Returning home in search of incense
Today, Jiang Caiying brought a flower to the classroom, Luo Xue excitedly pulled Jiang Caiying and asked the name of the flower, I walked next to them and said lightly, "Hyacinth." "I looked out the window at the sky full of flowing clouds, and it was the season of raising flowers again, blooming, fluttering......
Luo Xue pulled me and asked, "Wu Yin, you boy, do you still know flowers?"
I didn't understand and said, "Can't boys know about flowers?"
"I always thought that only girls liked flowers." Luo Xue said.
"The boy who loves flowers is either a pseudo-mother or a riot." Luo Xue said seriously.
"Damn!" I gave her a chestnut on Luo Xue's head.
The memory of flowers must be a long time ago! The faint fragrance of flowers lingers in my heart, and the petals with the color of the sunset are my guide home.
"Luo Xue, I'll take you somewhere on the weekend." I secretly handed the small note to Luo Xue.
Luo Xue put down the pen, opened the note, looked at it for a while, and made an OK gesture to me. Then I threw back a note, and when I opened it, I was stupid. "Big brother is in class, it's troublesome!"
After school, Jiang Caiying stood stupidly at the back of the classroom.
I walked over and patted her on the shoulder and said, "It's over, what are you doing stupidly?" โ
"Wu Yin, do you think it will bloom white flowers?" Jiang Caiying asked.
I stared at the hyacinths on the counter, the ignorant greenery rendered by the golden glow of the setting sun, and my tears blurred......
"Maybe......" I said
"Wu Yin is gone!" Luo Xue urged at the door.
"Oh!" I replied.
I walked with my schoolbag and looked back to see Jiang Caiying still standing there blankly, with only pure expectation in her eyes.
How can you do what you want, but you want to be worthy of my heart?
"Isn't Cai Ying leaving?" Luo Xue asked.
"Hmm." I say.
Walking on the road, the sunset kisses goodbye to the distant sky, I love this dusk and ancient color.
"Wu Yin, where are we going on the weekend?" Luo Xue said.
"Go where I used to live." I say.
There, the secret words of childhood were sealed, and there, time stood still.
I made an appointment with Luo Xue to meet at the station, but I knew she would be late again, so I made an appointment to meet earlier.
"So early?" Luo Xue said.
"Huh?" I raised an eyebrow and said.
I returned home with the temperature and colors of the setting sun. Father sat on the balcony pruning potted plants. I walked over.
"Dad, give me the key to the house, I want to go back and see it on the weekend." I say.
The father stopped what he was doing, put down the scissors and stood up.
"You kid still haven't taken this seriously...... my father said by patting me on the shoulder.
He turned and walked towards the room, pulled open the drawer at the head of the bed, and pulled out a string of bronze keys.
My father came up to me and handed it to me and said, "Okay, clean up there for me, sweep away the dust of the past." โ
I looked at the rusty key in my hand and said, "Hmm. โ
"Mom, why do you put flowers in the rain? It's raining so hard outside?" I said anxiously.
"That's what it's supposed to endure." Mother said
"Won't the petals fall?" I say.
My mother bent down and touched my head and said, "When the petals fall, they go back to the dirt, and they go home." โ
"Why?" I asked, with wide eyes.
"Yin Yin, have you ever heard such a poem, 'Falling red is not a ruthless thing, turning into spring mud is more protective of flowers'" Mother said.
"I don't understand......" I said, pouting.
"Each of us has to go back to that original place, and passing away is actually another beginning." Mother said
"It's like if I'm not by Yin Yin's side one day, in fact, my mother just turns into a breeze around you, and becomes the sky you can see when you look up, and she's always with you." Mother said.
Hearing this, I was so frightened that I burst into tears, hugged my mother's leg and said, "Yin Yin doesn't want my mother to leave me!" โ
My mother comforted me at a loss, and the flowers in the rain had fallen their petals......
"Yes, everything here is the most beautiful scenery you have given me, so I am strong and strong in this huge and empty world alone." As I spoke, tears flowed.
One morning, I took the bag of seeds with me, gently closed the door, and left.
"Has Wu Yin arrived?" Luo Xue asked on the other end of the phone.
With bread in my mouth, I slurred my words and said, "You, you, wait, ...... right away Here it is, oh woo. โ
This stinky girl is usually always late for today's chicken blood, earlier than me.
