When I was in junior high school, I was very bad at geography, so I didn't like geography.

When I first started high school, I slept in almost every geography class. In the first monthly exam of my freshman year of high school, I scored more than 30 points in geography, and since then, I have become more and more disgusted with geography. Throughout the high school, my geography score was very stable and maintained more than 30 points. At that time, I was thinking, "I'm afraid this is providential."

In my sophomore year of high school, our class changed to a geography teacher, surnamed Ma. Mr. Ma is very young, seems to have an elegant bearing, and he is also very gentle, and he is a standard warm man.

The moment Teacher Ma stepped into the classroom, the whole class was boiling, especially the girls. After all, handsome guys are rare.

But at the time, I was very calm - hating a class can also lead to disliking someone, no matter how good he is.

So, in the first few weeks of Mr. Ma's class, I was almost immersed in my own little world.

Until one day, he suddenly called my name, and I stood up a little overwhelmed, and he said, "You come and answer this question". I was completely confused, but thankfully my table mate whispered the answer to me. I was not confident enough to answer questions in a very low voice. But Mr. Ma didn't seem to want to let me go, so he walked up to me and asked me to show him. I pointed at the book and he said, "Is that so?" Are you sure? I couldn't even say anything when he asked me that, I just looked up at him. His face was a little haggard, as if there were some vicissitudes, and the corners of his eyes were a little tired. I was attracted by the vicissitudes of his face, and my heart skipped half a beat. I don't know if that's tempting or not, I just know that my attitude towards Mr. Ma has changed.

In the face of his repeated questioning, I lowered my head in shame. He said: "Pay attention to lectures in class in the future, time does not wait for anyone, but the college entrance examination will pick people."

I don't know how that class ended, but I just feel that Mr. Ma's sentence "The college entrance examination will pick people" keeps echoing in my mind. In the end, I made up my mind to study geography well.

After that, I was much more diligent, running to Mr. Ma's office one by one. And Mr. Ma also took the trouble to explain over and over again, he explained the topic very well, and the knowledge points were also very thorough. Gradually, I fell in love with geography lessons because of my geography teacher.

Thanks to my unremitting efforts, I learned about atmospheric circulation when I understood the complicated time zones and zones...... Geography has become a wonderful course for me.

Later, at the end of my sophomore year of high school, I scored more than 80 points in the geography exam, and I dare say that it was the best geography exam I have ever taken.

The winter break began, and instead of being addicted to my phone, I was stuck in geography books. I set myself a goal - to become a good person like Mr. Ma.

But life seemed to have twists and turns, and I caught a cold during the Chinese New Year, which caused pneumonia and had to be admitted to the hospital. The hospital is a little boring, except for injections and hanging water every day, my life is as plain as a spring, without waves. In the end, what broke this peace was a chance encounter between me and Mr. Ma.

That day, I stayed alone in the ward, looking at the ceiling a little helplessly, but the vicissitudes of Mr. Ma's face appeared in my mind.

Suddenly I missed him, and I left the hospital room and walked boredly in the extraordinarily quiet corridor.

Suddenly, I heard someone shouting: "Fang Jingyang? I subconsciously turned around, and what caught my eye was Mr. Ma's thin figure. He was more haggard than before, and the corners of his eyes were unstoppably tired, as if he hadn't slept for a long time, and he looked tired.

He walked forward and said, "What's wrong with you, why are you hospitalized?" ”

The concerned tone made my heart warm, and I was a little embarrassed to say, "It's okay, it's just that I was hospitalized for pneumonia, and I'll be fine soon."

After hearing this, he said with some reproach: "Why are you so careless, you can come to the hospital for the New Year...... He seemed to be talking endlessly, and I stared at him blankly. Xu didn't hear my voice all the time, he flicked it on my head and said, "Did you hear what I said to you?" ”

I nodded and said, "I hear you."

He said, "You're in that ward, I'll send you back."

I told him the ward number and walked back with him. But I always felt that something was wrong there, and suddenly I remembered and forgot to ask him why he was here.

I looked up at him and asked, "Teacher, why are you in the hospital?" Teacher Ma was silent, and there was silence in the corridor all the way.

When I got back to the ward, I thought he was leaving, but he suddenly said, "My dad has relapsed, and I'm here with him." His voice trembled a little, and there was fear and helplessness in it.

