Xiao Hong's voice suddenly interrupted, her tone was full of impatience, she withdrew from the queue to pour water, and walked to the corner next to her, "What did you just say?" You said you just called Zhou Yimo? …… Mom, are you going too far? I haven't paid off the money I owed her last time, and you went to ask her to borrow money again? …… Did you ask me before you borrowed money from her? …… Who am she? I have nothing to do with her, and she is not my subordinate......" Xiao Hong's slightly dry voice dispersed in the cold wind, and half of her thin figure was blocked by the crowd.

Heizi raised his hand and rubbed his face stiffened by the wind, turned around and wanted to leave, but saw Xiao Hong hang up his mother's phone again, and dialed the number again. Soon it was connected, and she lowered her head and pursed her lips again, wrapping her hand around one of her shoulders.

"Mr. Zhou, I'm sorry to bother you at this time......" Her voice was much softer than just now, and she paused, "Did my mother call you?" …… No, really not, you don't lend her any more money, she can't pay it back, and there's no need to ...... I appreciate your kindness, but please don't answer her phone again......" At this point she paused abruptly, and then there was no more sound.

I don't know if it's talking over there or if both sides are in silence, so after about half a minute, Heizi heard Xiao Hong speak again, "I'm on my way to H City, I'm going to stay there for a few days, wait for me to go back, and I'll contact you when I go back." ”

Then she took the initiative to hang up the phone and turned around with her cup, but just happened to bump into the sunspot standing behind her.

There was still a line of people between the two, and the line for water seemed to have become longer, probably because the weather was too cold, and this little hot water became the only source of heating during the journey, and the two looked at each other for a few seconds, and finally Kuroko walked over first.

"I'll line up, you go back to the car first!" He took Xiao Hong's water cup and handed over the bag of snacks and chestnuts he was carrying.

Xiao Hong paused, but eventually complied.

It took more than ten minutes for Kuroko to return, and he opened the car door and brought in a chill, including the smell of tobacco that was obviously not yet cleared from his body.

"Your cup!" He handed Xiao Hong a cup full of hot water, and fastened his seat belt sideways.

Xiao Hong didn't say anything, and after Kuroko fastened her seat belt, she turned around and saw that she didn't move, paused, and asked, "Is it cold?" ”

Xiao Hong remained silent.

Kuroko was a little helpless, and saw that the bag of chestnuts rested on her knees and didn't seem to move, so she spoke again: "I just saw that there was a sale next to the supermarket, so I weighed it casually, it should still be hot, if you haven't eaten, you will be hungry first." ”

Xiao Hong turned her face at this time, but she didn't speak, and looked at the sunspot in a daze.

Kuroko lowered his head and gasped, sometimes he didn't dare to look directly into Xiao Hong's eyes, and after a while, he finally couldn't help asking, "It was your mother on the phone just now?" ”

Xiao Hong: "......"

Kuroko: "Asked you for money again?" ”

Xiao Hong: "......"

Kuroko: "Heh, it really hasn't changed at all over the years!" ”

Xiao Hong: "......"

It's all Kuroko's own words, the atmosphere is so stiff that it can't work, Kuroko swallows his breath and lowers his head, and only speaks again after a few seconds: "You haven't been back all these years?" ”

"What do you think?" Xiao Hong finally replied, but her attitude was extremely cold.

Kuroko smiled bitterly, why didn't he know?

"Do you hate your mother?"

"If you were you, do you hate it?"

Kuroko shook his head: "This metaphor can't be established, I don't even know what my mother looks like." "He is an orphan, it is said that his mother died not long after he was born, and it has not been easy since he was a child, in fact, in essence, Heizi and Xiao Hong are actually the same kind of people, born shabby, abandoned by God, lonely, the only difference is that the roles played by the two are different.

He appeared in Xiao Hong's life as an "accomplice" and a "perpetrator", and this primitive antagonistic relationship caused Xiao Hong to always have a thorn in his heart.

"How many times have you met my mom?" Xiao Hong asked suddenly.

This is really a cruel question, cruel to both parties, but Xiao Hong forced him to answer, and Heizi lowered his head and thought for a while: "I don't remember, but I ended it with her in person every time I checked out the bill in those two years." ”

"You call it an account?"

"Xiao Hong......"

"Every time you come to school, I'll go to that little hotel once, and you'll go to my mom to settle the bill when you're done, right?"

Heizi didn't dare to look at Xiao Hong's eyes more and more, he lowered his head, and there were constantly figures walking by outside the window, but there was an atmosphere in the car that was about to suffocate.

The topic that was rarely pulled away suddenly seemed to be a dead end, until Xiao Hong said in an almost self-deprecating tone: "It's really like a skin and meat deal, my mother is an old bustard, you are a leather and a customer, and I am the one who was stripped naked and thrown on the bed to sell!" ”

"Xiao Hong......"

"It's rare, isn't it? Didn't you feel this way every time you paid my mom in those two years? ”

"Nope!"

"None? Not at all? Scold...... So what did you think at the time? ”

"I think this is the last time, it must be the last time, after paying this time, I will go to the school to pick you up, let's change places, change cities, I can earn money to support you, you can continue to study, and I will never let you suffer again!" Kuroko finished speaking in one breath, with an emotional fluctuation that Xiao Hong had never seen before, and then the air in the car seemed to freeze for a moment.

