The biggest mistake in my life was to meet that girl who seemed to be a monster in the mountains, and at first sight it made people sink and make me willing to go further and further down the wrong path.

I still remember that when I first arrived in Zhang's Mansion, someone led me to meet the student I was going to teach, the third lady of the Zhang family, Zhang Qining.

The bird's wing-like eaves are upturned, the pavilions and pavilions are scattered, you can lean on the fence to look at the moon, you can listen to the wind in the pavilion, you can fish in the pond, you can enjoy the flowers and taste the tea, you can enjoy the flowers, you can enjoy the tea, and you can enjoy yourself. A flower and a tree, a sand and a stone are all exquisite, and it is not unreasonable for the Zhang family to occupy this elegant word among the merchants.

The waiter who led the way said to me: "The third lady is colder and doesn't usually like to talk, but the gentleman is patient, and the rest is fine." ”

I nodded in understanding, and suddenly he stopped, a little confused. I saw him look in one direction and slightly twist his brow.

"What's wrong?" I looked in his direction and couldn't help but be stunned.

Ink-haired and snow-skinned, delicate eyebrows and eyes, and indifferent expression, like a little fairy child falling from the sky, sitting quietly on a rockery by the pool, the clear and waveless water reflected her and the oleander tree above her. Her eyes seem to be empty, combining flowers, birds, swimming fish, and still water in front of her to form a subtle, magical, and ethereal picture.

At this time, silence is better than sound, she obviously didn't say anything, but her unbearable loneliness quietly flowed from her fingertips with her action of stroking the flowers, drowning people.

I walked into the illusion as if I was fascinated by something, and the back road was crumbling little by little, but I was sinking deeper and deeper. I couldn't see anything else in my eyes but her, and I couldn't hear anything else in my ears except my own heartbeat.

She was immersed in her own world and emotions, and she didn't even notice that it affected others, but not everyone was willing to be influenced by her, so there was rejection and resistance. For example, this squire next to me. Although he didn't show it on his face, the evasive look in his eyes revealed the disgust in his heart.

"Mr. An, this is the third young lady."

He shouted a few times and the third miss did not get a response, he was a little embarrassed for a while, but he also got used to it, and said: "Third miss is like this, sir..."

I looked at the child named Zhang Qining, and I was inexplicably a little distressed, and I couldn't help but say: "Although the realm of flowers and birds is good, Miss might as well look elsewhere?" "Look elsewhere, don't just stay in the world that no one else can touch, try to accept others, look at others, look at... I.

When I had such an idea for a six-year-old, I woke up in the middle of the night, my back soaked in cold sweat. Panting for breath, still beating violently, my heartbeat that had not yet calmed down made me realize that it was not just a dream, but that I was really moving thoughts that I shouldn't have.

Although I am not a saint, I also claim to be a gentleman, how can I treat a child-

I couldn't help clenching my fists, got up and went to the courtyard to wake up with cold water, and when I came back and read another volume of sage sayings, my mind calmed down a little. Before dawn, lie down and rest.

Although it was the first day of class, my spirit was not very good, and I just kept telling myself to be a teacher and not to be delusional. entered the study like this, but I didn't want the third lady to have arrived earlier, so I sat by the window with my head up. Plantains, rockeries, and a clump of green bamboo in the distance, she didn't say a word, as if she was enjoying the quiet scenery outside the window.

I asked her a lot of questions, but she didn't respond. Just when I was a little distressed that my unintentional request was fulfilled, I was stunned. Then I continued to try and found that Miss San was a very obedient person, she just didn't listen to nonsense. In addition, she doesn't make trouble in class and completes her homework seriously, so she is really a good student from a teacher's point of view.

It seems that because the third lady died soon after she was born, and her father, sister, and brother were not very close to her, so the attitude of those subordinates of the Zhang family was a little respectful of her.

At first, it was only because Zhang Qining didn't talk much, or was concentrating on one thing, and often couldn't hear what others were saying, so he would help her make decisions. But those things are actually some small things that don't matter, even if he meddles, it doesn't matter.

But gradually, he became a little addicted to helping her make decisions, as if he was showing off to others how different he was from her, and that he was closer to her than others.

I'm afraid I'm very sick.

Even female students sometimes have to ask for extra clothes, and even I feel a little too much to take care of this. Shouldn't I be glad I have a face of integrity?

When there is no one around, I can't help but laugh at myself. I am twenty-two years old this year, and the third lady is only six years old. Looking at it this way, no matter how much I think about it, I'm afraid it won't be accepted by the world, but I can wait.

