I once remember that you pointed to the green wheat field, smiled brightly, and said, "Let's wait until the rice flowers are fragrant, and life will be better."

My grandfather has been dead for two years, and every time I see the old man, I can't help but think of him and his bumpy and "extravagant hopes" life, and my heart hurts like a pinprick.

Grandpa is a hard-working person, he has never enjoyed any blessings in his life, but he has his heart all his life. The hardships and hardships of life all weighed on him, but he had an optimistic attitude and said with a light smile: "It will be fine, life will be fine."

Grandpa has four children, and his mother is the second. When I was in elementary school, there were almost no people in my grandfather's house, only my grandfather and a few sheep accompanying them, so my mother would always let me go to my grandfather's house to accompany the two elderly people during the winter and summer vacations. It is said that the children of poor families are in charge of the family early, and I already do a lot of work when I was in elementary school, "washing dishes, herding sheep, and sweeping the floor", I will do it, except for small strength and timidity, I have almost become a little adult. But after all, I was still young at that time, and after being away from home for a long time, I would feel that my parents didn't love me, and I had sisters and brothers at home, why did I do this, no one played with me, and my grandfather's family was even poorer, so I couldn't help wiping my tears. Grandpa saw it, came to me on crutches, and a candy appeared in the palm of his hand, and I grinned at him, and the candy ate it, and the crying stopped.

I like my grandfather very much, he will tell me a lot of stories, he is also the person I respect the most, he will always praise me in front of others, "this child is very smart, he is very good at learning, and he will definitely have a great future in the future". My grandfather was the first person to praise me like this, whether it was true or not, but since then I have developed a character of not admitting defeat, and every time I fall behind others in exams and competitions, I will tell myself, "You are no worse than anyone else, how can you lose?" "After a long time like this, I have the motivation to continue to work hard.

But time doesn't treat everyone well, and grandpa is the forgotten one. Grandpa said, "In order to support his family, he traveled to many places when he was young. "At that time, it was popular to collect skins and sell them, although they didn't make much money, but they could make a living. Unexpectedly, my grandfather injured his leg in an accident when he was in his forties, and after the operation, he fell ill because he did not recuperate. After a few years, his leg became more and more painful, and he could only walk with a limp, and his family's life became more difficult, and his grandfather's pressure was even greater. Later, the eldest uncle married the eldest aunt, and the two went to work in other places, and the family's life became more prosperous. But at this time, Grandpa had another gastrointestinal problem, and the arrival of the disease always caught people off guard, and Grandpa had another operation and looked older.

I think that if life is like this, it is not actually bitter, but the bitter thing is that there is no one in the family.

My uncle went to high school and has a business acumen. When I was in the second grade of primary school, he had already opened a restaurant in Xi'an, and my two cousins went to junior high school and high school, and they were both like scholars. Thinking about it this way, grandpa also lived a better life, even if his children and grandchildren were not around.

In 2009, my aunt and uncle passed away in a car accident. Life is always like this, giving you a piece of candy and then giving you a slap in the face. The uncle planned the future very well and invested a lot in the hotel, but he did not expect the unexpected arrival. When he was walking on the road in Xi'an with his aunt on a bicycle, a car hit him without warning, and he heard that the driver was drunk. But the accident was handled very sloppily, and then I felt that this was the nature of society.

And at that time, I also saw for the first time that my two cousins were like gods crying in the dark, like newborn babies, so overwhelmed. Grandpa also got a lot older all of a sudden, and the white-haired man sent the black-haired man, and his hands on crutches kept trembling, maybe at that time, the main part of the family had collapsed.

Later, the eldest cousin only took a junior college in the two college entrance examinations, and the second cousin also took the college entrance examination twice and only took two schools. It is said that adversity will give people motivation and make people more and more courageous, but they are the opposite.

