I was outside the door, holding the invitation to the little birthday banquet of Yongjun's little ghost, and I had not entered for more than an hour

The maid next to me asked many times, wanting to invite me into the house to stir up the excitement together, but she didn't know that the excitement was not so noisy to my ears

I thought I had learned to be relieved, but now I realize that I have been running away, and when I am really separated from you by a wall, I still don't have the courage to go in and say congratulations

Because of you, I have worn out my edge and faded away from my domineering

pretended not to care, but I knew that I was so fragile when I was alone, and every laugh and tear you made was seared in my heart and lingered forever

They all turned to leave, but the laughter behind them still couldn't get rid of it

Obviously, there are so many voices inside, and there are so many people inside, but I can still hear your gentle voice sounding, saying: I'll help you roll up your sleeves, and you're going to dip in the soup

Your voice seemed to be soaked in water, your heart throbbed, and you died quickly, after all, you didn't say it to me, but another man you loved

Yu'er, do you know, the night I plucked a pear blossom, my hands were so shaking, imagining that you should look good and laugh when you see the flowers, obviously you have learned light skills for so many years, but you fell from the tree five times, and your mind was full of you, but the next day you dropped the flowers to the ground

Yu'er, when I explained the truth to you, my palms and foreheads were sweaty, I gave you a reason to go, but I was about to beg you to stay, did you turn around and leave for that man, do you know, as soon as you walked out of sight, I knelt on the ground, and the first time I Wang Yitian knelt down was your back

Yu'er, when you returned to the palace, I sold all my family property just to buy Yin Fengze's whereabouts, because I knew that you were going to find his younger brother for Jun Wuyi, and the drawing you took in your hand was not drawn by Su Xiaose, but I drew and asked him to send it to you

Yu'er, in fact, I and Xiao Wuzi went to find Yin Fengze all the way, I have always followed behind, afraid that you will be found riding a horse, they are all running all the way on the tree, have you seen the leaves floating, have you often heard the sound of swishing, I was looking at you at that time, even if Yin Fengze didn't rush out to save you, I would help you get rid of that bastard

I want to forget these things that you don't even know

If I forget, will I be able to live a stable life as relieved as you?

When I want to see you, I can't see you, and when I don't want to see you, you visit me in my dreams every night, especially when I'm drunk, I can see you coming towards me, holding my wrist and reproaching: Don't drink But, Yu'er, I don't drink, how can I numb my brain......

You haven't seen me before, when I was in the Haoyue Gang, I had blood on the knife edge, scratched the edge of the sword, swung the knife to take people's lives, the smell of blood on the trouser legs could be smelled even if it was a mile away, and two other people's blood was dragged out of the road I walked

However, when I met you, everything changed, and when you hid me under the quilt and smelled the smell of that strange woman on you, my heart beat violently, and I thought, I'm finished

I didn't lose to the enemy, I lost to a woman I accidentally fell in love with

I have no father or mother, I have been on the mountain since I was a child, my master accepted me as an apprentice, placed my sister, taught me kung fu, provided me with food and shelter, I helped him kill people, and never disobeyed at all

And for you, I broke the master's circle and went down the boundary, carried you on the horse, and when you jumped into Jun Wuyao's arms, I was being whipped from the master's door, and the whips hit the vital point, and blood burst out

The master said, "For the sake of a woman, you dare to resist even the order of the teacher!"

The master said, "You also know that if you were expelled from the master and received this whipping, you will only have three years left in your life

Master said, "Evil obstacles! Do you want to depreciate yourself for that other woman?!

I only replied with one sentence of blood, yes

When they were gone, and I fell to the ground scarred, I thought you would come to my rescue, I thought you would thank me, I thought it would be your hand that helped me wipe the blood away

But no, when the blood was about to run dry, you still didn't come, and you went home with the man

The scars on the body are so heavy, but the scars on the heart are even heavier

Daimo forced you to come back and stay with me for three years, and you came and lived in the home I had arranged for a long time

I thought it was a life of two people, but you came with a big belly, and soon gave birth to that noisy little boy, I asked you what your name was, you said it was Yongjun, I asked you who it was, and you said what you wanted

But do you know that one night, as I passed by your house, I heard you crying and muttering while you were asleep, "I gave birth to our son, and you have chosen the name Yongjun......

Master is dead, the spell is broken, and Yangshou is back to its original length, but I am reluctant to let you go

In fact, pretending to be a patient is very uncomfortable, and fake death is even more uncomfortable

I thought you mistakenly thought that I would cry when I died, even if it was out of sympathy, it was good to cry twice, or to have red circles under my eyes, but I stood outside the door and watched you for three days, and you didn't shed a single tear, nor did you feel the slightest sadness, and as soon as the man came, you left mercilessly

Yu'er, sometimes you are really ruthless

That's when I realized that it wasn't fake death, and I felt like I was really dead

After changing my identity, I wanted to live my own life, but when I saw that you were down, I saw that you needed help, so I still returned to you, using someone else's name, and at first I didn't admit that it was me, because I wanted to turn around and leave at any time

But in the end, he still said that it was himself, and he couldn't leave, and he fell again

The pear tree in the courtyard that had been with me for three years no longer bloomed, as if I also felt my feelings, and this tree was really human

I still didn't think about where I would go in the future, and maybe I would always be on all sides

At the end of the world, I can finally find a place without you, although I still have you in my mind every time I close my eyes