Book 10: The night passes, and the winter window is not white

He who loves me loves him; and he that earnestly seeks me shall find it

After breaking up with Liu Mianmian, Wenzi had a dream that was still fresh in his memory.

In his dream, there was a lake full of lotus flowers, and in the middle of the lake there was a carved and painted pavilion, which was splendid and magnificent, and he was anxiously looking for Liu Mianmian in the crowd, and wanted to take a boat with her to the middle of the lake to have a look.

He shuttled through the crowd, kept looking, kept running, and finally saw Liu Mianmian wearing a pink skirt in the distance, holding a lotus flower in one hand, beckoning to him desperately, she kept laughing, looking at him, Wen Ziqi was afraid that the boat would go away, so he grabbed Liu Mianmian's wrist and pulled her to the lake, but the footsteps in the dream didn't seem to be able to lift up, the more he wanted to run faster, but he didn't move, he kicked his legs in a hurry, and suddenly woke up.

The evening breeze gently blew the curtains, and the quilt didn't know when he kicked it under the bed, and it was cold all around.

He turned over, pulled up the quilt and put it back on, and felt sad in his heart, such a beautiful pavilion, he didn't take her up to see it.

"I knew it was so stumbling, and it was as if I didn't know each other." What a pity, he thought.

The window of the theater has gradually darkened, and the night in the snowy capital is cold and frozen. Liu Mianmian lowered her knees and stretched her legs on the soft couch.

At that time, I couldn't figure out the reason for the breakup, Wenzi didn't think about tea and dinner during the day, he couldn't sleep at night, he thought about all kinds of reasons and excuses, and he didn't know how many of them, and when he really heard her explanation today, Wenzi felt that his whole brain was dizzy, and his body was in a trance, and he couldn't say the feeling, and his heart was at a loss, there was shame, sadness and distress, and there was an indescribable imitation.

Even now, if he goes back to five years ago, what can he do for her?

Fortunately she survived the catastrophe, fortunately she now sat next to her without any mistakes, and fortunately fate did not play tricks on them for long.

For a moment both stopped, and the air was swallowed up by an eerie and strange silence.

I don't know how to describe Wenzi's state of mind at this moment, like a world away?

His nose was sour, his vision was hazy, his throat choked again, and he secretly blamed himself for having too many tears today.

He had guessed thousands of reasons, some of which were good and bad, and those who could not be understood, but behind each reason was that Liu Mianmian must be very happy, Liu Mianmian lived a happy life, and Liu Mianmian started a new beautiful life in an environment suitable for her.

He never thought that the girl who was scared by a spider and cried at that time would bear such a big grievance, a little girl who was greedy for ice cream, and her heart was pressed with so many heavy things.

Night has fallen, the room is gradually darkening, only the movie screen glows with blue light, and the silent person shines leisurely.

Liu Mianmian didn't cry, she rarely shed tears since her mother died. Maybe she is used to seeing strife and darkness, used to shielding feelings, shielding feelings, things that have passed, and when she talks about it, it is much calmer than she imagined. I thought that the past was difficult to talk about and unbearable, but after I really told it, it was like telling someone else's story. Did she regret it? Liu Mianmian thought that in that situation and situation at that time, she had no choice, even if the matter was put now, she would still choose to sacrifice everything that was insignificant, let alone be ashamed, she was calm, and that was enough.

Wen Ziqi wanted to step forward and hug Liu Mianmian, but at this moment the hug also seemed insignificant, he wanted to tell her an interesting story, his brain was stagnant for a while and he couldn't think of anything funny, his brain turned around, and suddenly he seemed to have a lot of strength, an impulse that he couldn't hold, he hugged Liu Mianmian, the two faced each other, and the tip of his nose seemed to touch.