"It's slow!" Luo Xue said
I don't know why, I want to knock Luo Xue on the head after hearing this. Depend on!
When I came to the station next to the seaside road, I saw this silly girl entertaining herself from a distance. Luo Xue was dressed in a white dress, holding the pillar with one hand and turning vigorously, her hair swaying with the sea breeze.
"Luo Xue!" I shouted as I ran.
Luo Xue turned around and said, "Hurry up!" โ
I yelled at one end of the road, "Oh! โ
The sea breeze carries our voices into the distance.
"Hahaha, this girl came really early today, and she was late." Luo Xue patted me panting and said.
"Okay...... Yes...... Count you ruthless! "I almost got out of breath.
The car stopped in front of us, "Let's go!" I took Luo Xue's hand and got into the car.
As soon as Luo Xue got in the car, she fished something in her bag, I understood it in seconds.
"Stop, stop, I have the card." I said hurriedly.
Luo Xue grabbed a coin in her hand and looked at me with a blank look, "Oh~"
"This girl is stupid sometimes, and I can't bear to bully her." I thought to myself.
We sat by the window, blowing in the morning sea breeze, and the sea in the distance was submerged in a blanket of white.
"Wu Yin, how long are we going to sit?" Luo Xue asked.
"Let's just get some sleep." I say.
"Oh (โoโ) Oh," Luo Xue said, turning her head and falling asleep.
"......" I looked at her, really speechless.
Luo Xue stretched out her hand and pinched my face and said, "Wu Yin, remember to call me"
"Oh, oh, uh-" I said.
Maybe having someone around who will wake her up will make her feel more at ease! I helped Luo Xue brush the hair off her eyes, what a stupid girl-
I remember that in that middle street where I was always lost, I seemed to have been to every place, so I was so anxious that I cried and ran around. "Huh? It smells so good. "I walked in search of the scent. The sunset is falling, paving the long road.
The mother stood at the door of the house and shouted anxiously, "Yin Yin, where are you?" โ
I ran to my mother, "Mom! โ
As the sun set, I was beaten up by my mother. My eyes were red with tears.
"Tell you to run around!" Mother said.
I said with tears in my eyes, "Mom, I want to eat~"
"Let's go!" My mother pulled me like I was fine.
I leaned my head against the window, and Luo Xue leaned against me. The crooked stop signs on the street are so familiar, there will always be cats and dogs lingering on the side of the road, and there will always be small advertisements on the telephone poles on the side of the road.
"I remember everything......" I whispered.
The scenery along the road is like flipping through the title page of time, as if you are back in your heart.
"Luo Xue, Luo Xue." I pushed Luo Xue's arm.
Luo Xue was still sleeping so deeply, so I reached out and pinched her face.
"Uh-huh-" Luo Xue was aggrieved and woken up by me.
Probably out of getting out of anger, she also pinched my face.
"Hmphโญ(โฏ^โฐ)โฎ!" Luo Xue said.
So the two of us got out of the car with half of our faces red.
I stood on the side of the old road and looked out, the sun was shining quietly on the street, and most of the houses on both sides were closed, and it seemed that there were not many people living here.
"It's so quiet here." Luo Xue said.
"There shouldn't be many people here!" I say
I looked up at the towering trees beside the road, the tiny rays of sunlight shining through the leaves like stars.
"Let's go." I took Luo Xue's hand and said.
"Let's go!" Luo Xue shouted excitedly.
The buildings on both sides were old, the murals on the walls were starting to peel off, and looking at the light through the eaves, I said, "Old friend, I'm back." โ
Luo Xue and I walked to an old house, where flowers and plants grew wantonly at the door, and the years carved the brick wall in front of us.
"What is this?" Luo Xue asked.
"Where I used to live." I say.
"But it's too shabby here." Luo Xue said.
"I can't help it, I haven't been back to take care of it for a long time." I say.
I pushed open the creaking door, and my hands were instantly covered in dust. The smell here is still so familiar, are you okay with the old house?
I took out the key and opened the door, and I was greeted by a familiar home. My eyes are red, I'm back.
"Luo Xue, let's clean up here today." I turned around and said.
"Hehe, this girl is the best at housework." Luo Xue said.
"Really virtuous~" I said.
"emmmm......" Luo Xue puffed out her mouth and froze.