In another ten years, the third lady will be sixteen years old, and I will be thirty-two years old, even if the age is so much worse, but in the end, it will not make people gossip, and the sense of betrayal in my heart will be reduced. With my current family background, asking to marry Miss Zhang's family is really a fool's dream, if you can, I hope to come to Zhang's family again after high school.

After living for more than 20 years, I have never thought anything wrong about other children, and I think I am serious. Even if the Zhang family doesn't agree, I'll give it a try. Now, the third miss is still young, so let's hide these thoughts first.

I thought about it this way, but I didn't expect that one day it would be exposed because of a shuttlecock.

It was a completely subconscious reaction, and before he thought about it, his body moved first and protected the third lady in front of him. It doesn't hurt in the first place, after all, the other party is just a child, and no one will think much if the adults are nervous. But because of my stunned gaze and the leakage of feelings for a moment, the third lady noticed something.

The child was extremely intelligent and had a keen senses, and at once caught the last thing I wanted her to touch. Because the other party is young, I don't think she understands what is a matter of men and women, so I keep my distance from her and reach out to let her slowly get closer to me. But I was wrong, Miss Three was much more decisive and perceptive than I thought.

Even if she didn't understand what it was, she realized that I wasn't pure with her, especially when I saw her turn around, my eyes unconsciously showed coldness.

I wasn't that kind of person before, but because of her, I'm becoming a little different from my original self. Probably she noticed my paranoia first, which is why she turned around so quickly and avoided me so thoroughly.

When a trace of unwillingness comes to my heart, the initial amazement and liking may have deteriorated. Seeing her getting farther and farther away from me, I just wanted to reach out and get her back.

I really feel the alienation of the third lady, but as long as I am still the closest person to her in the eyes of others, I don't care about my petty nature now. But seeing her sitting on the swing with a bow ball in her hand, soaking up the sun, and the corners of her mouth rising to reveal a gentle smile that I didn't know, the long-precipitated paranoia turned into malice for the first time.

I saw the shock in Master Zhang's eyes, and a trace of revenge surged in my heart, as if a fierce beast ran out of my body, shouting to do something to the third lady and take her for myself.

But I really like her, I like her delicate appearance, I like her lonely soul, I like her helplessness, and I want to be her dependent. I didn't want to hurt her, and as the desire gradually ignited in my heart, I was also suppressing it. I wanted her, but I didn't want it that way, I didn't want irreparable consequences.

But the physical pain and the third lady's uncooperation made me more and more uncomfortable, and if I wavered at all, I would definitely do terrible things to her. So I leaned on her and said in a pleading tone, "Miss, I don't want to hurt you, but I can't control myself... Be nice, okay? ”

When these words are spoken, all the futures, gentlemen, and worldly views are gone, and what are those to me? Could it be that after today, do I still expect the third lady to take a fancy to me?

At this moment, the second young master of the Zhang family kicked in the door and swung his fist at me menacingly, scolding the beast in his mouth.

… Brute? But it's not, from the moment I moved the mind that shouldn't be moved to the third lady, from the time I wanted to take advantage of the danger of others, I wasn't just a beast in human skin. It's a pity that in the end, I still didn't succeed...

The punches and kicks that landed on me gradually made me numb, and I was fine a year ago, and I couldn't figure out why I ended up in this field. If I hadn't met her, I would have either stepped into the official career, or returned to the countryside, or had a beautiful wife in my arms, full of children and grandchildren, or alone, at ease... Which one is not stronger than it is now?

"Call the doctor, call the doctor! Just go! Anin? Anin? ”

Hearing Zhang Tingyu's exclamation, I slowly opened my eyes, and saw Zhang Qining, who had passed out after being picked up by him, through the cracks in my eyes.

“… Small... Miss..."I stretched out my hand to her, but was kicked away by the person brought by Zhang Tingyu. The internal organs seem to be broken, and just moving it makes people feel painful as death. But I still didn't give up, and the initial obsession in my brain turned into paranoia became my only one, "Miss... Miss... I was wrong, I'm sorry... I..."

"Get the fuck out of here!" Zhang Tingyu rushed out and yelled and kicked me aside.

A year ago, I walked into Zhang's house because of the third lady, and a year later, I was dragged out by the Zhang family because of the third lady. In this way, there is a beginning and an end.

"Ha, hahaha, hahaha!"