I also had a younger uncle who was twenty-two years old when he died. Uncle Xiao has no big ambitions, and in my opinion, Uncle Xiao is like a child who will never grow up - he is not assertive, he is impulsive, his ears are soft, and he has never made any money...... When I saw that the families around me were getting rich and my grandfather's house was still the same as in the past, and there was no color TV, I felt sorry for my grandfather, and I also had endless helplessness for my little uncle, and I couldn't help but complain to my mother about my little uncle's incompetence, and I couldn't let my grandfather live a good life. But my mother always glanced at me and said warningly, "What do the little ones know?" "I know that my mother is protecting my little uncle. After all, in our poorer areas, ideology is relatively backward. The eldest uncle is gone, and the younger uncle is the only one who can provide for his grandfather and grandfather.

When I was in the third year of junior high school, I went to my grandfather's house once, and my grandfather's eyes were deep-set, his face was yellow, and he seemed to have been isolated from the world for a long time. When I softly shouted "Grandpa", he opened his eyes in surprise, his eyes were shining, and he said, "You haven't been here for a long time." At that moment, my eyes were already wet, and before I could speak, my grandfather said, "Look, how good the sun is, and the wheat field is also green and shining, go, come with me to see." I helped him to stand up, and my grandfather walked very slowly, but from time to time he told me about the past, about his uncle, and about his two grandsons...... He paused for a long time, stared at the wheat field, and said, "I smell the scent of rice flowers, and it seems that the harvest is about to be harvested." He took my hand again and said solemnly, "Study hard, don't let down everyone, and don't let you down."

During the high school entrance examination, I was admitted to the county key high school with excellent results, thinking about the expectations of my family and my grandfather's advice, I was enthusiastic every time I worked hard. But plans often don't keep up with changes, and I fell in love early in my freshman year of high school, and it was a fruitless crush. It was an unruly big boy, fighting and skipping classes, but I was still deeply involved.

I was a straightforward person, and I unconsciously offended people in class, and once after school, a group of people surrounded me and threatened to teach me a lesson. I looked at them blankly, and I was already panicked in my heart, it was he who appeared like a god to save me, and I became his follower from then on. He skipped class, and so did I; When he fights, I'll cheer him on; He chased the school flowers next door, and I went to deliver flowers for him...... When I got high, my grades plummeted, and I was crying for him to transfer to another school. Maybe human nature is like this, clinging to attachments that shouldn't be obsessed, but never willing to let go. In the second semester of my sophomore year of high school, he finally left, without even saying hello, and without even saying goodbye, as if he had never come from my life, but I knew that he disturbed my entire youth.

When I was not sad about his departure, my grandfather was very sick, very sick, and was hospitalized for more than ten days. During my hospitalization, I visited my grandfather several times, and at that time I felt that my grandfather was so thin that he couldn't even stand up, and his consciousness was not clear. But every time I went, he always recognized me and said, "Study hard and let them live a good life." At that time, I really wanted to scold myself for being a bastard, knowing that "a good life" was the luxury of my grandfather's life, I did such a thing, and I failed to give my grandfather a satisfactory answer to the final exam.

After a few days at home, my grandfather left, and when I heard the news, my mind went blank, and all I had was endless chagrin and self-blame. Under the double blow, two voices appeared in my subconscious, and those two voices disturbed me from seeing my grandfather for the last time. I didn't go on the day I sent my grandfather, I didn't dare to go, but I hid in the corner and closed myself.

Later, I slowly walked out, and in the third year of high school, I seemed to be fighting with my life, very fulfilled and happy. But maybe because I fell too far behind, I was admitted to the second school during the college entrance examination, and I lost my words again, but I have to keep the calmest smile, and I believe that everything will be fine.

On the day I went to university, I went to my grandfather's house, looked in the direction of my grandfather, and told him in my heart, "Grandpa, I was admitted to university, although it is not a prestigious school, but I will work hard." You once said that if we wait until the rice flowers are fragrant, our days will be better, and you can rest assured that our days will get better and better."