Later, he and I seemed to drift apart, and on the eve of graduation, I wrote him a letter... A year later, I probably remember what the contents of this letter were...

Dear Mr. S,

Hello!

Please don't mind if I call you that, for some reason, I have the courage to pick up a pen and paper and write to you, in fact, I have wanted to write something to you for a long time, but I have never known where to start...

In the past three years, we have gone from strangers to classmates, friends, tablemates, brothers, confidants... Later, slowly our relationship got better and better... Then I found out that I seem to be secretly in love with you...

Several times I tried to summon up the courage to show you what I felt, but I was pressed back by your bright eyes, and I was so afraid to look into your eyes that I had to keep the words in my heart. I've never liked someone like this, and even the unhappiness of the past has not erased the brilliance of this crush! But when faced with it, I am always cowardly, I don't have the courage to face it, I try to force myself not to think about you, not to disturb you and her peaceful life...

You said you, there is no hope, but it doesn't make me despair, you appear when I'm ready to give up, let me hesitate again, I'm really hard, it's really tiring to have a crush on someone and love, I want to give up.

What it's like to be ready to give up someone you've liked for a long time, and never have to think hard about what topic to bother him with today. Maybe I don't like him, and I'll be happier later. In the end, he still can't become what he likes. May those he loves love him all his life. I was about to give up on him, but I felt like I was abandoned by the whole world.

I told myself that I could live happily without you, so I chose to leave, to leave your life, to leave your sight, and I wanted to keep all the pain to myself.

I was looking forward to it, but after all, I still fantasized...

I also thought that it would be fine, and I could still hold on, but I found that it was just my wishful thinking, and I couldn't hold on anymore...

Sometimes I wonder why people don't know themselves very clearly. Then I began to truly understand myself, and I devoured this pain with my silence. From the day I wanted to leave you, I started all over again, and I stopped telling people about what I liked about you. I knew it was a choice, a firm choice, and I knew I would pay a heavy price for it, but I told myself I wasn't going back...

But I don't want to feel sorry for myself, so I want to tell you in the end that I like you very much... I like it very much...

Actually, I don't know if you'll have the patience to read this letter... If you mind this letter, sorry to bother you, just skip the last paragraph...

I'm about to graduate, I don't know what will happen in the future, more than a thousand days and nights of getting along, the happy times and innocent years are engraved in my memory, to graduate these days I just want to say to you in the name of friendship: "I wish you a bright future, we will have a period in the future"

Haha, this letter is from your good brother!

June 2019...

This was the end of the letter, and I was hot-headed, and when I had finished writing it, I shoved it directly into his hand, and then turned around and walked away, not saying anything, not that I didn't want to say it, but that I couldn't say it at all....

Unexpectedly, it didn't take long for me to receive a reply from him, and the whole page was full of...