I walked to the bathroom, and the woody smell of dust mixed with furniture told me everything about it. I struggled to turn on the faucet, and the "bang" of water flowed out.
"It's good to work." I say.
I put down my bag and took out all the cleaning supplies.
"Luo Xue!" I yelled into the room.
Luo Xue hurriedly ran down from upstairs, "What's the matter?" โ
I almost didn't laugh, Luo Xue had ash on her nose, like a stray cat. I reached out to help her wipe the dust off her nose.
"Hoods, gloves, masks, put on." I say.
"Ah, it's too troublesome~" Luo Xue said.
"It's going to get dirty," I said.
"I'm not afraid!" Luo Xue said.
"I'm afraid!" I say.
"Okay~" Luo Xue pouted in compromise.
We split up and cleaned up for a while. The living room, bathroom, and utility room on the first floor have been almost cleaned. I walked outside the courtyard, took off my mask, and took a deep breath.
"There are locust trees in the courtyard, and a hundred ghosts walk at night." Mother said with a grin.
"Ahh Ah~" I cried and ran around.
I looked at the locust tree, "Mom, this locust tree is still there, still ......"
"Wow, that's a mess." Luo Xue rushed in and said.
"Let's clean up." I say.
I walked to the wooden table under the tree, and I remember that my grandfather used to like to sleep under the tree in the courtyard, and he always lay on the wooden chair all afternoon. I often ask him, aren't you bored? He always said that when people are old, it is time to rest. So one afternoon, my grandfather fell asleep forever under this old locust tree, and I could always feel that my grandfather was always drinking tea under that tree......
I took a dustpan and slowly swept the fallen leaves in the garden.
"Luo Xue, don't sweep some leaves." I say
"Why?" Luo Xue said.
"It's nice to keep it." I say
I remember that my grandfather used to have this habit of cleaning the yard, and he would always say, "Respect these natural beauties." โ
Sweeping and sweeping, tears dripped from the leaves.
I put away the patio chairs and put them back in the locker, as if so many things had been sealed......
"Luo Xue, let's go to the second floor!" I say.
"Okay, okay, I've wanted to see your room." Luo Xue said.
โ=ใ ="I looked at Luo Xue
Pushing open the door of the room, the wind chimes on the door kept ringing.
"Wu Yin, your room is so special." Luo Xue said.
The walls of my room were painted with masterpieces from my childhood, plastered with posters that were popular at the time.
"What is this?" Luo Xue poked at the pendant on the bed.
"Music box." I say.
I took off the blue star-like music box, pulled the string open, and the box made a sound. It's like the twinkling stars in the sky, quiet and beautiful.
"When I was a child, I always had nightmares when I went to bed, and my mother hung this on the head of the bed, and I just listened to it to fall asleep." I say.
The crisp sound, like stars falling on my heart, one by one, I began to hum unconsciously.
"Wu Yin Wu Yin, what about this?" Luo Xue patted me and said.
"Paper stars that I folded myself when I was a child." I say.
"I wanted the stars to sleep with me, so I hung all the folded stars on the bed." I say.
"I can't believe that your room is so interesting." Luo Xue said.
"Ahh
"It's okay." I say.
"It's okay~ It's weird......" Luo Xue said.
I opened the old cardboard box, and it was a pile of old toys, and I remember that I left here that year, and I deliberately stayed here.
"Yin Yin has grown up, and he doesn't want toys anymore!" I said.
In fact, I can't help but laugh when I think about it now, those things that you thought were the least important at the beginning, you have to pick them up one by one in the end.
We take care of the room, and now I am in the room again, and I really miss this place, my childhood world.
I took Luo Xue into the room where my mother once lived, pushed open the door, and a piano covered with dust was set up alone.
"Wow (โoโ) Wow! Piano. Luo Xue exclaimed excitedly.
"Can you play?" I asked.
"No~" Luo Xue said.
I'm ashamed~ Then what are you excited about.
Luo Xue looked around and said, "This room is so warm!" โ
"My mother was a gentle person when she was alive, and the things she left behind also gave people warmth!" I say.
"I'm sorry, Wu Yin reminded you of something sad." Luo Xue said.
"It's okay, time has smoothed this out." I said, pointing to my chest.
I actually knew that after a long time, the wound would still ache faintly, and I was just numbed by the pain.
"Is that your mother?" Luo Xue pointed to the photo on the table and said.
