December 19, 2009 Sunny and breezy

From that day on, the lovely boy often appeared in front of me, and the frequency was too fast, sometimes you could see his melancholy eyes when he sang, holding a broken acoustic guitar, sometimes a few sweet love songs, and sometimes singing sad ballads. Different from the cute appearance is a deep voice, full of vicissitudes.

Oh my God, what did he go through to write a song like that, and I really admired his talent.

I'm going to write down the lyrics and treasure them forever.

I used to cross mountains and seas

It also passed through the sea of people

Everything I ever had

In the blink of an eye, they were all scattered like smoke

I was once disappointed and lost all direction

Until you see the ordinary, the only answer

It was cloudy on December 20, 2009

I met him again today and was still so cute, and I spent a wonderful afternoon, but my curiosity couldn't help it anymore, I secretly inquired, it turned out that he was Lu Ziyin, and it was so different from what I thought of, his lonely appearance was so sad, but he obviously had so many friends, and I didn't have any friends.

December 22, 2009 was sunny

I met him again in the cafeteria today, this time I wasn't with that group of friends, he sat alone and ordered two egg drop soups, he called me over, my heart was a little resistant, I didn't like the feeling of being ordered, but my heart betrayed me, thumping, deer bumping, as if expecting something.

December 25, 2009 light rain and overcast

Today is my 19th birthday, and I am still alone, only my mother sent a blessing full of love. It's so sad, haven't I long been used to being lonely, why should I be sad, Chen Yujia, you have to be strong, don't let others look down on you.

Thunderstorm on December 26, 2009

What's more, they still squeezed me out, I slept under a warm quilt, and I was in no mood to write.

December 28, 2009 cloudy

In the dormitory, they still looked like and were talking about the vulgarity of handsome guys and beauties, and they repeatedly advanced Lu Ziyin's name, I was so angry, it was an insult to him.

On December 29, 2009, the rain passed the rainbow

Today I was alone in the dormitory doing my homework, and they seemed to be in a good mood to talk about someone today, and they didn't come to disturb my peaceful life.

But unexpectedly, there was an uninvited guest, someone under the dormitory was shouting my name, as if it was his voice, I turned my head, and found that they all had ugly expressions, and looked at me angrily.

I hurriedly went out and ran downstairs, looking at him smiling softly at me, different from the usual steady him, holding a birthday cake in his hand and saying happy birthday, he smiled and looked good, I accepted his blessing, although today is not my birthday. Well, does he care about me, the cake is so sweet.

It was a bit cold on January 3rd

The relationship with them is getting worse and worse, and now they are getting more and more excessive, they not only insult me, but also move to collect and snatch my clothes, laugh and insult me, do you see if I am a bully, I just don't want to deal with them.

What was even more excessive was that they locked me out at night and didn't let me in, it was so dark, I had to go to the dormitory aunt. Soon the dormitory manager came, roared loudly and coaxed the door open, and they reluctantly opened the door and let me in. When the dormitory manager was gone, they not only insulted me, but also insulted my aunt and scolded him for being a dead old woman.

Why the hell are they always targeting me, it's so annoying.

Heavy rain on January 5

They locked me in the bathroom, it was so dark. I don't want to write if I'm in a bad mood

It was cloudy on January 7

I'm so lonely, I don't want to go back to live, I want to find someone to talk to, I think of him, he is the only person on campus who cares about me so well.

I told him about my misfortune and their bad behavior, and he was very angry, and I cried as I spoke, and leaned on his shoulder for a while, and it was so warm in my arms. He didn't refuse, he confessed like me, promised to take care of me for the rest of his life, what should I do if I should say yes or not, my heart is beating so fast, my face is so hot, looking at his serious expression, I promised, whether he was serious or not.

Sunny January 9

He was serious, he didn't deceive me, he also announced his love affair to the whole school, I suddenly changed from an ugly duckling to a fairy, life still never treated me badly, and the goddess of fate still favored me. Life is full of sweetness, and I finally met my Prince Charming.

They all looked so funny, gritting their teeth, and the powder on their faces fell down layer by layer, which was ridiculous. They also declared that they would teach me a good lesson and would not let me go. I'm scared hee-hee, but I'm not afraid of anything when he's around me.

Sunny January 12

Life, why do you care so much about me, the future is beautiful, so that I will wake up from my dreams with a smile.

