Thousands of thoughts, chaotic interweaving in the brain, everything, is in a trance.

In the evening, Chen Yingjie saw that I did not have a fever and my mental state was better, and told me to take medicine on time and go home. I told him to go back, and it didn't serve him to stay here, it would only make him tired in vain.

I slept almost all day, and now I can't sleep, leaning back in bed and looking at the clock on the wall, nine-ten. I got up, pulled up the curtain from Chen Yingjie, and opened it again. I want to look out the window at the scenery and feel like my heart is not empty.

I took out the two notebooks that Xiao Ranzi gave me, and the beautiful font jumped on the paper. His words, like his people, are shy, but there is a stubbornness in their bones.

Who will write poems for me from now on? Who would give such an old-fashioned notebook on my birthday? Who will urge me to record the bits and pieces of my life?

Thinking of this, I picked up the pen and wrote all my thoughts about Xiao Ranzi on paper. Here, I record all the good things that happened between us. Those moments, from that time when it snowed and I fell into a ditch, have been written until now. In one breath, there is no stop. When I finished writing, I felt that the breath in my heart had finally been smoothed. Let these words keep Xiao Ranzi forever.

I wrapped my notebook neatly in a silk scarf and hid it in the back of my box. It's like I'm going to hide this thought in the deepest part of my heart.

Everything was packed, and it was already half past two in the middle of the night.

I followed Chen Yingjie's request and took the medicine again. Although basically I don't feel any discomfort anymore, Chen Yingjie said to consolidate it. Tomorrow morning, I want to go to school, and taking medicine can prevent me from feeling sick again.

Lying in bed, sleepiness gradually set in. I turned off the lights and took a look at the scenery outside the window. The wind and snow are shaky, and it is almost melancholy.

In the morning, I was woken up by Chen Yingjie, who came in directly with the key and stood next to my bed. A big face was facing me, and the moment I opened my eyes, I was startled by him.

"What time is it?"

"Six-ten."

"Why so early?"

"Well, look at what you want to eat, I'll go to the cafeteria and buy it. How do you feel, Xiaolong, are you better? ”

I nodded, "yes, okay." ”

"Then I'm going to buy breakfast, steamed porridge? Or pancake fruit? ”

"I want to eat shrimp buns......"

"Shrimp buns? We don't have a cafeteria, so if you want to eat, you have to buy it from the bun shop in front of you. ”

"Hmm."

"Okay, you wait a little longer, I'll be back soon."

Chen Yingjie put down his schoolbag and ran out. Actually, I didn't really want to eat that bun, but I remembered the scene when Xiao Ranzi brought me buns before. There are a lot of people in that house, and I have to wait a long time every time. Xiao Ranzi deliberately went to line up in the morning, just for my favorite shrimp buns. Now, that store has several branches nearby, so there is no need to wait in line. But there is no Xiao Ranzi to help me buy steamed buns anymore......

I got up slowly, packed myself and my room, and waited for Chen Yingjie to come back. I was a little reluctant to go, and in order to satisfy my concern, I let him run so far, and I regretted it a little, feeling that I was too selfish.

I boiled a new pot of boiling water, took out two cans of milk tea from the cabinet, looked at the time, almost, when he was about to come back, I brewed two cups of milk tea, left one for Chen Yingjie, and drank one by myself.

Sure enough, Chen Yingjie came in soon, and he panted and handed me the bun in his hand: "Xiaolong, eat quickly, it's still hot!" ”

I took it, opened it and looked at it, and there were five of them. I handed him one and pointed to the milk tea, Chen Yingjie sat on the empty bed, picked up the bun, and took a big bite.

"Well, Xiaolong, don't say it, the shrimp buns in this house are really delicious, this trip is worth it."

I looked at Chen Yingjie like this, and I couldn't bear it, did I treat him too much? Never treated him as an outsider, that's why he was unscrupulous?

"Yingjie, thank you! Now I'm by my side, only you are with me. ”

"Xiaolong, you only know that my brother is good, my brother will never change his heart for you."

"It's really a dog can't spit ivory out of his mouth, and I feel guilty for you in vain! Cut~"

I ate two steamed buns, and Chen Yingjie ate three.

I said to Xiao Ranzi in my heart: Xiao Ranzi, this bun is not as fragrant as you bought. But Yingjie worked hard, he bought it for me instead of you, but I couldn't taste the taste you bought.

The snow outside has been frozen and a little hard, and the crunch sound when stepping on it is particularly harsh. I used to love this kind of sound the most, it sounded very enjoyable, but today, I can't like it at all. It was like a devil tearing at my heart.

I walked around the thick snow and headed out for the main road.

"Huh? Xiaolong, where are you going? Aren't you the most fond of stepping on snow? ”

Chen Yingjie followed behind me and chased after me: "Xiaolong, it's easy to slip when you walk here, wait a minute and fall, you be careful." ”

I glanced at him and nodded. Looking at the third lamppost in front, the relationship between me and Xiao Ranzi is here, and it has changed. From here, we got closer to each other.

The pit I fell into had long since been filled, and now, there was not even a trace of it, as if it had never happened.

"Xiaolong, what are you thinking, why are you standing here in a daze?"

"Oh...... No, I just remembered something. ”

"Xiaolong, tell me, do you think of Xiao Ran again?"

I didn't answer, and looked ahead.

"Xiaolong, I know that I feel sad in my heart, and I know that Xiao Ran was very good to you at that time. But you can't always do that, can you? There's a lot more important stuff waiting for you. Alas, I am a little envious of Xiao Ran, I can get such a deep nostalgia from you. ”

"What nonsense you said, Xiao Ranzi is gone, you're okay! I'm not in the mood to make such a joke right now, and I'm not allowed to make such a joke to anyone around me from now on. Did you hear that? Chen Yingjie! I spoke to him very seriously and forcefully, and he was a little overwhelmed.

"Xiaolong, I'm sorry, I didn't mean that, I just, just wanted to amuse you."

"Alas, it's me who should say I'm sorry. Yingjie, I'm in a bad mood myself, but I'm angry at you, it's me who is wrong, I'm sorry. With that, I went straight to school. Tears, unconsciously, flowed down the corners of his eyes.

I can't remember how many times I've cried, how many tears I've shed. But the guilt I felt for Xiao Ranzi in my heart continued unabated. If I could turn back time, I really wouldn't say goodbye to Xiao Ranzi so easily, I must cherish every day I spend with him.

"Xiaolong, don't cry, crying outside in such a cold will hurt your face." Chen Yingjie stopped me and wiped the tears from my face.

"Xiaolong, you must know that no matter where Xiao Ranzi is, alive or gone, he wants you to be happy. You have to cheer up, so you don't disappoint him, don't you? ”

I understand the truth, but I can't do it.

It occurred to me that I was just so sad to lose my best friend. What about Liu Wei? What a despair he must have felt when he lost his brother and his father!