding me for being selfish and not considering the feelings of my family, and was beaten by me." ”

"That's it." I pointed to my orbital bone: "As soon as I punched it, her orbital bone cracked." ”

Shi Yu's brows furrowed when he heard this, and the hand holding me tightened again.

I laughed silently, shook my head, and signaled that it didn't matter: "From now on, I have practiced taekwondo for more than ten years, and I will no longer touch it." ”

Shi Yu didn't speak, and looked at me with teary eyes.

And my mind drifted back to those dark and difficult years.

At that time, no one thought that I would be caught when I was talking to Jiang Yueze, I squatted on the ground and cried, and he patted me on the back to comfort me, and somehow it became that Jiang Yueze hugged me and kissed.

For a while, the rumors of our early love were boiling throughout the third year of high school, many people looked at me with colored glasses, and talked about Jiang Yueze behind my back, sarcastically saying that he was a model for the whole school, which pushed me one step closer to collapse.

Adolescent girls are always jealous and comparative, watching me get too close to the pride of the whole school, naturally some high-spirited, the girl who has a crush on Jiang Yueze can't get used to it, and wants to fight for Jiang Yueze, alluding to me dragging Jiang Yueze, hot face and cold ass, and the words are ugly.

The women's toilet has always been a place where gossip gathers, and it is also an accident-prone area for fights and brawls. The girl who likes to go against me on weekdays broke out directly in the women's toilet after listening to the instigation of others.

That day, I couldn't hold back my depressed mood anymore, and I watched her sneering at me with scarlet eyes, extremely demeaning, until she mentioned Jiang Yueze, implying that Jiang Yueze didn't know people clearly, I didn't know shame, I was selfish, I only cared about my own love, and I didn't care about my family's good intentions, which completely became the fuse for my collapse and outbreak.

At this time, the most unpleasant thing for me to listen to is my family.

I slapped her glasses out and knocked her glasses away, followed by another punch that hit her eye sockets, and the whole person looked like a mad beast, with cracked teeth.

The women's toilet was instantly chaotic. There are those who don't think it's a big deal and want to teach me a lesson, and there are also some who use reproach, contempt, disgust and fear to silently crusade against me. At that time, I simply broke the jar and thought, I beat it all, just beat it all over.

I don't remember exactly what happened after that. I vaguely remember that Lu Zhixin and Gu Jiatong rushed over, covered me with a school uniform, and brought me back to class.

After that, ......, forget it, it's too much and too messy, don't want to.

Shi Yu's heart tightened when he heard this, he slowly raised his head, turned his head to look at me seriously: "How did the school deal with it?" ”

My thoughts were pulled back, and I opened a can of wine as if nothing happened, poured most of the bottle, and replied calmly: "Write an inspection, demerit punishment, and before the college entrance examination, you are not allowed to step into the school." But the boy I like can still be escorted. ”

I still haven't said how I got this result.

The girl who was beaten had a very good background, and as soon as her parents came, they directly put me and Jiang Yueze in early love, and after being stabbed, they became angry, so they angrily took out the nonsense and stabbed the principal. Ask the principal to expose it without giving a reasonable handling opinion.

The school is at a critical juncture in the ratings and doesn't want to go wrong. In the end, I had to grit my teeth and ruthlessly cancel Jiang Yueze's escort quota, and I was punished with school probation.

I felt so guilty that I cried in my uncle's office all day long, and my uncle also knew in front of the principal with emotion, tried to make my punishment less, and made a promise that I would not be promoted for three years, and the principal did not budge.

In the end, Jiang Yueze's teachers and I took turns to fight, which made the principal relieved and promised to retain Jiang Yueze's escort qualifications.

As for me, I need to compensate for all medical expenses, demerit punishment, write 10,000 words for examination, and I am not allowed to set foot in school before the college entrance examination. This is the best result that my uncle and teacher fought for me.

In this way, I evaporated overnight, and no one knew where I had gone except Lu Zhixin and my uncle.

Shi Yu's eyes were full of distress and compassion for the same disease, and he asked softly, "Then where did you go after that?" ”

I drank the rest of the wine and said softly, "Uncle's house." ”

"My dad is in another part of our school, and he is still the head teacher, so he can't take care of me, and I don't want him to worry. My mom took a long leave of absence to take care of my brother and my grandmother, and I was even more reluctant to let her worry about it again. ”

"They were hiding my brother and grandmother's illness for my college entrance examination, so they were afraid that it would affect me. Why should I waste a piece of their hard work? ”

Shi Yu nodded: "Well, you're right. ”

"The best thing to do is to stay at my uncle's house. The opposite door is the leader of the liberal arts and mathematics group, and upstairs is our geography teacher, and the questions are convenient. ”

Shi Yu breathed a sigh of relief and nodded: "This is also a good thing for you." ”

"I think so too." I opened another can of beer, touched it with Shi Yu, and took a big sip.

The wine was cold, and the whole person seemed to be much more sober and bright: "At that time, I was very calm and at ease, and when I was irritable, I copied the euphemistic words and copied the Book of Songs." I slowly accepted all the worst plans in my heart and was prepared. ”

"Fortunately, God is still not thin on me." My tone slowly became lighter: "When the Chinese New Year was approaching, my brother and grandmother were transferred to the hospital, and the condition was further confirmed, and it was found that my grandmother's condition was under control, and my brother had surgery for submandibular adenitis first, and he recovered very well, and after rediagnosis, it was found that it was not lung cancer, and the tumor was also benign." ”

Shi Yu glanced at me and seemed very happy for me: "You have been admitted to Chongwen, and my brother and grandmother are also recovering well." ”

"Hmm." I smiled softly, "My brother recovered in May of this year. My grandmother passed away in October last year. ”

Shi Yu was stunned for a moment, and the corners of his eyes were regret and grief.

I bent my eyes, and my throat was hoarse: "Listen to my mother, my grandmother left with a smile and was very calm. ”

I felt the wetness in the corners of my eyes, and hurriedly pressed it down with beer: "So Shiyu, when you reach the lowest point, God will always give you a hope." ”

Shi Yu's eyes lit up, and the tears in his eyes flickered.

"Be patient, be strong. Your prayers, Heaven and Auntie, will be heard. ”

"It's just going to be a little later."

Shi Yu nodded, held up the can, and smiled at me.

I laughed and clinked glasses with her in the can.

In the next second, both of them were dazzled.

After drinking the beer in his hand, Shi Yu's mood was much better, his eyes became firm, and he said to me: "Thank you, I will cheer up." ”

I smiled and looked puffy: "That's the best, don't cut open my wound to comfort you." ”

Shi Yu smiled heartily, his face full of gratitude: "Thank you, whale." ”

"You're welcome, let's go."

When Shi Yu and I walked to the bottom of the building, Jiang Yueze's message finally came.

Shi Yu was in a better mood and began to gossip: "Special concern? Who is it? It can't be Senior Brother Jiang, right? ”

I smiled and said calmly, "yes." ”

Shi Yu nodded clearly: "Then I'll go back first, and I'll get the things back for you." ”

"Is it convenient?" My eyes sparkled: "Then I'll trouble you." ”

"It's not troublesome, it's just a trivial matter, and you don't need to be too polite."

"Thank you," I thanked in a low voice, a little embarrassed, "I'm sorry to let you go back alone." ”

"It's okay." Shi Yu shrugged: "It's just right, let me calm down, it's good." ”