The next day, at 4 p.m., the clouds were clear.

I took a handful of white chrysanthemums and arrived at the gate of the cemetery on time, and Du Shao and Min Hao also arrived together, holding chrysanthemums in their hands. We didn't see Qinqin, and we didn't answer her calls, so maybe something was delaying, so the three of us walked in.

When we found Mingyu's tombstone, we saw Qinqin kneeling next to her in a long black dress, looking at Mingyu's photo on the tombstone with dull eyes, she should have been there for a long time.

We silently walked over and put the flowers in front of the grave.

"Xiaoxiao......" Qin Qin softly called out my name, stood up, and did not look back.

I patted her on the shoulder with my hand.

"I'm sorry for you and Brother Mingyu...... If it weren't for me, you two wouldn't be separated......"

"Don't think so...... Now that Brother Mingyu is gone, he is happy to have you care about him all the time. ”

"Actually, he drank too much that night, and nothing happened to us, but he didn't know it." Qinqin turned her head to look at me.

We all stared at her in amazement.

If it weren't for Mingyu's letter, I wouldn't know what she said, but Du Shao and Min Hao should have known.

"If there is no misunderstanding, will you be with Brother Mingyu?" Qinqin asked me.

"I ...... I do not know. "I really don't know, maybe I'll be with him, what about Du Shao, what is my affection for Du Shao?

"How could you not know! Brother Mingyu likes you so much, loves you, how can you not know who to choose! Qin Qin roared and pushed me to the ground.

"Qinqin! Don't do that! Min Hao hugged Qinqin, who pounced on me, and Major Du helped me up.

"Do you know that Brother Mingyu drank too much that day, and he kept calling your name in his dreams, and it was me who was guarding him! You know how pathetic I am, right? And you...... Enjoying the love of two people at the same time, don't you feel ashamed! ”

Looking at Qinqin, who was about to go crazy, and listening to her harsh words, I almost collapsed. Du Shao stood in the middle of us, telling Qinqin to shut up while comforting me.

"Click-" A flash of lightning sent heavy rain in the sky.

I turned around and left alone, Du Shao took my hand and was shaken off by me, I ran forward desperately, and then disappeared into the rain.

I stumbled to the river, and the rain had stopped.

I sat on the steps, my clothes wet and wrapped around my body, no match for the discomfort in my heart, and the gust of wind made me shiver.

Suddenly, the phone in the bag rang, it was Du Shao calling, this time I didn't answer, I just watched the phone keep ringing, and finally the ringtone was gone.

Maybe I'm too greedy, maybe I don't deserve the love of any of them.

After I calmed down, I went home, quietly went back to the room to change clothes, felt a little uncomfortable and lay down and fell asleep, who expected that this lay down for three days, I had a high fever.

My mother said that when I was asleep, Du Shao called and said that he was going back to England and that there was something going on over there.

"Mom, Mingyu is gone."

"Where have you gone?"

"Oops, it's dead."

"Dead? What's going on? ”

"I tried it, I failed, I died, I don't know how."

"It's a pity, how young! When you were admitted to college, I heard that his father was locked up for taking bribes. ”

"Why haven't you heard of it before?"

"You are in Nanjing, how can you know about your hometown!"

Why did Mingyu get drunk during the winter vacation of his freshman year, it turned out that he really pretended to be a lot of unhappy things in his heart.

"Mom, did Du Shao say what time he left?"

"No. 3, it's today."

"Oh, today."

I found a charger, and the phone was long dead. Plug in the power, turn on the phone, and receive Du Shao's message.

"Xiaoxiao, I'm going back to the UK."

"Have a safe journey!" After hesitating for a moment, I deleted the message.

It's okay not to get in touch.

I barely went out for the rest of the holidays, and I spent every day in a mess, either locking myself in my room or watching TV in the living room.

My mother seemed to notice something, but she didn't interrogate me, she just cooked for me to eat every day, bought watermelon and cut it and put it on the table for me to find out, maybe my mother thought that I had grown up, and many things needed time to accept and digest.

The rest of the family seems to have been done by my mother as well, and she hardly provokes me.

I pulled out two boxes from the bottom of the bookcase.

A thing containing Mingyu had been sealed up in his freshman year.

A thing containing Du Shao has never been opened since it was put into the "Ocean Star" during the winter vacation when he was 20 years old.

Actually, these things are mine, but the emotions they carry should not belong to me.

Mingyu has been in my sight since kindergarten, he covers me like a big brother, and until junior high school, the time with him is wonderful.

Slowly, it seems that there are more ignorant feelings, that feeling should be called liking, simple I thought I could be with Mingyu for a long time, but this kind of liking was quickly ended.

The funny thing is that the terminator turned out to be Mingyu's misunderstanding of Qinqin, and the price in exchange for the truth was Mingyu's departure.

If it weren't for the failure of the experiment, maybe Qin Qin would have rotted the truth in her stomach, maybe not.

My first love was like a seed just about to sprout, and suddenly I encountered a cold wave and retracted my head again.

Du Shao is a very good person, he is better to me than I imagined, at first I also thought that I could be with him simply, but the reality is complicated, not as simple as life in the military school.

I think I have Du Shao in my heart, but I'm a little scared, afraid of the cruelty of reality, afraid of being hurt.

Although my thoughts have been cleared, the memories of Mingyu and Du Shao will haunt me from time to time, leaving me at a loss.