Chapter 44: Awakening
This night, Liu Wei and I sat by the window and talked about the future, life, and life. I realized that under his high fighting spirit, there was a heart that longed for peace.
The future he hopes for is a peaceful pastoral life. He wanted to be able to be with his wife, whoever it was, and of course, he expected it to be me. He said such things so bluntly that I didn't think there was anything wrong with what he said, but I agreed with it. Yes, who can make a decision now?
He hopes that he will have a son and a daughter, and that the son will inherit the family business, and the daughter will be spoiled by heaven.
He was busy during the day and returned to his home at night. The home doesn't have to be too big, just like the villa now. Carve out a small plot of land in the yard that can be used to grow vegetables. Dig a small pond next to it and raise a few fish.
When I was on vacation, I accompanied my wife to water flowers, plant vegetables, watch TV, and tell stories.
And then that's it, plain, slowly growing old together.
What a romantic setting, I also yearn for it.
It's not a big house alone! Oh my god, it's an unimaginable luxury. How could I not want it, haha. I laughed to myself, how could I still have such shameless thoughts at such a beautiful moment? Am I no longer pure? Woooooooo
I looked at Liu Wei's face showing a vision for the future, unlike the time in Hainan, his face was disgusted with the future. I don't know where the motivation for his vision came from, but in the end, it's good. It shows that there is hope in his heart. As long as there is hope, people will not allow themselves to fall.
"Liu Wei, are you still sad? Will you still be saddened by your father's departure? ”
"Yes, of course I'm sad, he left me, and there will be no one to pave the way for me and make choices for me in the future. Everything is on your own. However, my sadness will not allow myself to be decadent again. Even if I can't find the truth about my father's death, I won't let him down. The all-night long talk he had with me before he left will never be forgotten in my life. ”
"Hmm......" At this time, I didn't know what words of encouragement to say, so I could only lean on him and feel his heartbeat.
"Xiaoxiao, go to sleep, it's late." His gentle voice made it impossible for me to refuse.
That night, he slept on the couch next to his bed. He said he didn't want to leave, didn't want to be too far away from me.
I looked at him, who was already tired, and as soon as he fell on the sofa, he instantly fell asleep with even breathing, and I felt distressed that I helped him cover the thin quilt.
The temperature of the central air conditioner is comfortable and cool, and in such an environment, we are like flowers in a greenhouse. In the past, I felt that my life experience was already very bumpy, but after meeting Li Jie and getting to know her, I found that Li Jie's life was more unfortunate than mine.
Later, when I learned that Liu Wei, a glamorous person on the surface, actually had a lot of helplessness behind him, I actually felt that I was happy.
This school bully, who is dominating in school, is such a sad one.
I seem to hear Liu Wei's inner shout: The wind is sluggish and the water is cold, and the strong man will never return once he is gone.
At this moment, Liu Wei sleeps peacefully and sleeps peacefully. I smiled with relief, slipped into the covers, and slept.
In the middle of the night, I was sleeping soundly, and suddenly Liu Wei shouted: Don't go. Woke up.
I quickly squinted and saw that he was already sitting on the sofa, with large beads of sweat on his forehead under the reflection of the lamp in the distance.
He sat there stunned, expressionless, his eyes were straight, I quickly got off the bed, walked to him, and called softly: "Liu Wei, what's wrong with you?" Got a nightmare? ”
He paused for a long time before he raised his head, glanced at me, then pulled me to sit down, hugged me tightly, and said, "Don't go, don't go, you can't go." ”
I was silent, I didn't know what he dreamed about, but it must have been a pain in his heart.
"Don't go, I beg you, I only have you now."
Is he talking to me? Is it me?
I replied softly, confused, "I'm not leaving...... I don't go, I'll always be there for you as long as you need me. ”
"Xiaoxiao, I dreamed that everyone around me left me one by one. I didn't catch any of them, I couldn't catch them. My brother, my father, Zou Honggang, Lin Yanran, and you...... You're all gone, leaving me alone in the empty room, I'm scared, Xiaoxiao, hug me, I'm scared. ”
I stretched out my arms and hugged the fragile big boy. What had happened to him that made him so afraid?
"Liu Wei, don't be afraid, I'm here. Although your brother and father are gone, you still have your mother and me? Zou Honggang will not leave you, and Sister Yanran, we are all here. ”
"Xiaoxiao, you know what? That wasn't my mom at all, I was my dad and the other woman's child. ”
"What ?!!" Oh my God, don't blow that too hard...... Why did Liu Wei's family come out one after another! It's such a big deal, it's just too unexpected.
When Liu Wei was a child, he knew his origin from his parents who were dark and noisy all day long. Although he was only three or four years old at that time, although he didn't understand the meaning of those words at that time, those sentences had long been imprinted in his mind. As he grew up, he finally understood the reason why his parents were noisy all day long. I also understand why every time I quarrel, my mother points to me and argues with my father.
Mom doesn't love him, and Dad is also annoyed by his mother because he quarrels with him all day long, and only his brother treats him well. Therefore, he is rebellious, he is indifferent, and he does not study well, all of which are his disappointment in that family. He didn't understand, even if he was his father's illegitimate child, but what was wrong with him? He was also innocent.
He used to be well-behaved, but he didn't get anyone's attention. So, he simply went completely bad! In this way, at least Dad will still beat him, scold him, and pay attention to him.
It wasn't until his brother was gone that his father pinned all his hopes on him. And he, for the sake of his brother, lived up to his father.
Listening to Liu Wei's story, my tears couldn't stop flowing. This once glamorous appearance turned out to be so pale......
Liu Wei gently wiped away my tears, "Xiaoxiao, don't be sad." Actually, I'm not the good guy you've ever seen, and my past is full of filth and spit. If you knew, you'd hate me. Therefore, I once wanted to hide my relationship with Xu Qiuyun. It's all because I'm scared, I'm afraid of losing you. When I first cared about you, I didn't know that one day, I would care about you like this. Drizzly...... This is me, an imperfect me, and before I met you, I was nothing but good-looking. It was you who let me know that I can also have good. If one day, when you know that the person standing in front of you is not what you imagined, will you forgive me for who I was? ”
Liu Wei: What's wrong? Recently, he has been mentioning his unforgivable past in front of me, as if he was afraid of what would happen if I knew? Could it be, did he really do anything?
A small question mark began to grow in my heart, but this question mark was quickly replaced by his sincere eyes. How could I bear to hurt him, who was already scarred, and it turned out that his life was so distressing......