In the teacher's office, the head teacher was looking at me with a sad face.

"Long Xiaoxiao, you were complained by other teachers this afternoon, do you know? How can you openly oppose the teacher and skip class? ”

I kept my head down and didn't speak.

"Long Xiaoxiao, as soon as this semester started, your grades dropped a lot, what's going on? I heard, you're in love? Did this matter affect it? The school emphasizes all day long that you can't fall in love, you can't fall in love, it's just that you're afraid of delaying your studies. ”

The teacher's words made me feel sick and disgusted.

The head teacher then said: "I heard that your boyfriend is Liu Wei from the last senior year of high school, that school grass!" He's a top student, why didn't he teach you well? He himself went out to study abroad and made your grades drop like this. Are you abandoned, so you're in a bad mood? There are also classmates who see you openly hugging and hugging on the fourth floor, so the impact is very bad, after all, it's a school! Isn't it a bit ...... Shameless? Well, you see, if a girl doesn't have self-respect, it will be like this, and after being toyed with, she will be abandoned. Look at you, now this study ......"

"You don't talk nonsense, you are abandoned! If you don't know, don't talk nonsense, what does puppy love affect? Have you seen it? Or have you experienced it? How did you know that puppy love was affecting my studies? How do you know I'm not self-respecting? And on what basis do you evaluate other people's early love? I'm telling you, no! I'm not good at studying, and it's always been Xiao Ranzi who has been helping me! Now, Xiao Ranzi has left me, you tell me, how can I study with peace of mind? Do you think that as a teacher, you have the right to blame all your classmates and everything? I'm telling you, you're not qualified! ”

The head teacher looked at me, and an angry expression gradually appeared on his face: "Long Xiaoxiao, are you crazy? Do you want to be disciplined by the school? ”

"Okay, you punish me! You have this right, you can use it! But, I tell you, please respect the students. Students are also human beings, and not all early love is unbearable! Students also have dignity, it's not something you can insult casually! ”

With that, I turned around and went out. Such a teacher really makes me angry! I don't care if I will be punished or not, at this moment, I am rebellious, I have a ball of anger in my heart, and I have nowhere to vent.

It's dark, and the white snowflakes are still so conspicuous in the night sky. I stood on the first floor, which already had a thin layer of snow, looking at the sparkling snow flakes falling in the wind under the light, just like Xiao Ranzi gently telling me.

Who says snow is merciless? I said that it was all Xiao Ranzi's mind!

Stand in the snow and let the snowflakes fall and sprinkle all over your body. Xiao Ranzi, you love snow, will you become a snowflake to accompany me? Is the snowflake falling on me your answer to me? Xiao Ranzi, I really miss you......

Throughout the evening self-study, I stood in the snow, crying, tears could not flow, only silent crying remained.

The snowflakes fell on the clothes, melted, and slowly, the clothes got a little wet. I don't care, I just want to be here, feeling the closest distance to Xiao Ranzi.

"Xiaolong, it's out of school, let's go. You didn't go to self-study at night, and your deputy class leader made a note of your absenteeism, I just talked to him, and it finally made sense. Next time, don't be like this, let's go. "Chen Yingjie took my schoolbag and pulled my arm, I was like a soulless walking corpse, I would go whatever he did with me.

"Xiaolong, if you go back like this, if your family sees it, what can you do?"

I didn't say anything, but I thought to myself: I see it, I see it, from childhood to adulthood, I try to live as they like. Now that my best friend has died, don't I even have the right to be sad?

"Xiaolong, it's good that your dad isn't at home, but you can't let your mom see it, otherwise it's endless trouble. Why don't you just go back to the dorm later? ”

I nodded, my current mood is still to cause less trouble, so that I can miss Xiao Ranzi quietly.

In the dormitory, I'm glad I'm still alone.

Chen Yingjie helped me turn on the lights and close the curtains.

"Xiaolong, do you want to soak your feet in hot water? Can you sleep more comfortably? Chen Yingjie saw that I didn't react, took out my basin from the shelf behind the door, went out to fetch a basin of hot water, and came back.

I sat by the window and didn't want to move.

Chen Yingjie sighed, helped me take off my shoes and socks, and put my feet in the basin. My cold feet rushed up in an instant, as if to force the cold air out of my body. I shuddered for a moment before I could react.

"Alright, you can go, I'll do it myself." I looked at Chen Yingjie squatting on the ground, and my tears couldn't stop falling.

Chen Yingjie raised his head and glanced at me: "Xiaolong, you haven't eaten all day today, why don't you soak your feet first, and I'll go to the canteen opposite to buy you instant noodles, okay?" ”

I shook my head, "I can't eat it." ”

Chen Yingjie wiped my tears, "Xiaolong, you ate two bites of lunch at noon, and I counted them all." I know you're sad, and I don't advise you. But at night, you don't even eat a bite. What about tomorrow? Do you want your body anymore? ”

"Xiaolong, good, you wait here, I'll be back soon. Although instant noodles are not nutritious, at least you can eat enough to avoid fainting due to low blood sugar from hunger. I'll be right back, you just sit and don't move. ”

After Chen Yingjie finished speaking, he hurriedly ran out, and I listened to the sound of him running and disappeared outside.

He sat stunned and looked at the diary next to his pillow.

This is a gift from Xiao Ranzi on my birthday. Now, it has become an eternal memorial between us.

I turned the first page, and Xiao Ranzi's delicate and resolute font immediately came into view.

I cried and said, "Xiao Ranzi, I'm your Xiaoxiao, I'm ...... I always am. I am not only in this journal, I am in your heart, I am in your last thoughts, and you will always dwell in my heart. Xiao Ranzi, actually, at the beginning, I liked you a little. It's just that you didn't say anything, and Liu Wei started chasing me again, so, I gave up on you! Xiao Ranzi, I'm sorry, I'm sorry! It's my fault, it's all my fault. When I knew you liked me, I should have told you that I liked you too! But my vanity made me covet Liu Wei's reputation, and made me like the sense of superiority that was chased by the school! Xiao Ranzi, I'm sorry. If we were together from the beginning, I wouldn't have provoked Xu Qiuyun, and you wouldn't have left because of me. Xiao Ranzi, I'm sorry! ”

In one breath, I said the words that had been hidden in my heart for a long, long time! But what's the use? Xiao Ranzi can't hear it anymore, he can't hear it!

If I could have told him before he died that I had liked him, maybe he would have gone a little happier. Xiao Ranzi...... I regret it, I really regret it!

I really shouldn't have been greedy for vanity in the first place, so as to cause so many grievances and grievances in the future.

Xiao Ranzi, did you hear that? I'm telling you now, did you hear it in heaven?

I was wrong, I was really wrong!

Please forgive me...... Forgive me......

In this life, maybe I can't forget you, my guilt, my self-blame, my regret...... But who am I to ask for your forgiveness?

Xiao Ranzi, do you hear the voice in my heart?