At my age, although I have passed the period of receiving love letters, I was caught off guard by receiving a suicide note. I am used to seeing death, especially the birth, old age, sickness and death of strangers, and I am used to it, but this time, this inexplicable woman, just by that sentence, she chose me, and it made me have a deep sense of involvement. And this deliberate chance encounter is also inexplicably confusing. I don't know what I really feel inside, whether it's the anger of being innocently affected, or the inexplicable luck, the curiosity of watching the fire from the other side, or the sadness of being there. I was led into a perilous situation that began with a farce by this strange woman's suicide.

The reason why it turned into a farce is completely dependent on this stupid woman's biased perception of men, the limited deduction of the development of events, a suicide note of more than 3,000 words, 3,000 words, except for me and the men who were mentioned, all the possibilities she thought were not possible, and all the explanations he mentioned were not explained. And the amazing encounter I had hoped for gradually collapsed. The first to collapse was Ruan Yang, the woman's so-called best friend, which was a huge pit. From the time I decided to call him, 24 hours passed, and his phone was never answered, and finally it was turned off. Either he died, or he was probably kidnapped. Even if I was kidnapped, if I called, I guess the kidnappers would consider asking me for a ransom. As a result, this guy didn't hear back at all. I began to wonder if such a person really existed, and if this woman was still paranoid before she committed suicide.

Like Ruan Yang, there is another person, I don't know if he knows all this, or if it was originally part of the plan. But it's not surprising that I can't get in touch, I can only find him, or be found by him, when he wants to, and it's been that way for so many years.

Since I didn't get in touch with Ruan Yang, I didn't dare to contact this woman's parents rashly. First, I am really a little unbearable, and second, I am not good at communicating with the elderly. My own parents have been silent for years. It may be the fear of death that prompts the old people who have already self-categorized themselves to derive countless inexplicable worries about the lack of longevity for any trivial matter, and this time it is really death knocking on the door. Besides, the old man's worries at this time are of no use, they only add to their troubles, so it's not time yet!

As for Yu Huai, I guess he is either the woman's fiancé or her husband, whether it is the prospective groom or the real groom, the ending is abandoned by this woman, and it seems that there has been no contact for a long time. In this case, if I take the initiative to bump into it, and there is no normal reason, nine times out of ten I will be beaten to death as an adulterer. Besides, there is always a reason for a woman to turn her back on a man! And this kind of truth often makes men embarrassed and embarrassed when they say it.

There is also a "cold" man named Xiao Xia, there is a bit less information about this man, and in my experience, women sometimes care about things that they care about very much, and tend to downplay them. And a man like Xiao Xia who has no role to give a special notice is most likely the most entangled person. Although he seems harmless, it really doesn't seem to be useful, so let's let it go first, and there is no need to inform him so early. Based on my experience, of course.

Well, that's right, there's the last one left, Gao Fei! This colleague's identity looks good, there is no emotional entanglement, no interests, but as a work partner, the relationship is very good, except for the "non-existent" Ruan Yang, this is a person who can be trusted. It's just that they all seem to be designing, and the word "design" represents emotional, jumping, difficult to communicate, abnormal people, and so on to a certain extent. Didn't this woman just give a demonstration? In addition, she also said that he may be emotional. But after all, it was a colleague, and the colleague committed suicide, so what kind of emotions did he make, at most he was sad. Besides, he has the key to this woman's house, and I need the computer in her house.

In this way, Gao Fei has to be seen. So on May 12, 2007, the third day after I received the suicide note, I called him. Once I met Gao Fei, it meant that I really walked into this woman's life, and I was a little nervous and excited to think about it. But really, from the time I picked up the suicide note, I should have entered her life, but at that time I didn't think I would need to go deeper.

Before meeting Gao Fei, I didn't make too many preparations, thinking about reporting a funeral, taking something, and throwing a pot. But now it seems that I am still naïve, Gao Fei's way of thinking is weird, and it simply breaks through my imagination!

We made an appointment to meet at a café called "Deep Sea", which was chosen because it was relatively close to the woman's house, and the café was across the street from the entrance of the woman's neighborhood, and I even thought that if I stood on the woman's balcony, I would be able to see the window of this café.

I arrived at the café before the appointed time and sat down by the window. Arriving early was purely out of courtesy, after all, I was here to report the funeral, so naturally I didn't tell Gao Fei anything sad on the phone, because I felt that my limited vocabulary could not explain this incredible process in a few words. So I just told him that I was a friend of Ru Can, and that I was asked by Ru Jing to help her get some things while she was still traveling, and then send them to her. I don't think this reason is seamless, but it's also quite convincing. If, I mean, I change my mind temporarily and don't want to tell Ru Can's current situation, then I don't have to explain why Ru Cane didn't come back to get it myself, and I can take the computer with me along the way, and at the same time, I don't have to deliberately explain my identity and intentions.

Unexpectedly, Gao Fei didn't ask much, and after hearing that I was Ru Jing's friend, he directly agreed to meet. I almost suspect that he doesn't care what I'm looking for him for, as long as I say I know Ru.

