A Chinese practice question I did a long time ago, I forgot what the title was, it was about a passage in "Dream of Red Mansions", there are four options below, and one of the answers is: "This text shows that Baoyu and Daiyu have incompatible personalities, which fundamentally caused the tragedy of Bao Dai's love." ”

At that time, Lin Zi was the first to rule it out, and he thought that what kind of option was this, it was ridiculous.

How can Bao Dai have a discordant personality? They have a heart-to-heart relationship, and their love tragedy should be caused by the evil feudal system - who knew that the standard answer turned out to be really this character incompatibility, which shocked and surprised Lin Zi.

But the only thing that could make Sister Lin vomit blood and burn the manuscript was Baoyu.

He knew her too well, and he didn't understand her too much.

She barely pretended to be calm: "You and Xu An laughed about work, what does it matter to me, why should I be angry?" ”

"You're not angry, what?" Instead, he was aggressive, "Why don't you even have the most basic trust in me? ”

Lin Zi looked at him from afar, his eyebrows frowned slightly, obviously angry at his own unreasonable trouble, in his heart he was unreasonable.

He knew that he was very jealous of his relationship with Xu Anxiao, because he was afraid, he was afraid - too many people regarded them as a pair of golden boys and girls, and even sometimes Lin Zi felt that they were standing there, handsome men and beautiful women were very compatible, and Lin Zi felt that he was a Cinderella who unintentionally climbed up to the prince, and he was always worried that the prince would fall in love with the real princess.

Lin Zi suddenly became a little disheartened: "No matter who you run a newspaper with or who you associate with, it has nothing to do with me anyway." ”

He seemed to be choked by Lin Zi's words, and after a few seconds, he sneered: "I know what you're thinking." ”

Lin Zi couldn't stand his weird appearance of yin and yang, Lin Zi was choked by him, Lin Zi said: "I don't think anything has anything to do with you." ”

He said nonchalantly: "In this case, it is better to break up." ”

Lin Zi's heart seemed to be pricked by a needle, as if he didn't hear what he said clearly, they had had a few awkward fights before, but Lin Zi never thought - she didn't think that he would say such a thing.

She pursed her lips and gritted her teeth to prevent them from making a trembling sound, but her face was nonchalant.

She once thought that with him she would have the whole world, but now the whole world has abandoned her.

Self-esteem and instinct came back in an instant, and she heard her own voice clear and sharp: "Then break up." ”

He turned and walked away, striding away without hesitation, and she watched his back fade away, shivering with cold.

Many times Lin Zi dreamed of this dusk, dreamed of his turn, she woke up crying again and again in her dreams, but she didn't have the courage to catch up with him and tell him not to break up with him.

It was a long time before she learned that there is destined to be a person in this world, although the time he belongs to you is very short, but if you want to forget him, you need to spend your whole life.

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Lin Zi returned to school from the subway station alone, did not take a taxi, nor took the bus, and she was very tired and tired.

Since leaving that place, Lin Zi's chest has been like being pricked by a needle, her mind and heart are Yi Zhen, originally thought that the past two months would allow her to completely forget about him, but now she really misses him.

She hadn't thought of him like this in a long time.

Because every time she thought of him, she hated herself, but the more she hated herself, the more she missed him.

Every time she deliberately avoided the name, she hid him in a deep, deep place, too many things buried her thoughts about him, she could miss him very little in the light, never so luxurious as tonight.

When Lin Zi walked back to school, the cafeteria had already closed, so she dragged her two feet that were already numb from the cold, and went to the small shop outside the west gate again, and casually asked for a bowl of knife-cut noodles.

The noodles haven't come up yet, holding disposable chopsticks, and I have no intention of rubbing the burrs on it.

Lin Zi pondered for a long time and guessed where Yi Zhen would go. Will there be any accident to him, will he hide alone in a place where there is no one......

Although Lin Zi had never lost a loved one, she also knew how maddening the pain it was.

There is no one to consol, because there is simply no one who has the same experience as you.

The boss brought the steaming knife-cut noodles, and Lin Zi suddenly thought of it—whether it was or not, she had to go and see it.

Lin Zi didn't even eat noodles, put down the money and left.

Lin Zi knew that she was making excuses for herself, and when she took the intercity express to the neighboring city Z, she looked at the lights along the railway line flashing outside the window, and only felt that her stomach was empty, and her mind was empty.

In fact, she just gave herself an excuse, because he had been away from her for so long, whether he would be there or not, so it was better to go and see for herself.

It was early in the morning when she got off the train, so she took a taxi and told the driver the address.

The city seems to have just woken up from sleepy eyes, there is not much traffic on the streets, the street lights have not been extinguished, and they are lonely in the morning fog of dawn.

She remembered that Yi Zhen and herself had mentioned Z City for the first time, it was a place where his parents knew each other and loved each other, and it was a place where he once wanted to take him but never could go.

