Lu Xiaojing left the Second People's Hospital as if she had escaped all the way, went directly to the train station, and bought the earliest high-speed rail ticket, when she got on the high-speed rail, Lu Xiaojing's eyes were instantly wet with tears, she didn't understand why this was the case, could this be the result of her fate with Liao Yifan?

Along the way, she kept looking at the scenery flying outside the car, as if everything was disappearing in an instant, everything was like a dream. At this time, Lu Xiaojing sat in the car, and she didn't feel like an arrow, she felt that the time was so long, and she hoped that these relieved scenery would end soon, this state was too confusing.

Finally arrived at the station, Lu Xiaojing got off the train in despair with the loss of people, stood on the platform, looking at the way of the train, she suddenly felt so far away, and everything just now seemed to be a world away. She walked out of the station with a mechanical step, her mind blanked, and she wanted to go home, but when she saw the sun high, she didn't know what she could do to go home, so she walked aimlessly down the street in front of the station.

The street in front of the station is full of traffic, people coming and going, showing the progress and prosperity of the city, but all this is nothing to Lu Xiaojing, she carries a handbag in one hand, and slowly moves forward, which is in stark contrast to the flow of people coming and going. At this time, a pair of middle-aged men and women in front of her met her eyes.

The man and woman in front of her looked less than fifty years old, and judging from their clothing, they were a couple who had gone to work in the countryside, each carrying a large snakeskin bag, and the man was obviously heavier. I saw them walking and stopping, maybe the women were too thin and weak, and they couldn't keep up with the men, so the men walked for a while and waited for the women.

After walking for a while, the woman could not carry it, so the man brought the woman's snakeskin bag and said, "Don't take it, I'll do it myself!" The woman gasped and said, "Why don't we take a tricycle, it's too heavy for you to hold it yourself!" The man shook his head and said, "No, find a tricycle and add us to it, and we can't afford 20 yuan, and we have enough money to eat for two days!" ”。

The woman listened to the man's words, she should have agreed with his statement, so she did not object, the man walked forward with a bag in one hand, because the two bags were of different sizes and weights, and the man was very awkward to hold, so he still walked for a while and stopped to change hands, and the woman followed closely behind, looking at the man's struggling appearance and his eyes were full of pity.

At first, Lu Xiaojing didn't care about them, but because she walked slowly, the two of them also walked very hard, so they always kept a distance. Slowly, Lu Xiaojing was attracted to the couple, their seemingly natural movements, and the unpretentious dialogue between them, made Lu Xiaojing suddenly feel a shock and shock.

Looking at their clothes, Lu Xiaojing knew that their lives were very difficult, at least they were not rich enough, but seeing the responsibility of men and the close followers of women, she seemed to see another kind of love: there was no money in it, there was no spending in it, and some of them supported each other and had no regrets.

Thinking of this, and looking at the hard but happy appearance of the man and the woman, Lu Xiaojing not only had a trace of envy, she thought that she also had this ordinary happiness, but she would not be like them in this life! Watching the couple walking hand in hand all the way, Lu Xiaojing's mood was a little more relaxed.

Later, the couple turned around at an intersection like the right side, and Lu Xiaojing had to go straight, she watched the couple go away, and she also went straight to the intersection, took a car and rented a car back to the hospital.

In the next few days, although Lu Xiaojing was very concerned about Liao Yifan and his lover, she never took the initiative to contact Liao Yifan again, because she faintly bred uneasiness and remorse in her heart, she has been thinking about it for the past few days: Is it her own appearance, is it her relationship with Liao Yifan that hurt her, if it is really because of this, causing her to cut her wrists and commit suicide, she will be embarrassed, and sometimes she will even surface an ugly word: a third party.

It is based on such concerns and self-blame that although Lu Xiaojing has thousands of worries in her heart, she has decided not to take the initiative to contact Liao Yifan anymore. On the one hand, there is self-blame, and on the other hand, there is concern; On the one hand, there is the whipping of morality, and on the other hand, it is fateful to determine this life, these days Lu Xiaojing has been immersed in muddy nightmares.

On this day, Lu Xiaojing did not have an outpatient clinic, she was on duty in the office, after she dealt with some work, she picked up her mobile phone a little tiredly, and unconsciously opened QQ, but at this time, she suddenly saw Liao Yifan's avatar beating, so Lu Xiaojing was very excited, and Liao Yifan finally replied to the message! She hurriedly clicked on the portrait, but saw a long text posted by Liao Yifan:

Xiaojing, my senior sister and my love:

Calling you that way is a true reflection of our relationship.

Having the fate to be your junior brother, let us meet and know each other in a short time and space, is the most beautiful memory of my life, no matter where I am, as long as I still have a breath, she will always be imprinted in my mind, engraved in my heart.

Thank God for letting us meet again, and thank you for giving me the favor I never got, on this basis, we spent the most beautiful time, I can have your love in this life, I have no regrets.

However, there is always no perfection in this world, let alone what you want, you have seen everything that happened, this woman who married me in reality has encountered insurmountable setbacks in life, you are the soul given to me by God, she is the life given to me by God, to put it bluntly, I can't live up to it, I have failed anyone, I am no longer a complete person.

But at this moment, God threw me a great problem, and I was asked to choose between soul and life. As a layman, after a painful and helpless choice, I decided to choose the latter. I know it's not fair to you to make such a decision, and I also know that if you say it, you'll hate me and despise me, and I'll have to bear everything, because I've had no soul since then!

Before I lose my soul, I can only pray that you and your husband, children, and family will be safe and happy, and if there is a future life, you will be driven by cattle and horses at will, so as to atone for the debt I owe in this life.

When you received this email from me, I had already taken a long vacation, and I decided to leave the child in the care of my parents first, and I accompanied her to her hometown, that small mountain village with beautiful mountains and rivers to live a secluded idyllic life, hoping to arouse her yearning for life and sunshine.

As for the future, I will see how she recovers, if she recovers well, she is willing to return to the city, I will bring her back, if she wants to live an idyllic life, then I will quit my job and stay there with her. At this moment, it is my duty as a layman to accompany her, and I have no choice.

Finally, I beg your forgiveness, forgive this vulgar person—

Reading Liao Yifan's letter to herself, Lu Xiaojing went from tears to tears at the beginning, to crying silently at the end, Lu Xiaojing was immersed in extreme sadness, and she guessed that there would be such a day, and today finally came. She suffered, not only because of the termination of this fate, but also because she complained about God's injustice to her.

She muttered, "People say that lovers eventually become married, why did you give me a Liao Yifan, who set up a barrier from the beginning, and today, we finally have a result, but suddenly block it without warning?" "Oh my God, I'm really unwilling, unwilling-".

Liao Yifan's letter made Lu Xiaojing completely fall into grief and despair, but Lu Xiaojing did not blame and resentment about Liao Yifan's experience, this may just be an incorrect fate that happened at an incorrect time, contradictions, sympathies and grievances filled Lu Xiaojing's heart, and became a lingering hurt and pain!