I took off my mask, picked up the picture frame with tears in my eyes, and wiped the dust off it with my hands, my mother was smiling at me......
Mother, I miss you.
"She always laughs so softly." I choked.
"It's okay, Wu Yin." Luo Xue hugged me and said.
We wipe every object with a rag. I used to rarely go into my mother's room, and my mother always liked to read here, so I rarely disturbed her, and everything here bears traces of you......
I pulled open my mother's desk, and there was a black codebook in the drawer.
"What is this?" Luo Xue leaned over and asked.
"Mother's diary!" I say.
"Do you know the password?" Luo Xue asked.
I looked at the four-digit codebook and thought.
"It should be her birthday." I say.
Knowing the mother is not the son.
"0 8 2 0" I pressed the password.
The book is open. The handwriting in the book has been dry for a long time.
I flipped to the first page, dated July 4, 2003
"I am very pleased to send Yin Yin to kindergarten on the first day today, as a mother, I hope he can grow up well."
I continued to flip with trembling fingers.
"On Mother's Day, Yin Yin was covered in mud and held a cup and told me, Mom, this is the seed of a carnation, give it to you, I wanted to scold him well, but my heart softened at that moment."
My tears hit the notebook, and the clouds opened the handwriting.
"From the day he was born, I decided to give him all the love of my life!"
"Wu Yin, you have a mother who has always loved you." Luo Xue said.
"Mother, mother, woo." I leaned against the table and cried.
I once thought that if I had a sky full of stars, I wouldn't get lost, but without the seven Big Dippers above my head, all the stars were dying and powerless.
Towards noon, we finished cleaning the old house. I sat on the chair and helped Luo Xue tap on the shoulder.
"Wu Yin, I'm hungry!" Luo Xue said.
"Let's go eat!" I say.
"Let's go!" Luo Xue pulled me up from my chair.
"Wait." I say.
I pulled out my backpack, took out the seeds, and planted them in the open soil of the courtyard for a long time.
"In the coming year, look back and see the flowers." I say.
Luo Xue smiled and looked at my low-leaning figure. "Wu Yin, the silly boy should be happy all the time!"
I locked the door and dragged Luo Xue out into the street. "Xiao Yin!" A voice shouted.
I turned around, and a bearded old man rode over on a tricycle.
"Uncle Flower." I said with a smile.
"Xiao Yin, I haven't seen you for a long time, I miss me, now I'm tall and handsome!" Hua Bo said.
"This is? Girlfriend? Hua Bo asked.
"Uh-huh." Luo Xue nodded vigorously beside her.
"Hahaha, good boy!" Hua Bo scoffed.
I looked at the bonsai on the flower cart, the flowers. said, "Hua Bo, I want to ask you for something. โ
"Say it!" Hua Bo said briskly.
"Uncle Hua, can you help me take care of the flowers in front of this house every month?" I say.
"No problem!" Hua Bo said.
Hua Bo looked at the overgrown doorway and said, "But there are no flowers here!" โ
"I'll buy a few pots and put them at the door!" I say.
"No, no, Hua Bo will send you." Hua Bo said.
"No, no, no." I say.
Before he finished speaking, Hua Bo moved the spider plants and sunflowers from the car.
"Xiao Yin, after you move out, no one will buy my old man's flowers." Hua Bo turned his head and said.
"How is your mom?" Hua Bo asked while weeding.
I froze for a moment and said, "Oh, she's fine. โ
"That's good, then you can say hello to your mother for me." Hua Bo said.
"That's it!" Hua Bo removed the weeds at the door and put a new potted plant.
"Xiao Yin, my old man has nothing to rely on, you kid is like my grandson, after you leave, I rarely go to the street to sell flowers." Hua Bo said with a wry smile.
"I'm really worried that on the day I died, there was no one by my side." Hua Bo sighed.
"No, Faber." I say.
"I'll come back to see you often." I say.
"Oh yes, Uncle Flower, how are you doing?" I say.
"Hey, within a few years of you leaving, Peewee died." Hua Bo said.
"Dogs remember their old masters, they don't eat or drink all day, they just sit at the corner of the street and look into the distance, and they don't know what they're looking at." Hua Bo said.
"Probably waiting for me to come back and pick it up." I said with my head down.
"I buried it under the tree across the street from your house." Hua Bo said, pointing to the tree.