He looked at her

She looked at him too

The next second he kissed hard, desperately sucking her lips, slippery tongue and tears into her mouth, he rubbed her hair, stroked her back, the kiss attacked, he took her jaw in his mouth, and then he wanted to kiss her neck, the turtleneck sweater seemed to be really too much of a hindrance, his hands were free, and he was about to take it off from the hem of the shirt for her, but he was tightly clamped by a pair of hands.

Liu Mianmian's faint black eyes were staring at him deeply.

"Have you forgotten something?" She calmed her breath and paused for a few seconds and said, "Child, the yellow crystal on Miss Chen's wrist is very familiar to me. ”

Wenzi was stunned for a moment, like falling into an ice cellar, and looked at Liu Mianmian in a panic.

Liu Mianmian looked at him quietly: "Ziqi, did you do something wrong?" ”

The Wenzi period is big for a while!!

"I'm talking to you about this, I just think you have the right to know, you don't have to sympathize or pity me, the most difficult days have passed, I just hope we can all have a happy life, and the past misunderstandings and entanglements will all dissipate." Liu Mianmian's clear eyes looked at him calmly: "If you are really in love with Miss Chen, I am really happy for you, and I will feel a lot less guilty." ”

"Liu Mianmian, I have only you in my heart from beginning to end." Wenzi said sadly at the end of the vicissitudes.

"In the child period, we are not children anymore, you have to deal with things like a mature man, responsibility is the first." Liu Mianmian said: "I will also try to live well." ”

It was he who messed up everything, and Wenzi was extremely depressed.

When he returned to the hotel, it was already early in the morning, and Wen Ziqi made a gesture to enter Liu Mianmian's room together, but was stopped and driven out.

At this moment, Chen Qing was sitting in Wenzi's off-plan room, quietly waiting for the man who had lost his soul to come back.

Two years ago, since the day she dated Wen Ziqi, Chen Qing's heart has never been stable, she suffers from gains and losses, but she doesn't want Wen Ziqi to see it. If she is entangled and depressed about her boyfriend's past a few years ago, it will be too generous.

Until one night, when the sleeping man next to the pillow muttered, "Mianmian." ”

Only then did she understand that that woman was not the past, nor was she nostalgic, but the passion of Wenziqi's life, and the person he loved in the past, present, and even in the future. This is an emotion that Chen Qing will never get involved in.

The soul of Wenzi has long been lost.

She has obviously been forgotten these days, and the person who has been hooked has forgotten to send her even a message. But fortunately, she still has a job that can support her salary and let her play to her strengths, so that she will not lose too ugly, she should slap him a few times, and then splash him with red wine or juice like in the movie, she should insult him, make him blame, embarrassment, remorse, accuse him of his affection and hypocrisy.

Yes, she wants to deal with him like this, so as to relieve the hatred in her heart.

The sound of swiping the card sounded, and the door was opened.

A haggard-faced and depressed Wenzi period walked in.

It seems that he didn't get what he wanted, Chen Qing thought, and there was a trace of unbearability in his heart, otherwise forget it, she pretended to be stupid and continued the strange relationship between them, right?

But after thinking about it, why did she accept a lonely and depressed body that was old and imitating for others?

She walked over and stood face to face with Wen Ziqi, and before Wen Ziqi could speak, her voice sounded first: "Wen Ziqi." ”

He looked up at her, his eyes bloodshot.

"Do you still love me?" Chen Qing asked the person in front of him with a trembling voice.

Wen Ziqi continued to be silent, without even a ripple in his eyes.

Chen Qing's heart sank, she was simply humiliated.

But she was still unwilling, and continued to say sadly: "So, Wenzi period, have you ever loved me?" ”

Wen Ziqi shook his head, looked at her, and said apologetically, "Chen Qing, I'm sorry." ”

Chen Qing wiped the tears oozing from the corners of his eyes, and laughed self-deprecatingly: "Am I the substitute you have never poured your feelings into?" ”

"I'm sorry." He still only has those three words.