The design of the "Deep Sea" is very chic, all the walls are gray-blue, all the windows are hung with creamy white cascading heavy curtains, and in front of the windows there is a crystal bead curtain that winds around the café, separating a cloister from the entrance to the staircase on the second floor. All the sofas and tables are black, the cups and utensils are heavy glass, and the crystal lamps in the shape of jellyfish fall from the ceiling, and the light is also faintly blue. It's not comfortable, it's a deep sense of depression, and I guess that's why I feel uncomfortable when I sit down. I ordered a cup of coffee at random, and began to look at passers-by through the bead curtain in a daze, describing Gao Fei's appearance in my heart. This should be a man with long hair, stubble, and wrinkled clothes, age, hard to say, hesitant eyes, not good at words, in short, a designer should look like that, thinking like this, I can't help but start to dislike it.

At this point a young man walked in, well, at least looked younger than me. The moment he pushed the door, it instantly captured the eyes and attention of everyone in the café, the lights flickered, the beaded curtains flickered, and the Dead Sea came alive all of a sudden, and he really brought a ray of sunlight in. I was also attracted by the sunshine, and I couldn't help but look at it twice, tall, not thin, but it looked a little thin, pure white basic round neck T-shirt, white straight bucket jeans, a pair of white running shoes clean and tidy. Short hair is fluffy, with fine bangs in front of the forehead, a clean face, clear eyes, and a looming smile at the corners of his mouth. What a sunny boy. After reading him, I couldn't help but look at myself, slacks with a loose coffee-colored T-shirt, inch head, wind and rain on his face, and chaos in his eyes, in contrast, there was suddenly an insurmountable sense of age.

The big boy raised his hand to greet the guy in the café, like a regular customer. I was about to withdraw my gaze and continue to be in a daze, but I was suddenly startled, and the raised right hand finger was clearly the same wrench as Ru Jing, and the blood-red chicken heart stone was particularly dazzling. I first noticed that Ru Jing also originated from this wrench, after all, wearing it on a woman's hand is still a bit nondescript. So in this way, he is Gao Fei!

Gao Fei leaned on the bar and exchanged a few words with the little brother in the café, and then threw his gaze to my side, and his gaze instantly became cold as water. When I was almost drowning in that deep water, Gao Fei suddenly withdrew his gaze, smiled at the corners of his mouth, and walked towards me. Then he sat down across from me very casually, with a smile on his face. If I were a woman, I would love this face, and apparently most of the women in this store have already fallen in love with it, and his every move will attract the attention of those in the light.

"Jiang Nan, right?" The voice is also clear and nice.

"Gao Fei? Am I so easy to recognize? I also smiled, and secretly wondered if I was starting to like men.

"It has nothing to do with you, this café is full of regulars, just your face." Gao Fei looked proud, like a child, but I always felt that he had a coldness in his eyes.

"So Ru Jing also comes often" I regret that I chose an opponent's territory.

"The spot you chose is where she sits." Gao Fei's words are simple, but they have a taste of showing off.

"It's such a coincidence, it seems that we are still very similar." I blurted out. But I saw the coldness that covered Gao Fei's eyes again.

"Where's Ru Jing?" Gao Fei asked in the style of daily greetings, but he exuded an urgent charm.

"Erkina" I didn't tell him the truth directly, but said a place name.

"It's been a long time, when will you be back?"

"I don't know."

"What did she tell you to take?"

"Computer." I felt like I was being interrogated.

"Computers? Didn't she travel with a computer? ”

"No, she asked me to send her his computer at home."

"Why didn't she just call me? I can send it to her. “

"I don't want to trouble you."

"But I don't know you, and Ru Jing hasn't told me about you, so why should I believe you?" Gao Fei's smile finally disappeared.

As expected, it is not so easy to convince a person to believe in themselves. I had no choice but to take out the blood-red wrench that Ru Jing had taken off her hand and hand it to Gao Fei.

Gao Fei looked incredulous, took the wrench, and held it tightly in his hand.

"Did she give this to make me believe in you, or did she want you to give it back to me?" Gao Fei asked with a wry smile.

"It's all there!" I casually returned.

Gao Fei turned his gaze out the window, and the air froze all at once. I noticed that the waiter at the bar opposite also looked shocked when he saw the wrench.

I didn't rush to speak, because judging from Gao Fei's expression and questioning, he was definitely not just a colleague. The probability of crying and making trouble is estimated to be very high, so do I still have to tell him about Ru Jing's suicide?

After a long time, I drank the cold coffee in my cup and drank the coffee given to him by the waiter, and the young designer turned his face and regained his signature smile.

"Let's go, I'll take you to the computer" I think his emotions should have been controlled and suppressed. Men's emotions don't collapse so easily.

I stood up and walked out with him, and as soon as I got to the door, the door of the café opened again, and a woman in fashionable clothes and exquisite makeup walked in, just as we passed shoulders, she reached out and grabbed Gao Fei's arm who was walking in front of me, and at the same time looked at me, and I smiled politely back. Gao Fei did not stop, but walked out.

The woman, looking at Gao Fei's back, looked helpless, turned around and waved her hand, and walked into the staff area behind the bar. I hurriedly followed Gao Fei out.

Gao Fei stood on the double yellow line in the middle of the road, stopped, and I was about to follow, when I found that his shoulders were shaking, and the hand holding the wrench had never let go.

I lit a cigarette and leaned against the tree on the side of the road waiting for him to digest his emotions, not wanting to disturb, not wanting to intervene, some people's love is forbearance from the beginning, so even sadness can only be secret. Therefore, Ru Jing's colleague should be the only one she thinks is a colleague.

Ru Cana! Ru Jing, what kind of woman are you......