After many days, the providence has turned cool, and it has entered autumn.

The fierce autumn wind swept away the yellow leaves all over the ground. Once again, all things have entered the cycle of the seasons.

Ridiculous fallen leaves, a lifetime just to wither.

Lu Ziyin stood on the tall building, looking down on everything in the world, he had not slept for several days, his eyes were bloodshot, such a bleak autumn scene, like a warning in the dark, there was a voice echoing in his ears.

Leave, pale world, vulgar mortal world, everything is like a dream, nothing is worth nostalgia, nothing is worth crying.

And when the last wisp of concern dissipates, then the kite will dissipate among the clouds.

When eternal loneliness is swirling, constant grief wells up in the heart.

Lu Ziyin became a poor man, a poor man with a lot of money. And it seems to have become an immortal, not stained by the fireworks of the world, high up, looking down on the world, sure enough, the height is not cold.

I thought that when the bad news came, it would be the culmination of grief, and then I could let time pass and forget about it. Unexpectedly, the grief had just spread like ripples.

Lu Ziyin was busy in front of several graves, holding wreaths in his hands, paying tribute to the people he once loved deeply.

Fate struck one blow after another, who once told me that everything was the best arrangement of fate.

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Lu Ziyin stood in front of the grave, and he was told that the remains of his parents were buried underneath.

Lu Ziyin was sad for a long time before, I don't know why, but this time I couldn't cry, and I wanted to laugh in my heart.

Yes, how ridiculous life is, four catties and eight taels in life, four catties and eight taels in death, and the fire is nothing more than that.

They had children for the rest of their lives, but their own sons were not able to serve them before they died.

Later, Lu Ziyin returned, in the dilapidated old house, Lu Ziyin was used to the taste of being alone, how familiar everything was, the old objects that had accompanied his parents for a long time were placed in front of the window, and the spiders had formed webs and stained with a lot of dust.

Now Lu Ziyin has a lot of free time, but the house is empty, where can he squander his precious time.

When the two most important people in life have left since then, and the important people in life have left, why doesn't God take me away by the way?

Sometimes I wake up from a dream, the occasional laundry sound comes from midnight, and sometimes I stare blankly at the expired milk in the refrigerator. The quilts on the parents' beds are neatly stacked, and there is no chance of unfolding.

For Lu Ziyin, he has nothing left now, and his heart is constantly churning with labor pains. He now lives in a world where there is no light, and the sun is dim.

His career is over, his love is over, and now the only family affection is gone.

He locked himself in the house all day, tidied up the room and put it in place, and turned out some photos and toys from his childhood, hoping that the relics left behind could bring him some comfort.

Just when Lu Ziyin fell into grief, in the small room, with Lu Ziyin's state of mind, an inexplicable sad and sad music was played, not like the music that existed in the world.

Looking at the source of the sound, the mobile phone I just bought yesterday vibrated and whined, prompting that there was a series of new messages unread.

The mobile phone pulled the trance-stricken Lu Ziyin back to reality, the cruel world.

Lu Ziyin picked up his mobile phone, and the time displayed was 4:20.

New text message, Chen Yujia's diary.

Lu Ziyin's pupils naturally reflected, and they were extremely shrunk and thinned into needles. There was a girl on the phone, and she could tell that it was Chen Yujia, but her face was full of scars, and she showed an extremely terrifying smile, I don't know who made such a joke.

Immediately after that, there is a string of messages that the sender is a stranger.

Lu Ziyin stared at Chen Yujia's sickly pictures, recalling that terrifying night, which was also a turning point in his fate.

But now, Lu Ziyin has nothing to fear, after all, he has nothing to lose, even if he puts the devil of hell in front of Lu Ziyin, he will hew.

Chen Yujia's letter, the first line of his eyes, Lu Ziyin read it with a frown.

Sunday, 1 March 1999

Today Mom is in the big box, and Dad is very sad.

Tuesday, March 3

I haven't seen my mother for two days, and my father is gone.