Enough of the humiliation suffered, Chen Qing resolutely walked towards the door, holding the cold doorknob, stagnating, and said in a low voice: "Wenzi period, has anyone said that you are a scumbag?" Or is it a bastard?! ”

Without waiting for an answer, she strode away.

Wen Ziqi sat alone at the table and looked at the lamp in a daze.

He is indeed a scumbag prodigal, but he also has a deep affection, but it is too late, so what can he do? He thought that he had missed five years, the companionship of Liu Mianmian when he was most lonely and helpless, and the comfort when he was most sad and desperate. She seems to have grown into a mature adult, calm and rational, and no longer needs to stay in the unfree and unfree Wenzi period that she was entangled and obsessed with love five years ago.

This is more terrible than all the incomprehension, lovesickness, dreams, loss, and heart twists in the past five years, and when he woke up from his dream, Yiren had already stumbled away, flying higher and farther, looking back and smiling, wishing him happiness.

Wen Ziqi held his head dejectedly, in front of Liu Mianmian, he has never had the opportunity to admit defeat, Rao is that he is rational, chic, cold and arrogant in the eyes of others, and can let go, but once he faces Liu Mianmian, he will instantly become timid, emotional, tearful, willful, and submissive, because of her existence, he has completely lost his normality and decency.

The restaurant has a wide variety of breakfasts, and there is always a moment of joy in the food.

Yang Jing sat opposite Liu Mianmian with a dinner plate. She looked at the girl in front of her with a smile and said, "Mianmian, is there a new harvest?" ”

Liu Mianmian drank the soup and said slowly: "I want to go back to Lizhou one step ahead of you today." ”

Yang Jing was surprised: "Didn't you and Manager Wen renew their relationship in the past two days?" ”

Liu Mianmian trembled with laughter, put down the spoon and said: "The vicissitudes of the sea, the reincarnation of the four seasons, who is the Wangfu stone for whom?" Old friends meet, tell each other goodbye, look forward to the future, and cherish each other. I sincerely bless him, and he wishes me well. ”

"Then you don't have to rush to leave, your father will blame me for not taking good care of you." Yang Jing wondered.

"Don't go," Liu Mianmian lowered her eyes and said faintly, "I'm afraid that I will be willful." ”

Yang Jing didn't say anything more, booked a plane ticket, and called to arrange a drop-off vehicle for her. Previously, she had reached a consensus with Liu Shijun that everything was subject to Liu Mianmian's own arrangements.

The car drove smoothly on the winding road, and on both sides of the road were still the wilderness and the stars of cattle and sheep.

After driving more than 200 kilometers, the car braked suddenly, and Liu Mianmian was knocked on the head by the front seat. She looked up at the front of the car, where a black Audi lay in front of them.

The driver was a local man in his fifties, with a beard on his face, and he was gesturing to get out of the car.

The other party was more temperamental than him, and the arrow meteor came first.

Seeing him, Liu Mianmian really had a headache, and was thinking about whether she could get out of the car, the car door had been opened by someone who came, Wenzi's face was haggard, her blue stubble covered her chin, her eyes were red, and she looked at her fixedly.

Liu Mianmian was shocked by his overnight changes, and hurriedly got out of the car and walked with him to the open field.

The driver master was already accustomed to the love and hatred of the young people, so he simply put down the chair and narrowed his eyes.

"You're going to say goodbye again?" Wen Ziqi said in a hoarse voice: "Don't even give me a chance to send you?" ”

Liu Mianmian was like a child who had done something wrong, lowering her head and putting her hands in the pockets of her down jacket.

Looking at her, Wen Ziqi was so sad that he was about to suffocate, his hands pressed on Liu Mianmian's shoulders, turned her head around forcefully, his eyes seemed to be on fire, and he shouted in a broken voice: "Liu Mianmian, don't torture me, okay," he had a gloomy face, and held the woman's face urgently and hurriedly and shouted: "What do you want me to do so that you can love me like before?" What should you ask me to do? Shall we go back to the way before? Let me love you, okay? He pleaded, there was no longer half of the cold and free shadow of the past, and pain, struggle, and tenderness filled every cell in his body.

