In the last few months, I worked hard every day, and sometimes I couldn't persevere, but seeing him, my motivation came again...

But later, I found out that he seemed to be different from before, and all kinds of girls began to appear around him, each of which seemed to have a good relationship with him, and I was no longer the only one around him... I no longer dare to ask him who his best friend of the opposite sex is, I'm afraid I'll hear someone else's name...

I began to be cautious...

For his sake, I try not to do things he doesn't like, for fear that he will be disgusted with me... In order not to delay him from playing with other girls, I look for him less and less... In order not to block his emotional path, when I see him with other girls, I will leave far away... But... It seems that things are becoming less and less like what I want to see...

I was always self-righteous and thought he was thinking of me as an important person, and even though we were communicating less and less, I thought so...

I have a notebook dedicated to him, it's my own secret, no one knows, the notebook is full of everything about him... And what I want to say to him...

I thought I'd surprise him when I graduated, but this notebook is now my memory...

On that sunny afternoon, as if everything was calm, my good brother told me that he wanted to introduce him to someone, a girl who had liked him for a long time... I don't remember what I was thinking, it was like tears were about to come out, but they never stayed... Because it wasn't what he said, I left a glimmer of hope in my heart...

But... That night, he came to me, I pretended to be calm, I was very excited, I pretended not to know, I asked him what was wrong... He said, "What do you think of me if I deal with someone?" "I also admired my concentration, I smiled and said to him, it's good, come on... After saying that, we both turned and left, he turned around and left to promise the girl, and I... Laughing and laughing and crying... I let the tears wet my cheeks, the tears were salty, but I felt bitter, I knew that the boy I had loved for a long time was not mine...

After having a girlfriend, he seems to be more cheerful... He started to have a better relationship with another girl in the class, and I probably forgot about it...

I forced myself not to think about him, not to look at him, I tried to give up on him... I smile at everyone, make new friends, look for confidants... Paralyze yourself, tell yourself that you don't like him anymore, don't look for him...

When I go to the store with my friends, I force myself to put the chocolates back because I am used to them, as if I have forgotten them... Although I still can't help it, I bought it and put it in my pocket, wondering if I would have a chance to give it to him...

I don't actually like sugar, I have bad teeth since I was a child, and it hurts to eat sugar... But I can always dig out the candy in my pocket that I don't know when I put it in, because he has low blood sugar, that is when I saw his lips white after physical education class before, and after learning about it, I know that he always doesn't eat on time so he has low blood sugar...

As the exam got closer and closer, I began to face the exam wholeheartedly, thinking about nothing, filling my time with knowledge, and not allowing myself to have any time to think about him...

Later, during the mock test before the exam, I saw him on the playground after self-study in the evening, and he pulled his girlfriend and walked slowly... I looked away and turned away....

Gradually, I realized that without him, I could...