The day of school is approaching, and Xiao Lai has almost prepared the materials for admission. The train ticket for the departure was also bought, and it was at Xiao Lai's aunt's house.

Xiao Lai's uncle-in-law is a retired railway leader, conscientious, aunt's son is also working in a state agency, the family is good, but some people don't look down on their hometown, in short, a pair of "knife mouth tofu heart", the train ticket is at one o'clock in the morning, before Xiao Lai left home, his aunt came to a call,

"Lylai, are you ready? Train tickets are really hard to buy, and your brother has worked hard to get them. ”

"Oh, okay." After saying that, he hung up. Xiao Lai followed his parents and drove all the way to his aunt's downstairs.

After unloading the luggage, the elders said hello and left. Xiao Lai followed his aunt into the living room, and after eating, it was almost dark. Xiao Lai chatted with her uncle for a while, and she was a little sleepy, but she knew that her aunt had a habit of cleanliness and would not let outsiders rest in her house, even if she sat on the sofa, she had to wash it all.

"In the recent TV series, there is an actress named Liu Tao who is very good" Aunt was afraid that Xiao Lai would fall asleep, so she coaxed her to watch TV, although she was an aunt, it did not mean that she had the same maternal love and care, Xiao Lai also chatted.

When the TV is about to end, the train is almost time, and Xiao Lai moves his arms and prepares to go. My aunt's house was some distance from the train station, and on the shelf, her parents drove her to the station early, but her aunt told her to walk there and arrive. Along the way, my uncle pushed the luggage, and Xiao Lai followed behind, chatting as he walked. It's not so much about sports, it's more about tempering, Xiao Lai grew up in the countryside, and he usually doesn't exercise less, so it's okay to be hard.

It's almost there, the train is about to leave, my uncle sent his luggage to the carriage, and went to rest, after all, he was a former leader, and after retirement, he could receive certain preferential treatment, freely enter and exit the station, and "get on the train when he sees it".

Xiao Lai arranged the seats, and made a phone call to the family was a little sleepy, but the environment in the carriage was not very good, there were students who registered everywhere, and there were a few students of the same age as her in the adjacent seat, and everyone quickly chatted together, it turned out that they were all from the same school, but the majors were different. Everyone left each other's contact information, and chatted happily along the way, but it never stopped.

It's almost time to get to the station, and it's getting bright. The accompanying uncle sent her out of the station and went back, Xiaolai came to a strange city for the first time, and the accompanying students were accompanied by their parents, but she did not let her parents go with her, she told her parents that some classmates would come to pick her up.

The autumn season is still very variable, and there is a lot of temperature difference between morning and evening. Xiao Lai waited on the platform for a long time, the wind was too strong, and the luggage was too heavy, Xiao Lai pulled the luggage to find a shelter and squatted, acute gastroenteritis attacked, Xiao Lai had a mouthful of pain and discomfort, her stomach hurt too much, she was so anxious that she was sweating, she opened her backpack and turned out a pack of medicine, drank it with mineral water, pressed her stomach for a while, and eased up a little. Thanks to the medicine prepared by her mother, she did not "fall".

At this time, Xiao Lai's heart must be extremely lonely, she desperately wants to appear by her side alone, even if she doesn't speak, just stand, however, everything is just an illusion, and the path she chooses will eventually go down alone, no matter how difficult it is for him.

Perhaps, Xiao Lai's understanding of love is not so thorough, because she now needs to adapt to college life immediately, without a trace of distractions, such a psychology has been affecting Xiao Lai since when, whenever she comes to a strange environment, she will react as if she is conditioned, she must go all out, without a little personal emotion, do not miss the old people, and seize the day.

However, no one is perfect, everyone will have some nostalgic emotions at a certain stage, and they can't extricate themselves, especially when they are fighting alone, missing will be a kind of pain that can't breathe, so that she instinctively resists the emotions of reality and hides herself.

When his friends arrived, Xiao Lai was much more relaxed. Two friends sat on the steps and chatted,

"It's been a long time, how are you doing at school?"

"It's still the same, except for class, it's eating, self-study."

"Is it okay at home?" Xiao Lai's unintentional greeting made his friend cry sadly,

"It's okay, tell me about it, it's much better to express some words."