He said in despair: "I have already been a scumbag with others, I am willing to bear the infamy, I can even give up everything, what about you?" Mianmian, can you give me a little response? Can you give the man in front of you who is carried away by love and guilt a little hope? What you said is right, your rationality has made me timid, but rationality can't stop me from loving you, I miss you, I don't care, I care about him, it's okay for you to scold me, I just want to be with you, I don't want to miss it again, what calm and rational responsibility, who is responsible for me? His tears fell, and he was in a state of madness, like a willful big child, clamping Liu Mianmian tightly, hugging her so that she couldn't breathe.

After a long time, a pair of soft hands slowly slid up and caressed Wenziqi's solid back, he couldn't help but be stunned, gently let go of Liu Mianmian, and looked at her with a pair of deep and eager eyes.

A fair face, a pair of smart and subtle eyes, blinking with long eyelashes, a small nose, crystal red lips, and a pointed and full chin.

Liu Mianmian raised her head and looked at him, and said slowly: "I'm in a hurry to go, because I'm afraid that I will do something wrong." Sub-period, you are really too charming. ”

Wen Ziqi looked at her stunned.

Liu Mianmian held his hand tightly, there seemed to be tears in his eyes, and said shyly and surely: "I also want to be with you, and be good to you as before." ”

Wen Ziqi heard that his heart was like an amnesty, he couldn't help but exhale, the depression, anxiety and sadness in his heart instantly disappeared, he was overjoyed, and the tears couldn't stop seeping out, he was a little embarrassed to turn his face, and it happened that a gentle hand gently covered it and wiped away the tears for him.

"How could I not love you, child, I never stopped loving you." She said movingly, and the next moment she hugged Wen Ziqi tightly, buried her face in his broad chest, and smelled the tobacco on his body deeply.

"I'll go with you." Wen Ziqi said happily: "I'll buy a plane ticket now, let's go back to Lizhou together, and go to see grandma together!"

Liu Mianmian was just about to stop it, but suddenly remembered her mother's words,

What about being despicable?

She smiled, hugged Wenziqi's waist and smiled: "Okay! ”

What should I do if I suddenly remember the car again?

Wen Ziqi smiled: "No matter, just be willful." Give the key to this master, ask him to hand it over to Director Sun, and throw the car here! ”

"Where's your luggage?" Liu Mianmian asked again.

In a hurry to chase her, she didn't pack her luggage at all, but fortunately, the briefcase was in the car and the documents were there.

"I'll ask Sister Yang to bring it back for you!" Liu Mianmian said mischievously.

When the car drove to the airport, the mood of the two people was very different a few days ago, sitting in the back row together, Wen Ziqi held Liu Mianmian with one hand, and the other intersected with her palm, at this moment they all had a feeling in their hearts, as if the barrier of thousands of mountains and rivers had finally been removed, and their minds were calm and relieved, and they had a home.

Liu Mianmian tilted her head and looked at the window while laughing, Wen Ziqi looked at her and smiled, the corners of her mouth couldn't help but rise, and she said playfully: "What are you laughing at?" ”

"I don't know, I just can't help but want to laugh~" Liu Mianmian smiled: "It seems to have been a dream, and after waking up, the vast dark night has passed!" ”

Wen Ziqi used his strength to squeeze Liu Mianmian's hand, and at this moment he was so happy that he couldn't help rolling down the car window, and shouted ecstatically to the sudden cold wind and snowy mountains:

"Snow ~ mountain, you ~ really~ ~ too ~ beautiful ~ ! Thank you~Thank you! ”

"If you have to become a star, why die, I am willing to be a mandarin duck and not an immortal." Liu Mianmian couldn't help but raise the corners of her mouth and read softly.

Snowy capital, you are really beautiful.