Looking at his bloodshot cheeks, I didn't know how to comfort him, so I just said, "It's going to be okay, everything is going to be okay."

Every day after that, Mr. Ma would come to see me and tell me things that I didn't think he had ever been told before. He told me about what he had experienced, his perception of life, and advised me to cherish the present moment and not regret it.

In this process, I learned that Mr. Ma graduated from Beijing Normal University two years ago and had just found a decent job in Beijing, but a sudden illness left his father sick in bed. After careful consideration, Mr. Ma decided to return to his hometown to work. In the past three years, Mr. Ma's father's illness has also improved, but a few days ago, his condition suddenly occurred. The doctor said, "The patient's condition deteriorated due to being too emotional."

Teacher Ma said, "Although I thought that there would be such a day, I never thought that it would be so heartbroken, and he was just happy for the New Year." ”

And I finally understood why every time I saw him, I felt that he was very tired and haggard.

On the day I was discharged from the hospital, Mr. Ma told me that his father's condition was under control and the doctor said that he could be discharged.

Looking at his joyful eyes, I said with some emotion: "Well, now you can rest assured".

During that winter vacation, I became friends with Mr. Ma; It was also that winter vacation that I wrote in my diary full of the girl's thoughts. The most eye-catching is the sentence "Teacher Ma, I like you".

I made up my mind that I wanted to go to the cities he had been, to the universities he had attended, to the faraway places he had been.

The third year of high school is my most fulfilling year, a happy year, and my most glorious year.

I once asked him with burning eyes, "Teacher, do you believe that I will be admitted to Beijing Normal University?" ”

He looked me expectantly in the eyes and said, "I believe, I believe you will be better than me."

Perhaps, he has already seen through his mind in my mind; Maybe he just likes me, too.

Time sighs, and the college entrance examination is approaching in a blink of an eye.

But I deeply understand what it means to "make people by providence".

The day before the college entrance examination, I suddenly had a fever and coughed incessantly. Eventually, I completed the college entrance examination in my life. At that time, I was in despair, and it seemed that overnight, I was far, far away from him.

After the results of the college entrance examination, I was just enough for the second line, but I didn't have the heart to sign the volunteer. Teacher Ma called me and sent me a message, but I didn't reply, I just felt that my whole sky had fallen.

What I didn't expect was that Mr. Ma actually came to my house to look for me. He said to my parents, "Let me persuade her."

I glanced at Mr. Ma, but tears couldn't stop falling - he is a testimony of my efforts in the past year, but I have not reached the distance of him.

He said, "Let's go out for a walk."

I said, "Okay." This time, I don't want to be willful anymore.

In June, the scorching sun bakes the earth. The air that should have smelled of first love also disappeared in my depression. "I'm afraid I'll never be able to say this crush." I thought silently in my mind

Teacher Ma looked at me quietly and suddenly said, "Do you know when I first met you?" Although it was a question, he didn't give me a chance to answer. He said, "The first time I saw you, you were fighting. Remember? At the beginning of the second year of high school, there were a lot of stray dogs in our county, and they were often chased and beaten by passers-by. Maybe you happened to meet a couple of boys abusing the puppy, so you jumped out and let them go, and threatened them. But admittedly, they won't listen to you. Therefore you have quarrels. What I saw as I passed by was you holding the dog and gesturing to fight them. Finally your mother came, and the boys left, but you were also criticized. Can your mom adopt that dog, you ask? Your mother didn't allow it, and you cried a lot about it, but of course, your mother didn't agree. You reluctantly looked at the stray dog, and disappeared from my sight step by step. At the time, I thought this girl was really interesting. Eventually, I took the dog in. It's been two years now, and we've known each other for two years. When I stepped into the classroom and saw you in the corner, I felt that my "bad news" had begun. Of course, you didn't disappoint me - sleeping in class, looking at your phone, eating, and making noise, you almost did it. The geography grades are even more of a mess, and I don't want you to mess around like this anymore, so I asked you questions that day, and at the same time, reminded you. In the third year of high school, I have seen your efforts, although you have not reached the ideal state, but you must know that decadence cannot solve the problem. It's just that your life is still very long, and there is a lot of work to go, whether you are repeating or going to read two books, I support you. ”

"All support me", I muttered in my mouth, but my heart was already full of mixed wine, and it was no longer the same.

In the end, I chose to read two books, and I was separated from Mr. Ma by a province.

