Chapter 16 Why shout and cut your throat and pretend to be crazy and stupid heroes Like a supporting character who has lost the plot, he is selling ridicule

Cangnan leaned over and kissed my forehead, holding my face and said gently, "Beimo, you are really the kindest, most heartfelt and most tolerant girl in this world, there is no one in this world who is like you, so I am so afraid that you don't have me in your heart, so I will doubt you, it is my bad, I always make you wronged, and I always make you sad and forgive me again and again." ”

"Fool, of course you are in the most important position in my heart, otherwise how could I become such a ghost because of your words, so that everyone can't stand it." I burst into tears and laughed, and said helplessly to Cangnan.

"Go, follow me," suddenly he took my hand and ran forward, and then came to the grass next to the playground, only to see a boy sitting there holding a guitar, Cangnan smiled shyly at me, and then slowly walked over.

When I got closer, I realized that it was Wu Tianyi, and when he saw us, he immediately breathed a sigh of relief, and said with relief, "Big brother, you are here, I have waited for the flowers, you two are watching the snow and the moon, and I am alone looking at the sky and the grass and drinking the northwest wind!" ”

Cang Nan took the guitar in his hand and retorted to him with a smile, "Who asked you not to find someone to watch with you, who doesn't know that you are picking and choosing from two ends in three days!" ”

"Hey, hey, you can eat indiscriminately, but you can't talk nonsense," Luo Tianyi said with a hippie smile, then turned his head and smiled evilly at me and said, "Yes, sister-in-law, I'm still looking forward to you building a bridge for me." ”

"I'll just say that you kid won't help me so easily, it turns out that you have other scheming," Cangnan suddenly pointed at Wu Tianyi and opened his mouth incredibly, Luo Tianyi hurriedly came over to cover his mouth, and then walked away with a smile, turned around and said to us with bad intentions, "I wish you all good dreams tonight, I won't bother you here." ”

Looking at the two of them in a game, I didn't understand what was going on, so I hurriedly asked Cangnan, but he said that he also knew what Tianyi was thinking, although Luo Tianyi was not particularly handsome, but his laughing and humorous personality still made him win the favor of many girls, but he didn't seem to be with others for more than a week, and the strangest thing was that girls who generally broke up and played very well with him as friends, and they didn't hate him.

"Beimo, this is the song I wrote after the quarrel, just waiting to sing it to you, this is my second plan," Cangnan winked at me mischievously, and then said frankly, "The main thing is that I am afraid that I won't be able to conquer you on the playground, so I prepared a backup plan, hehe." ”

Before he started singing, I held Cangnan's hand and said to him seriously, "Cangnan, I can't lie to you, I and Beilu are not brothers and sisters, and he is not just a brother and sister to me, or even a more important person than a brother and sister, but I can only promise you that there is absolutely no love between me and Beilu, and it is impossible for me to have a relationship with Beilu from the time my sister says her heart." However, the North Road is really important to me, maybe you won't understand, he is the one who rescued me from the darkness, the one who has been with me for ten years, so I will never allow anyone to say that he is not good at all, can you understand me? ”

Cangnan thought for a moment, and then said sincerely, "Don't worry, Beimo, I won't think about it anymore, it's because I'm too superficial to think like that, I just want you to be happy." ”

Although it is night, I seem to be able to feel the temperature of the sun, and sure enough, the temperature is still from the inside to the outside, as long as the heart is warm, I am not afraid of the wind and cold, I am not afraid of the night, and I am not worried about trekking through mountains and rivers.

You are the Eiffel Tower in Paris, the big windmill in the Netherlands;

You are the cherry blossoms of Japan, the long style street of Italy;

You are the plane tree on the roadside of Nanjing, the spring bay of Qingdao;

You are a girl by the water in Suzhou, and the sound of the piano on the roadside in Taiyuan;

You are a boat on the long street of Wuhan, a shining night light in Xi'an;

You are a kite on the wall of Chang'an, a sparrow in the early morning and morning exercises;

You are my lifelong dream and my spiritual pillar for the future.

Cangnan's beautiful song is the most beautiful sound in the universe and the most beautiful word in my mind.

If it weren't for this quarrel, I don't think I would have learned to cherish, cherish the person in front of me, cherish the person who is good to me, cherish all the time together, and I won't find that all the sadness is no match for you and you are not in front of me, all the happiness is not as good as you and I are living peacefully in this world, waiting for my greetings, waiting for your well.

Cangnan said that Beilu called him again to explain the situation, but he was unwilling to tell me the content specifically, just said that I had so many things he didn't understand, and it turned out that his kindness to me was far less than one-ten-thousandth of that of Beilu, and it turned out that I was such a distressing girl, and he easily let it down.

Later, when we went to Beilu to thank him, his eyes were as sad and clear as ever, and he just smiled lightly and said, as long as you are happy, it is my greatest happiness, don't say thank you to me.