Friday, March 20

My aunt hit me today, it hurts, and I'm going to starve again tonight.

Sunday, March 29

Today, my uncle came to my room and brought me food. And did some strange things.

Friday, April 30

It hurts, and I have to work again.

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12 April 2000

Today there are guests in the house, there are a lot of delicious food on the table, and I can only be in the room.

13 April 2000

Before the guest left, he found me and he gave me candy to eat, it was delicious. This man had a strange look in his eyes, he touched my head, and he had a fight with my uncle, and then he disappeared.

15 April 2000

My uncle hid me.

16 April 2000

Today the house is so lively, there are many people here, people wearing black hats and blue clothes. What did my uncle say to them?

17 April 2000

The guest came with a lot of people, looking for something, and my uncle kept stopping me, and I was accidentally discovered, and I was taken away, and my uncle's face was very unhappy.

18 April 2000

The group asked me a lot of questions, and one of the young ladies gave me a toy. I seem to see my uncle

19 April 2000

I was taken to a large courtyard with many children.

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20 May 2000

Today there is an aunt who is so beautiful, she came to lead me away, she is so gentle, I am so happy.

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June 8, 2009 was sunny

The college entrance examination is finally over, and after three years of hard work, I believe that I will definitely achieve good results.

But there is still some sadness, the boat of friendship is about to merge into the sea, and it is time to leave, but no matter how unforgettable the feast will finally come to an end, this day will fly by.

But now is not the time to be sad, I must be admitted to the ideal university, and I must not live up to my mother's expectations.

I'm so nervous.

On June 20, 2009, the weather was a bit overcast

The results of the college entrance examination came out, but unfortunately I didn't get God's favor and didn't get a book, and I felt a faint sadness in my heart, which disappointed my mother's expectations for me. I shut myself in my room and couldn't stop crying.

But my mother was still so gentle, she didn't blame me, she kept comforting me, encouraging me, and telling me to study hard.

I decided, I want to study hard and improve every day.

On November 13, 2009, the rain passed and the sky was clear

The beautiful life of college is slowly unfolding, and my beautiful life has just begun, Chen Yujia, come on, don't be inferior, don't let others underestimate yourself, you are the best, you must work hard to get along with your classmates, be friendly, cheerful, they will definitely become my friends.

It was cloudy on 14 December 2009

Recently, the university held a campus singing competition, and although I love music, I am embarrassed to participate because I am not full of five notes. Hey, that's a shame.

Later, when I returned to the dormitory, they ignored me and fell into a cold war. Hmph, I don't want to be friends with this group of hypocritical and vain people.

On December 15, 2009, heavy rain turned to light rain

Today, they are still discussing behind my back, what brand-name bags to wear, comparing them, and pleasing each other.

I really don't understand if they're really good friends?

These hateful women scolded me when they had nothing to do, and I didn't say anything. Let them go, I'm used to it now.

Will every time you can fit into their circle, will you be excluded?

They didn't scold me today, they looked like nymphomaniacs. Hmph, they've been talking about it since the morning. Lu Ziyin's name is simply annoying. Who the hell is this person? But the name is so nice.

It was cloudy on 17 December 2009

There are a couple of songs on campus that have been particularly popular lately, and I went and listened to them. I like the song "The Brightest Star in the Night Sky" the most.

Later, I found out that it was Lu Ziyin's original song, so familiar with the name, is it him? I admire him for writing such a good song. I couldn't help but feel good about him in my heart.

December 18, 2009 rainbow after rain

Today is destined to be an unforgettable day, and I met a very cute boy. The sound is good.

I could feel a little lonely about him, the people around him were so different, and yet he was able to mingle with the people around him. I really envy him, why can't I do it, they around me only make me feel hopeless.

However, he seemed to be very familiar with me, we had never met, and greeted me warmly.

He sat next to me during the meal. I can feel the sound of his breathing, so nervous, I don't remember being so ambiguous with a boy.

My heart seems to be beating faster, it's weird.