She looked at the man in front of her, familiar and unfamiliar, with the despair that had been repeated day and night ten years ago. It's really ridiculous, at that moment, Xiao Hong's heart trembled violently, and she lowered her head with a sense of soreness.

"You said you wanted to take me away, but every time you led me over, you blindfolded me, took me to the little hotel, and then you cleaned up the mess, wiped me clean, dressed me, and sent me back to school...... Any idea what this looks like? Xiao Hong couldn't help but really laugh, "It's like you're a hell messenger, pushing me into hell again and again, and bringing me out of hell again and again, but you didn't take me away, for two whole years, you had so many opportunities, but you still left me there......"

Xiao Hong has not complained about anyone, for so many years, she has suffered so much, but in her heart, she really has not complained about anyone, and even she does not complain about fate, she just bears it silently and survives those years silently, but she doesn't like to listen to sunspots say such things.

"If you really want to take me away, why haven't you put it into action? …… After all, thinking and doing are two different things! She finished her words with a light smile, with a sense of mockery, without blame and resentment, but like a sharp sword straight into Kuroko's heart.

Over the years, he has not dared to recall those things ten years ago, and he has never dared to say some things, and he has not even had the courage to stay with her for a long time, but these cowardice and guilt are far inferior to the words Xiao Hong said.

She just understated it, but like a net, she completely buried the sunspot in hell that will never see the light of day.

Yes, thinking and doing are two different things, and the truth is that no matter how distressed and unwilling he was back then, he still brought Xiao Hong to a situation from which he could never recover.

The air in the car seemed to be completely cleaned, and Kuroko lowered his head and stayed there for a long time, until the car next to him started and whistled, and he pulled himself out of his thoughts.

"Am I no longer in a position to make amends?"

"Remedy?" Xiao Hong still smiled and shook her head, "You don't need to make amends, after all, you don't owe me anything, and the culprit is not you, okay, let's go, we've been delayed here for more than half an hour." ”

In the second half of the road, the sunspot became more silent, but Xiao Hong's mood slowly stabilized, and in the second half of the way, she even began to wear headphones to peel chestnuts and eat.

Kuroko knows that she has super self-healing power, ten years ago she collapsed again and again in that small hotel in the town, she didn't cry or make a fuss and immersed herself in her own world, and she would soon be calm, but where did this super self-healing power come from? From the despair and misery she has suffered for so many years, it is like a cycle of reincarnation, no one can save her, if she does not heal herself, she can only seek death.

Almost an hour later, Kuroko's car stopped at the entrance of the sanatorium in Xishan, and Xiao Hong took her duffel bag and got out of the car.

"Thank you for sending me here, let's go first, no parking is allowed here." After she finished speaking, she turned around to leave, but after a few steps, Kuroko chased after her.

"I actually always knew that Shen Xiaojuan's younger brother Shen Wei lived here, but he never came, since they are all here today, let's go in with you and have a look."

At that time, the cool breeze was blowing, and the shadows on both sides of the road were swaying, Xiao Hong glanced at the figure standing in front of him, and finally nodded, "Okay, let's take a look." "Behold what you have done.

When Xiao Hong entered the ward, her aunt had already packed up her things and sat on a chair and waited, and when she saw someone coming in, she immediately stepped forward, "Xiaohong is really sorry, I asked you to come over so late." When it was over, I saw the sunspot following Xiao Hong, "......Who is this?" ”

"My friend, come and see Xiaowei." Xiao Hong replied casually, causing the aunt to look at the sunspot twice, tall and wearing a half-worn sweater, he should look quite young, but because of his gloomy face, he didn't look easy to approach.

"Your friend, let's talk, I'll go first." Auntie doesn't like to ask Xiao Hong more about her private affairs, and she is also interested, so she turned around and was about to go out with her bag, but when she walked to the door, she was stopped by Xiao Hong.

"Wait!" Xiao Hong caught up and took out a small red envelope from her bag, "I just happened to have something to do recently, so I didn't prepare anything for you, this is a supermarket card issued by our unit, and there are also chain stores here in H City, you can go buy something yourself." ”

Xiao Hong handed over the envelope, but the aunt refused to accept it, "You don't have to send me something every holiday, you can keep the card yourself, I usually live in the courtyard, and I don't need it." ”

"Why don't you need it? Your son comes back for the Spring Festival, you can always buy some New Year's goods! ”

"I really don't need to, Xiaohong, don't be polite to me, it's not easy for you to talk about yourself, Auntie knows that you are short of money these days." She pushed the envelope into Xiaohong's arms again and again, and put the bag on her shoulder, "Xiaowei, I just wiped him this afternoon, just wash his face before going to bed for a while, okay, don't talk about it, I have to catch the last train, I have to call if I have something!" The aunt then bypassed Xiao Hong and went out, making Xiao Hong awkwardly stand at the door holding the shopping card until Heizi came over.

"She's the caregiver you hired?"

Xiao Hong sighed, "In the past few years, she has been here to help me take care of Xiaowei." ”

"Then your boss is quite generous!"

"......" Xiao Hong glanced at Ah Xing, put the envelope into his bag and returned to the ward. The ward was as quiet as ever, and the lights were dim, so the aunt only left a lamp at the head of the bed before leaving, which made the atmosphere really depressing.

Xiao Hong put the bag on the table, washed her face with water, and the person was a lot more refreshed, seeing that the sunspot was still in place, she glanced at the person on the bed, "The person you want to see is there!" ”