Then he turned his head to Cangnan and said solemnly, "Cangnan, you are a good person, I hope you are the same, if you love someone, you should watch her be happy, and happiness is a kind of luck, isn't it?" ”

I didn't understand what they meant, Qu Yan pulled me to cook, I forgot the doubts just now, and followed Qu Yan to the kitchen to learn to cook with great interest, but I succeeded in making the braised tofu into charcoal-roasted tofu, the chopped pepper fish head into chopped pepper fish soup, and the fried vegetables into fried yellow cabbage.

Time, time, please walk slowly, let me quietly feel the beauty of this moment.

I closed my eyes and quietly enjoyed the beauty of this moment, enjoyed the warm arms of Cangnan, enjoyed the slight evening breeze, enjoyed the gentle scent of grass, everything seemed to be so natural and wonderful, people were reluctant to leave, reluctant to open their eyes, reluctant to get up and go back.

The sound of a broken wine bottle broke the silence, brightening the entire starry sky, Yindi's invective and crying surprised us all, and quickly got up to catch Yindi, who was about to fall, there was a beer bottle in her hand that was shaking, she shook off my hand and approached Cangnan's arms, and then gently stroked his cheek, stared at Cangnan drunkenly and said, "You're here, don't you go, Song Cangnan, Song Cangnan, why are you only smiling so happily at her?" Why are you only good to me when you're sad? ”

I was stunned to look at the sound in front of me, it was completely different from the usual arrogant appearance, she was probably drunk, but she spoke clearly, and she spoke very clearly, her face was crimson and she stared at Cangnan intently, and then her eyes slowly turned red, covered with a thick layer of mist, she just watched quietly, crying quietly, and didn't make a sound for a long time, we didn't know what to say, or didn't know how to break the deadlock.

Love is always like this, either happy to the extreme, or sad to the end, at this time the sound is like this, I know that her love for Cangnan depends on Cangnan and all the beautiful fantasies of Cangnan will not be inferior to me, they can be regarded as childhood sweethearts, but Qingmei is intentional, bamboo horses are ruthless, but at that time she had put him in the bottom of her heart and waited for an opportunity to spread out her hands and hug and kiss in the future, but at that time he was just immersed in hard work, just addicted to music and intoxicated with interest, but the love has not opened and has left Yindi. So Yindi has been waiting for his return, but he is not eager to return, but he does not know that he is in a distance to meet others, after he is accustomed to the dryness and blazing of the north, after he is accustomed to the cold and dust of the north, he is extremely curious about the smoke and rain in the south of the Yangtze River, he has a deep love for the southern landscape, and he has already left before he has time to listen to her tell about the tenderness in his heart, and he will naturally not be in a hurry to go back, and he will naturally not feel affection.

He just gave you a rose when you were sad, and from then on you took him in your heart and looked forward to holding hands with him.

I just met a sea of people at the beginning of his love, and I can't forget the entanglement of a lifetime and is unwilling to let go.

He's just sending a withered flower, maybe he just happened to guess what you were saying. This is love, it always needs the right time, the right place, always the right time, the right people, always the time, the characters, not too early and not too late, it can't be Zhang San or Li Si, it can only be you.

I asked Cangnan if he hadn't gone far away at the beginning, if he and Yindi had been living well in that city like that, and then the two of them were admitted to the same university together like now, would he have saved a lot of troubles, and would they be a natural pair of talented men and women that everyone admires?

If I can't meet you, then I'd rather not have love, whether it's smooth sailing or rough sailing, only you are the only heroine. Cangnan's words are like lines in a novel, but I was still moved for a long time.

Yindi's pity is so obvious, in this plot, she is destined to play a bitter love scene, I can't help but look at her unbearable, but she loves me the most I can't give in and give up is Cangnan who I also love, if it's other items, even if it's bankrupt, I'm willing to give in for such a pitiful her, but what she falls in love with is also a feeling that I can't give up.

"If she's gone, will you just smile at me?" Yindi's desolate cold words penetrated into the eardrums, her voice was not loud, but the words were like ice sculptures, I couldn't help but shudder, her words were clear, not like drunken gibberish, but so firm and natural, every word, I raised my face and looked at Yindi who was crying in front of me, I couldn't imagine how tormented her heart was, it was hard to imagine how much she hated me or how much she hated my presence or even my existence.

Before I could think clearly and come back to my senses, I heard Yindi's almost crazy voice strike again, "Yin Beimo, it's all your fault, all of this is caused by you, I'm going to kill you!" Before she could finish speaking, I waved the beer bottle in her hand, and I saw a flash of green light in front of me, and then a violent sound of glass shattering to the ground.

"Hey, are you crazy!" Cangnan hurriedly kicked the glass bottle flying in the air, and then slipped from my side and became a debris all over the ground, like a brilliant firework in front of my eyes, and like a broken sound of youth. I didn't feel so frightened or hated her, just a deep sadness, a sadness for Yindi, she was so noble, everything about her was so amazing and so seemingly perfect, she really shouldn't be scarred for a man, not like her at all.