There was an old house there, and it was full of their memories, the best ones.

The taxi followed the address and stopped at the entrance of the alley, and the driver opened it to give her change.

The morning wind was cold, and she walked down the alley, which was a family area of some year, flanked by tall gray concrete walls.

Lin Zi never knew the way, followed the address to find it, almost got lost, and finally found the courtyard gate of the community.

The lights were still on in the guard's room, but no one was in sight, and the big iron door was closed, but the small iron door was open.

Some people who returned in the morning were struggling to move the battery car, and the feet of the car slammed on the threshold, making a crisp crashing sound.

Lin Zi walked in after the man, and the doorman didn't come out to interrogate him.

Lin Zi didn't feel lucky, because she was trembling all the time, and she couldn't even take a step, and she didn't know if it was frozen or scared.

Old-fashioned buildings are one after another, like silent beasts, crouching in the hazy light of the early morning.

Lin Zi shuttled back and forth in the middle, but all the buildings were almost identical, and when she looked up, she could only see the gray sky in the early morning of winter.

Her legs and feet were weak, and she finally sat down on the flower bed.

The flower beds are covered with tiles, cold to the bone. From this distance, all the houses are familiar, with a few windows lit and old people jogging in the cold wind in the morning......

She sat in the flower bed, exhausted, and she knew she must not be able to find it.

Lin Zi's bones all over her body were permeated with coldness, her feet were numb from the cold, and her legs began to cramp, but she didn't want to move.

The little match girl was actually the happiest before she froze to death, and if she could freeze to death here, she should also be happy.

After all this time, she buried all her emotions, and she thought she had banished herself, but she ran here like a madman.

The opposite corner of the wall is gray-white, the rough cement has been smoothed, and someone has written on it in chalk: "Pei Youyou Love Zhou Xiaoxiao".

The handwriting is crooked, or just an ignorant schoolboy. When I was a child, there were often bored children who did such things, holding chalk and scribbling in the inconspicuous corner.

Write mischievous who loves whom, at that time I didn't know what love was, I just thought the word was very mysterious, and once it was written on the wall, I would be angry for days.

It wasn't until I understood it that I realized that this word was so desperate.

Lin Zi didn't know how long she had been sitting there, the weather was so cold that her brain was about to freeze.

As she held her phone, she could seem to hear her frozen joints rattling.

Lin Zi made a call to Shi Mu, her voice was still hazy and sleepy, she looked at the time on her phone, it was seven o'clock in the morning.

Lin Zi even froze her tongue, and told her inarticulately: "I guessed where Xiao Shan might be." ”

She seemed to wake up all of a sudden, and eagerly asked Lin Zi.

"Her parents have an old house in Z City, you can remember the address."

Lin Zi told her the address and everything, she thanked herself again and again, or only if she really loves someone, she will care so much about his safety and happiness.

Lin Zi hung up the phone with the last of his strength, and then lowered his head into his knees.

She didn't have the courage to face the past at all, and when she mustered up the courage, she had no way to find Yi Zhen again.

It wasn't until she got on the return train that the heating on the train brought her back to her senses.

Lin Zi was very hungry, so he went to the dining car and ordered a bowl of noodles, and the master made it in a while.

The noodles are served in a huge bowl, and there is a lot of soup, but there is a smell of spices.

The dining car was covered with a white tablecloth, the train was moving very steadily, the noodle soup was rippling slightly, Lin Zi slowly rubbed the burrs on the disposable chopsticks, and remembered the scene of two people making noodles together.

Although there is no yard on the noodles, only a bare bowl of noodles and a bowl of chili sauce, the two of them eat very fragrant and happy.

She still remembered that Yi Zhen was so spicy that the tip of her nose was red, and her forehead was covered with crystal clear fine sweat.

He whispered to himself, "When I was a kid, I didn't even eat noodles with chopsticks. ”

Lin Zi couldn't help laughing: "Then how did you eat it?" By hand? ”

He said, "With a fork, of course." ”

She remembered the way he smiled, his sparkling eyes full of his own shadow.

After Lin Zi returned to school from Z City, he caught a cold, and he had a fever for several days, and even the first two exams at the end of the semester were confused in a high fever.

Several times, Yueyue persuaded herself to go to the hospital for an intravenous drip, but Lin Zifei said that she had to review first.

So, just take a few packets of cold elixir and capsules perfunctory.

Yueyue watched from the sidelines, anxious and worried.

Later, Lin Zi received a text message from Shi Mu, telling himself that Yi Zhen had returned, and he also went to run the announcement, telling himself not to worry, and saying that next time there was a chance for everyone to get together.

Be polite and not leaky.

She didn't mention whether she found Yi Zhen in Z City, and Lin Zi didn't ask.

Lin Zi thought that this matter was in the past, whether it was for her or for herself.

Dream of Red Mansions, Red Mansion is just a dream after all.