There are a lot of things going on in college, and I have clubs and studios, and I am busy all day long. No matter how busy I am, I will send a message or call Mr. Ma to tell him what I have learned and learned about the day. Sometimes he would call me to tell me about the events and happenings at the school. We are like friends, but we all have hearts. I wondered if I should tell this crush, but I was afraid of breaking this precious friendship, so I was careful not to take a step forward.

After the National Day holiday in my freshman year, he sent me a message saying that he would attend a teaching and research meeting here, and that he would come to see me at our school after that. I happily ran several laps around the playground.

I woke up early that day and dressed up. At the same time, I thought of a thousand scenarios of meeting him in my mind. I think if he showed up, I would recognize him at a glance, even if there were thousands of people.

At twelve o'clock in the afternoon, he appeared at the entrance of our school. The moment I saw him, I was surprised and had an urge to get into his arms. And the result was that I ran up to him and shouted a little shyly: "Teacher Ma......"

He looked warmer than ever. Touching my head and saying, "I wanted to surprise you, but I didn't expect you to wait for me in advance." At that moment, my heart was beating wildly, and I didn't even dare to raise my head.

I took him on a stroll around the campus, watching the people coming and going, and I felt like the happiest person in the world at the moment. In the end, we came to a sea of lavender flowers, and we only felt that this scene was very beautiful and suitable for confession.

I plucked up my courage, looked him in the eye, and said, "Teacher, do you know that I have a little thought"? He didn't dodge, he didn't dodge, but suddenly he looked at me affectionately and said, "You know what? I also have a careful thought. In the first two years after graduation, my life was very gloomy, you illuminated it like the sun, and the light in my heart only belonged to you. I only feel that in this world, only you and time cannot be disappointed. I like you, I like it, I love it. ”

I wanted to confess, but I confessed. Suddenly I realized that the sky was blue that day, and we were smiling beautifully.

Finally, I started my long-distance relationship journey, which was hard, but also sweet. Like many little girls, I would babble to him, complain, complain. And he will listen to me patiently, and he will also let my unreasonable and petty temper go.

We also made an appointment to go to the beautiful Xinjiang Ili to see the sea of purple lavender flowers, which was the only promise he made to me.

But sometimes love is really like sand that can't be grasped, and when the wind blows, it will disappear away.

When I came home from winter break, when I was looking forward to seeing him again, he said, "Take care of yourself, and we'll see each other in two days." And I also secretly bowed my stomach in my heart, "I haven't seen you for a long time, doesn't he want me?" "But it was providence that I happened to meet him. Unfortunately, he was having dinner with another girl. It's just that his face is very pale, and there is no sparkle in his eyes. Seeing this scene, my heart couldn't stop aching, and I wanted to ask him what was going on, but I was afraid to know the answer.

We were all silent, and suddenly he said, "Xiaojing, I'm sorry, I'm getting married, let's break up." You'll grow up, you'll meet someone you like, and you'll ...... Forget me, bless you" Then, he glanced at me and turned to leave.

By the time I could react, he was nowhere to be seen. Snowflakes were falling in the sky, and it seemed as heavy as my heart. I howled in the snow and cried, "Why, we said we would watch the snow together, and we would wait until I graduated, why did you suddenly get married".

At that moment, I hated my youth like never before.

A few days later, I took a car to Beijing. I didn't want to be in the same city with him on the day he got married, he was happy and I was sad.

Later, my college life was uneventful, and I only occasionally thought of him and his resolute figure.

In my sophomore year, at the high school reunion, they talked about Mr. Ma and his past. In this, I know the fundamental reason for his marriage - his father's time is short, and his only wish is to see him start a family, and in order to fulfill his father's wish, he chose to marry on a blind date. A few months after he got married, his father died, and he cried like a child, helpless, and desolate.

After listening to this, I realized that I had already burst into tears, and this fruitless love was finally about to be let go. I hated him for a long time, but I didn't know that there were still years that could not be crossed from us.

Love for me is a journey and a dream after all.

I thought you would wait for me to grow up, but I didn't want you to start a family, I wish you happiness.

Do you know? On the day you got married, I went to Yili, Xinjiang, and the sea of lavender flowers was beautiful, but without you. But I'm still very grateful to you. Because I like you, it was my dream when I was young.

Thank you for teaching me to grow and teaching me to love.