I used to dye my hair red, only go to the bustling streets, smoke only the cigarettes he loves, wear only the clothes he likes to see, only do the things he cares about, and only learn anything impossible for him, including cooking. A passage that Sister Qu Yan said to me sounded in my mind, but I didn't see her at that time, at this time she no longer smoked, no longer dyed her hair, no longer wore gorgeous clothes, and no longer walked alone at night. She lived her life cleanly and steadily, she had a crumbling castle in her heart, but she no longer bothered to clean up the broken rubble.

But I didn't know, she said, that he didn't like girls who smoked, that he didn't like girls who roamed the bars like him, that he didn't like roses in troubled times, that he liked hibiscus in the water, and that I was a thorny rose, and that by the time I understood he had lost the sight he longed for.

Compared with our emotions, our emotions, big and small, always feel that Qu Yan's story is so unforgettable, so unfathomable, and so vigorous, but I regret that I can't witness it with my own eyes, so I can only listen carefully and slowly understand.

The drunken and hazy Yindi was still making a noise, I had no way with Cangnan, and I didn't know where her dormitory was, so I had to call Xichen, planning to let Yindi go to our dormitory for one night first.

The moment he received my call, Xichen was stunned and confirmed in disbelief, "You don't have a fever in your brain, do you?" Are you sure it's the Yindi? ”

"My brain is as clear as the sun that has just risen, I can't help her alone, you can come and help, Cangnan is not very convenient to enter." I replied to her with a smile and winked at Cangnan, who was slightly nervous next to me.

It didn't take long for Xichen to run down, when we took the sound from Cangnan's hand, she was reluctant to live or die, and struggled to be with Cangnan, the dormitory manager aunt looked at us and sighed helplessly and shook her head, "The children are really difficult to manage now." ”

When I was about to approach the corridor, Cangnan called out softly to me in the back, and when he turned around, his expression was complicated, there was deep guilt in his eyes, and his brows were tightly wrinkled, "Beimo, thank you." ”

I understand what he meant, I understand all his guilt, I understand his full apologies, if it wasn't for the quarrel with me, if it wasn't for the desire for warmth when she was sad, if it wasn't for the hope that Yindi saw after being injured, she wouldn't be so difficult to accept at this moment, the process of expectation and despair is naturally very painful, and naturally it is useless to torture herself desperately.

"Go back, we'll take care of her." I replied softly, as long as he had me in his heart, it was enough, so why bother to make everyone uncomfortable so much.

"I don't want to go back, I want to be with Cangnan, I don't want him to go away." Yindi kept calling all the way, and Xichen looked at Yindi, who was covered in alcohol, and didn't dare to accept it at all, "Oh my God, how much has she drunk like this, she doesn't recognize it at all." ”

Before he walked in the door, Cai Qiang shouted at me, "Yin Beimo, are you a pig?" Be a good person and see people clearly, how did you bring her in, who gave you kindness, my aunt. ”

After saying that, she came over and closed the door and refused to let us in, allowing us to say all the good things outside, until Yin Di Wow vomited on the ground in an instant, Cai Qiang opened the door and exclaimed, "My eldest lady, are you sent by God to punish me?" ”

Xichen and I quickly helped Yindi to walk in and throw her on the bed, both of them were tired and had back pain, feeling that the bones were about to fall apart, but there was still the pile she had just vomited at the door waiting for me to clean up, Lins helped me hold the wave, and chanted on the side, "At the end of the north, you are the image of a great silly girl who exudes a thousand rays of light at the moment, there are not many stupid people like you, why haven't you included the moving Chinese characters?" Don't you know that this vomit is more disgusting than half digested? In particular, the mixture of alcohol and food is unimaginable. ”

"How can you bring in your own rival, next time you chirp crookedly, you will do it yourself." Cai Qiang knocked on my head and counted me down fiercely, but he still used a mop to wash and mop the place I had just vomited for me, and I leaned next to her to flatter, "Cai Ye, you are the best person in the world, I know that although you say this, you will definitely not ignore me, you can't bear to ignore her like this, right?" ”

"She's the best person in the whole world, so what about us?" Xichen and Lins stopped what they were saying, looked at me with dissatisfaction, stared at me numbly, and I smiled and said, "You are the most beautiful people in the world." ”

Just as we had finished cleaning at this end, Yindi on the other side unexpectedly sat up and threw up a bunch of things on my bed, and suddenly we were all stunned, and my face fell a little bit, and turned green a little bit, but Yindi looked at us drunken and smirked at us for no reason, and after a while he sang alone, dancing and jumping on the bed, and after less than two minutes he was crying again, so that the dormitory next to him took turns to come to us.

The four of us looked at each other, not knowing what to do with her, and after cleaning this end, new residues were added to the other end, and finally we were all half tired and half-dead, without any strength, and the whole dormitory was smoky and stinking.

Cai Qiang waved his hand and sat on the chair and said, "Beimo, you better take her away, if this continues, we will either be coaxed away, or we will be smoked to death." And if you look at your bed, can you still sleep, and you can't even ask for sheets, right? ”