"Last night, my sister committed suicide, and the house was in a mess." My friend's sister is also a top student in high school, and she didn't do well in the college entrance examination, so she repeated it again, but she suddenly stopped taking the exam before the exam.

"A week before the exam, I went home, I didn't take the test, and I didn't say anything when I asked her."

"Then what do you ask her teachers and roommates?"

"She is a repeat student, and her family is afraid that the dormitory will be too noisy, so she rented a room in the school village and found a classmate to accompany her."

"Isn't that good?"

"Later, I asked the roommate, and the two of them had a conflict, maybe said something hurtful, and then she went home by herself and stopped taking the exam."

"Didn't my uncle and aunt take her to see a psychiatrist?"

"I made an appointment, and she left without going in." In the year of Xiaolai's review, my friend's sister became more seriously ill, sometimes good and sometimes bad, and her family collapsed.

Later, she talked to someone herself, and the other party was her son who rented our front room. The two of them were fine at first, but then they broke up without knowing what happened, and the other party soon got married, she couldn't stand the stimulation, and she was going to commit suicide last night, and I didn't know what to do. The doctor's diagnosis was schizophrenia, but no one in the family had ever encountered this situation, and they didn't dare to tell outsiders, so they could only control themselves. ”

"It's okay, everything will be fine."

Comforting the emotions of the good friend, the school bus to pick up the new students has arrived, and the two of them got on the bus together and went to the new campus.

In fact, the wind and rain that can be experienced are not called wind and rain, but can only be counted as experience. No matter whether the process in the middle is painful or happy, no one is missing, and only those who persist can grow.

Entering the school, Xiao Lai was a little depressed, the environment here was completely different from what he imagined, the dilapidated school building, the gray steps, all the time indicated that this was an ancient school, only a few pale yellow floors decorated the whole campus with bright colors. Friends helped themselves look at the dormitory along the way, sign up, and pay the fees, Xiao Lai followed behind as if there was no one, in fact, her heart was still quite moved, "indifferent outside, hot inside", that's right, all the way down, friends helped Xiao Lai complete the formalities. There are too many new students, the dormitories are mixed, and there is no distinction by major, Xiao Lai and his friends made their beds and went to eat, after all, they just came, everything is unfamiliar.

Away from the discipline of his parents and the busyness of high school, Xiao Lai suddenly felt that he had lost his direction, and the novelty at the beginning gradually disappeared with the lonely and idle college life.

Every morning less than eight o'clock, the dormitory is no one to get up, the daily class schedule is less, one in the morning, one in the afternoon, basically Monday to Friday, sometimes there is no class in the afternoon, Xiaolai will go to the supermarket to sweep the goods, Saturday and Sunday to go to the pedestrian street to accompany the school around, basically there is no clear direction, chaos.

After a month, Xiao Lai began to be a little busy, she was busy going to the computer room to surf the Internet, busy preparing for exams, busy paying attention to that person's news and news, and busy starting a part-time job.

The family's finances have been a little tight lately, and Xiao Lai wants to find some work for himself to relieve the pressure on his parents. She worked two jobs through her classmates. One is to work in the restaurant on the sixth day, and the other is to help the clothing stall collect goods after school every day.

The work was very easy and the hostess was very kind. Xiao Lai sometimes goes early and helps to find goods for customers, after all, those clothes are piled together, not easy to find.

"Little sister, help me find an XL one, I'm going to give it away." A middle-aged woman with a famous brand shouted at Xiao Lai,

"Okay." After speaking, he picked out one and handed it to the boss, "Collect the money." "This street is famous for its sidewalks, and the vendors will come out in the afternoon and now shout on the benches, which is the custom of the city.

When there were few people, Xiao Lai was carrying his pocket, pacing, full of thoughts, walking around. Her heart is extremely uncomfortable, the crowds on the street wave after wave, Xiao Lai's heart has never had a ripple, when she is fine, she always keeps looking at her mobile phone to see if there are any missed calls, in her cognition, maybe the person she is waiting for will call at some time.

A semester was coming to an end, and she couldn't wait, so every night at the beginning of the evening self-study, she would practice pen and calligraphy for a while, because she really didn't want to miss that hopeless relationship.

After a long period of persistence, Xiao Lai gradually thought about it, and after experiencing so many people and things, he could have everything by letting go of the obsession in his heart. Xiao Lai decided to say goodbye to what he thought and thought in his heart.

“Bye my love”。