I've been getting more and more wrong these days, I don't know what to think all day, and when I got home, my mother seemed to have noticed my abnormality, but she didn't say anything, just told me to stop in moderation, you and he are not people of the same world.

The ugly duckling is not a swan in reality, don't be whimsical. Mother's tone suddenly became heavier.

I've never seen my mother's tone so heavy, I'm so sad, even my mother is not optimistic about my love with him

January 13th

Mom is a bad mom and today I had another fight with my mom. He was so good to me, he bought a lot of food, and was with me every day. How could it be that my mother who lied to me likes to think blindly, she obviously doesn't understand him, so she guesses casually. It's too much.

January 19th

Sure enough, my mother guessed wrong, my mother really didn't understand the love of young people, and it was outdated. Ziyin is good to me, taking advantage of the holiday, he came to me, we went to play a big circle, went to many places, saw a lot of scenery, the world is so big and beautiful, but it doesn't matter, but as long as he is a beautiful rainbow in everything, he is my world.

……

March 25th

We can't get tired of being together every day, Ziyin is very unhappy today, I made a few new friends, he criticized me fiercely, don't make friends promiscuously, they are not good people, of course I know, but it's boring. Although Ziyin interfered with my private space, I was so happy, he still cared about me so much.

But what I don't understand is why he has so many embarrassing friends, he is so out of place like a crane standing in the flock, but it doesn't matter, it's good that he's mine.

March 26 was fine

Today is another beautiful day, on the playground, very romantic, I leaned on Ziyin's arms, each of the stars in the sky is not as good as my Ziyin, but there is a faint smell of tobacco on his body, doesn't he never smoke.

April 1, April Fool's Day

In the last few days, I have seen less faces, I haven't seen Ziyin for a long time, he said that he was going to pursue his dreams, and today he skipped class again, I heard that he took a play, which is very important, and I am so bored without him by my side, he went to pursue his dreams, and I can only take boring classes and study silently. It's boring.

April 3rd

I haven't seen Ziyin for a long time, and I have seen less and less faces, I heard that he took another play, it is a romance drama, it is a villain, the role of killing his lover, but there are a lot of scenes, it seems that he is one step closer to his dream, and then he came back to see me, and gave me a lot of money, so that I can take good care of myself, I didn't accept it, he still insisted, I accepted it.

But what I want is not money, it's his company, he hasn't been with me for a long time. He left again, and I cried for a long time. But I didn't complain, everyone has to pursue their dreams, don't they, as Ziyin's wife, I want to give my full support so as not to be a calculating little woman.

April 5th

Ziyin, I miss you so much, I haven't seen you for several months, where are you, you always say that you are busy, are you really so busy with filming, and you don't answer the phone, but Ziyin didn't lie to me, I can often see Ziyin in the limelight on TV, I wish him early success, so that you can always accompany me.

Ziyin actually kissed the actress, I was so angry, calm and calm, I was just afraid of the drama.

Ziyin, when are you coming back, I'm so afraid of losing you.

May 6th

They came back again, and laughed at me and said that you abandoned me, dumped me, their demonic language kept provoking me, I seemed to have returned to the darkness, no, I can't I can't believe it, you said you would protect me for the rest of your life, they were jealous of me, they didn't believe it. Hurry up!

June 7

I'm confused, Ziyin, you don't seem to belong to me anymore, my heart hurts, I like to read a book "Gone with the Wind" recently, you bought it for me, don't you always say, people always have to learn to be strong, but my heart is not a stone, it will hurt.

Lu Ziyin, you really shouldn't have deceived me and left me, even if it's true, you should show up quickly, why don't you say goodbye, isn't it good for me to die sooner?

……

……

On the eve of graduation, it rained and it was embarrassing

You're back, you're finally back, but you're cold and desperate, you've changed a lot, you're more handsome, you're more mature, I don't recognize you anymore, you've really changed a lot.

I still remember that you abandoned me in the rain on the eve of graduation, and your cruel language still lingered in my ears, "Yujia, I'm too busy to take care of you, you go and pursue your happiness, people always have dreams," Ziyin is worthy of you, what a far-fetched reason, even breaking up can be said so elegantly.

But I already knew the ending, and I learned to be strong.

"Why?"

"Is it wrong to love someone?"