I burst out laughing, and the people of the Zhang family thought I was crazy, so they gagged me with a cloth, transported me out of the city, and left me in a place, where they guarded me for several days. I was sure I wouldn't survive, so I left.

There are some people in this world who are your calamity, and all the good things she makes you see are here to harm you. When you meet such a person, you can't escape from her, she is like an addictive poppy that will destroy you unconsciously. You can't escape, you can't break free, and probably as long as you see that person, you won't want to let go. This is a terrifying obsession, the body can't help itself, the heart... I can't help myself.

"Sir, sir... Mr. Ann! ”

The girl's voice sounded in my ears, I slowly opened my eyes, and a somewhat familiar face appeared in front of me, and I couldn't remember who it was for a while, only to see that she was wearing the clothes of the Zhang family.

I moved my lips, but I didn't have the strength to speak.

I saw Zhao Qianqian crying urgently, "Sir, Mr. An!" Mr. Ann, sir! ”

But fortunately, Zhao Qianqian is not a delicate lady, so she helped An Yuanxi alone and slowly dragged him to a nearby cave.

She followed those people from a distance, and it seemed that they had found her and thrown her away, and she had only found Mr. An and them yesterday. After finding it, she didn't dare to come closer, but only glanced at it from a distance, found this cave where she could live nearby, and went back to buy medicine and some food and put it there, thinking that even if there was only a slight possibility, when those people were gone, she would go and save her husband.

An Yuanxi was taken to the cave by her in a daze, he was all wounded by fists and feet, and it looked like it was caused by a fight with someone, Zhao Qianqian breathed a sigh of relief. She thought that it was just external injuries that were not fatal, but she didn't know that these secret sentinels were specially trained, and the places where they started were all internal injuries. However, they won't live for a moment, which is why they are relieved to go.

offended the third lady, the eldest lady would not let him go.

Zhao Qianqian was just about to help An Yuanxi with medicine, but An Yuanxi raised her hand to stop her.

"Sir?"

"No need..."He still knows how long he can live, so he won't bother others.

"There's Miss Lao, are you...?"

Zhao Qianqian: "Sir, I don't remember." Earlier in the backyard, you borrowed money, I haven't paid it back yet, you... Remember? ”

Yes... Was it for Miss to block the shuttlecock that time?

"Then the girl doesn't have to pay it back, she should thank the girl for giving An a place to bury her bones in the end, and she doesn't have to expose her corpses to the wilderness."

"It's not good for Mr. to say that, I must pay back the money, and please live well."

I just hooked my lips and didn't say anything. It should have been a few days since I left Zhang's house, and after a while, I asked, "Third Miss... How's it going? ”

I remember when I finally left Zhang's house, Zhang Tingyu said that she seemed to have a high fever. Witnessing her father's suicide and being forcibly taken away by him, she was scared when she saw that ugly look, and there was nothing she could do if she had a fever.

"How is she now?"

Zhao Qianqian was stunned, her hand shrunk into her sleeve and slowly clenched, resentment and unwillingness flashed in her eyes.

It's all at this time, why do you only care about that child, according to the people in the house, her wife died soon after she was born, and now the lord is also dead, and his mother killed his father... The eyes of people are still cold. Now Mr. An is so seriously injured. None of this would have happened without her!

What is there about such a person? What is there to care about Mr. Ahn? It's just that he has a good skin and a good family background.

“… Girl? ”

Zhao Qianqian gathered the look in her eyes, raised her eyes and said as usual: "I heard that the fever has subsided." ”

"Yes. That's good—" I breathed a sigh of relief.

I've thought a lot these days, wrong, indeed.

However, it's not that I'm wrong that I like Miss, but that I wanted to take Miss for myself, my malice towards Miss's father who can't be saved, and my evil thoughts about the helpless Miss. If you keep your distance, you will wait for 10 years as originally thought, and you may not know.

I know that even now I am still delusional, and the young lady obviously didn't like me from the beginning. I've just been pretending it's okay and making a fool of myself.

"Sir?" Seeing that the light in An Yuanxi's eyes gradually dissipated, Zhao Qianqian couldn't help but speak nervously. Seeing his mouth move, she leaned closer to listen.

"Miss, miss, miss..."

Until the last breath, An Yuanxi's mouth was full of Zhang Qining. Zhao Qianqian, who was sitting in prison, sneered, leaned her back against the wall and remembered the old things many years ago, and slowly hugged her body. Buried in the dampness of his eyes, he muttered in a low voice, "That's why I hate you." ”

It's just that I don't know if she, you, is referring to Zhang Qining or An Yuanxi.