I walked under the tree, crouched down and said, "Pea, I'm back." โ
Little guy, I've been bitter for you, after so many years, do you remember me? Peeaceae.
"Wu Yin is fine." Luo Xue patted me on the back and said.
"Xiao Yin, I'll go first, remember to come back to see me often in the future!" Hua Bo said.
"Hmm." I say.
"Wait a minute." I carried the fallen bonsai on the ground to the car, and by the way, pressed a few hundred dollars under the flower pot.
Looking at the back of Hua Bo struggling to ride a tricycle. Life, you've really played the biggest joke on me!
"Snow, let's go eat!" I say.
"Hmm!" Luo Xue said.
So we walked through the old alley, and at the corner of the street, we found the noodle restaurant that we used to frequent.
"It's still on." I say.
"You know, the noodles here are pimple-in, but they taste very good!" I say.
"Really?" Luo Xue said.
"Xiao Yin!" The lady of the noodle shop shouted.
I waved at her, and she immediately rushed up and hugged me. Luo Xue on the side was stunned.
"Xiao Yin, I want to kill you!" Aunt Mian said.
"Woo." I struggled.
"What is this?" Aunt Noodle asked.
"Girlfriend." Luo Xue replied automatically.
"Oh, Xiao Yin really has a hand at deceiving girls!" Aunt Mian said.
Luo Xue is very happy, I am very helpless~
I looked at the empty shop. Aunt Mian said, "Hey, there aren't many people living here, and there are fewer and fewer guests." โ
Sunshine and Sea Breeze became the last customer of this store. Blowing into the empty storefront, the sun shines on the tabletop.
"Xiao Yin's old look?" Aunt Noodle said.
"Hmm!" I say.
"What about you, little girl?" Aunt Noodle asked.
"I want to eat three fresh noodles!" Luo Xue raised her hand and shouted.
"Okay, sit down and wait." Aunt Mian said.
I think this is the happiest time Auntie has made noodles in so many years.
We sat at the wooden table, and I remember that the paintings on the walls of Aunt Noodle's shop were all my masterpieces. Looking at the immature figures, I smiled.
"It's nice to be able to draw like a kid." I say.
"Bear kid!" Luo Xue said.
"......" I was speechless.
"The noodles are coming!"
Aunt Noodle brought two bowls of noodles, and I didn't even think about taking them.
"Wu Yin, what kind of face are you?" Luo Xue asked.
"Hot and sour noodles, this kid likes the taste." Aunt Mian said.
Luo Xue took chopsticks and stole a little from my bowl, "Hmm...... It tastes weird. โ
The indescribable taste is the best taste! I've thought so since I was a kid, and of course excludes what my dad burned.
We were happily eating noodles with Luo Xue, like two children who didn't know anything. Aunt Mian kept smiling and looking at us, her eyes full of love.
"Wow, this side is really twisted! But it tastes really good! Luo Xue praised.
"The noodles pulled out by Aunt Noodle have always been very special." I say.
"Hey, Xiao Yin, don't you know, I can only lie on the chair every day and bask in the sun, and I haven't made noodles for a long time." Aunt Noodle said.
"The street is so quiet, only the sound of the wind passing through the intersection." Aunt Noodle said.
People always know the past and know themselves well in the quiet moment, and everything becomes clear without words.
After we finished eating, we said goodbye to Aunt Noodle.
"Xiao Yin is waiting for me, I'll go get something." Aunt Noodle said.
After a while, Aunt Noodle hurriedly took out a bag of noodles from the store and gave it to me.
"No, it's not good!" I say.
"It's okay, Xiao Yin, you haven't come back for so long, so I'll give you a meeting gift from your aunt in person." Aunt Noodle said.
I smiled and said, "It's better to give them a fish than to give them a fish." โ
"Silly boy, I don't really have any recipe for noodles, and the key is to pull this noodle well." Aunt Noodle said.
"Hmm." I nodded.
We turned to leave, and when I looked back, I saw tears glistening in the wind from the corners of my aunt's eyes.
I stand at the end of the old street and look back, I hope that one day, I am still that young man, the door of the house is full of flowers, I carry a golden glow, looking for incense home. Farewell, Lao Cai.
On the way back, Luo Xue asked, "Wu Yin?" If you could go back in time, would you still be willing to live in the present? โ
I looked into Luo Xue's eyes and said, "Yes, because I know that those who have passed away want to see a better me in the future." โ